not surprising...

Despite the everything, we still forget we have something that is considered all and complete. Just like my writing, I forgot, as a `small time writer' I have written a lot in this blog since 2008. And surprisingly to me I am only have today and  still clinging to something that I considered not mine. Am I? Yes it is yours. Is it? That includes the age. Have you forgotten your age? So it is not surprising to witness something that just do not make sense to you, but it can be a very sensible thing to other than you. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

made in consciousness...

Consciousness. That explains. We are what we are conscious of. Thus we can be capable of anything, from A to Z, literally speaking. The first instance of something that has to do with pain, we are conscious of death. On this consciousness, do we have to cheat ourself? We are made of consciousness. Name it. And you are very much part of it. Of anger, of love, of hate, all in the consciousness and we are made of it. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

keberatan...

Ada hari terasa membuat sesuatu tidak serancak dulu. Mengapa? Soalan di tanya? Dengan Kuasa Allah maka tertulis jawapan mengatakan bahawa dalam apa jua keadaan seseorang itu sama ada dalam keadaan pemulangan atau dalam keadaan diberi sesuatu. Lantas situasi seseorang adalah dalam banyak angka dan jangka. Dan angka dan jangka dalam soal beri dan memberi, maka terasalah persoalan kerberatan yang disebutkan pada permulaan cetusan tadi. Wallahualam. Allahakabr.

discovering the difference...

I discover a difference today. Such an outright disregard of what should be the basic principles of taking and giving. Why the trespassing into territories that should begin with a permission? It is an outright violation of the first order. And with this consciousness I should always be on guard against such an intrusion. Memohon PerlindunganNYA. Allahuakbar.

about oneself...

It is all about oneself. It is all about one's worldly fear.When one reaches the so-called `top', it can be seen as everything is `mine' and I `own' it. Yes, that can be seen as the prevailing attitude in all `sectors' of life. What about `death'? We are not being given the power in `managing death', so to speak. That is where `the sweet revenge' of `life obsession' takes place. It is a `court' where no human being presides. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-Galanya. Hari kita dihisab oleh Allah adalah merupakan keadilan yang sebenarnya. Allahuakbar.

the older you are..

The older you are the lonelier you would become. And for the lonelier one, beware of the worldly traps laid on the way. Are all those true to everybody? But looking from a different perspective, old age is not supposed to be seen as becoming lonelier. Old age can be associated with distancing. To them everything shall be kept at a distance. It is logical to see oneself as nearer to Allah than to what is on the ground which he sees as no more of relevance. What awaits everybody especially the older ones, are moment in the parting of life to death. With that understanding and consciousness, it eliminates fear especially in the old people. And also with that thought, life and death would be made simple, more of a smoother transition, so to speak. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

freeing yourself..

Feel I am tied to the toe. Why should my life being dictated by those whose commitment is not 100 percent? Life has always been a dream. A day starts with a dream and it ends in the night with a dream. So what is left? What has never been a dream. Allahuakbar.

winning..

Beware of individuals who sees other as nobody and as nothing. Absolute nothing and absolute nobody.This individual in actual fact lives in her or his own world. Often times I have been trapped by this behavior. As from today, I shall be free from a situation where I am on the losing end. I shall live to where and what I am. But can they understand it? They don't. This writing is strictly for me. Allahuakbar.

when advice comes from a wrong source...

I am all alone by myself. It is almost 12 midnight. But I am writing this telling to myself that of late I have been making wrong decisions. The benchmark and basis of all decisions should be happiness here, now, and the months to come. But I have been advised wrongly. It is nobody's fault but mine. Others might have a different basis for the decisions. Most, money factor has become the basis for decisions. Not you. Next time, don't ask them. When comes to happiness, it is strictly the realm of instincts. And you have good, reliable, and trusted instincts. Semoga Allah sentiasa bersama saya. Allahuakbar.

tidak mengenal...

Keajaiban hidup adalah mati. Adakah kita mengenal mati? Hanya yang mati mengenal mati. Begitu juga dengan mereka yang sihat. Adakah mereka yang sihat mengenal sakit dan sebaliknya? Begitu juga kemiskinan dan kekayaan. Sudah lumrah, apa yang disebutkan tadi tidak mengenal antara satu dengan yang lain. Adakah itu keajaiban keajaiban yang sukar difahami dengan mata kasar. Atau ianya hanya difahami dengan mata batin? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

ruang kecil yang begitu luas...

Ruangnya kecil dan segalanya berlaku dengan pantas. Tidak berpeluang berfikir panjang.Tetapi impaknya membawa persoalan kehidupan keseluruhannya bagi seseorang. Ada mengambilnya sebagai sudah tersurat dan menerima adanya apa yang berlaku. Sudah pasti begitu.Tidak ada kesudahan bagi semua perkara melainkan mati. Allahuakbar.

menonton sebuah lakonan..

Baru terasa bahawa itu hanya lakonan. Dirasakan ada sekat sekat yang mengawal percakapan dan perbuatan. Walaupun hidup ini dicipta dengan kebebasan tertentu pada pemikiran dan perbuatan, tidak terasa pada lakonan yang jelas dikawal oleh skrip yang datangnya dari seseorang. Saya hanya menonton sebuah lakonan dan mendengar sebuah nyanyian. Saya sentiasa menyoal dan bertanya adakah mereka yang hidup ini ada persamaan dengan sebuah lakonan dan adakah mereka benar benar memahami dan mengerti apa yang diucapkan? Atau mereka sendiri dikawal oleh skrip hati yang seketul itu? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Days can never be the same...

Bound to see something different happen everyday. Despite the old age, I am still young when comes to events and happenings. Despite I am real careful with my driving, I am yet to experience a near car crash situation. And today it actually happened. A Mercedes is trying to make a crash on my car. I only thank Allah for nothing bad transpired from the incident. Allahuakbar.

Do they only make noises?

What are they doing? They are small. But they don't behave like one. They are all over the places. And they are far from being kind and good. They go to war. They fight each other. They killed each other. When comes to intelligence, it is a `filled-up intelligence', an intelligent that can be repaired to suit one's need. Have they been sincere when coming up to and help each other? They didn't die at the same time. Neither they are born to this world at the same time, together. So how could they be kind and good to each other? What could be possibly bind them? Allahuakbar.

Kesetarafan dan hak...

Kesetarafan dan hak. Bila perjuangannya akan berakhir?

Mohon dan usahakan kesetarafan dan hak diri kerana Allah. Manusia bersikap zalim terhadap soal hak dan kesetarafan. Sebab itu ianya satu perjuangan manusia sejagat, tidak mengira tempat, dan masa dan tidak menampakkan titik nokhtahnya. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Pengasih, Allah Yang Maha Penyayang, Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.