am I still up to something? Or I am playing their game..?

It is either which. Nothing in between. It is either for or against. It is either gaining strength or losing strength. But as for me, it is neither nor either. Don't have to say more. It is all with a meaning. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar. 

Obama has left Malaysia for Philippines..

After 48 years, Barack Obama makes an historic visit to Malaysia. Before that Lyndon B Johnson in the year 1966. Let us do some mathematics on when will be the next visit by President of USA to Malaysia. 2014 minus 1966 = 48.  2014 + 48 = 2062. If Malaysia failed to live up to modern technology and still fared badly in all spheres of competition, year 2062 would be the likely year another President of USA would be visiting Malaysia. If we live up to expectations of a futuristic world and universe, it might be sooner. The basic principle of survival of the fittest still rules what comes first and what comes second. Semoga Allah memberi Kekuatan kepada Malaysia lantas dapat mendahului negara lain dalam kemajuan apa sahaja. InsyaAllah. Allahuakbar.

performance measured..

Performance can be measured in its entirety. How and why? It is easy. Just have to narrow my efforts and results. No more in years and months but in days and hours.And no more big dreams of tomorrow. My tomorrow is today. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

1966 -1984 - 2014..and 1967

Don't get me wrong. The year 1966 reminds me of Lyndon Baine Johnson, 36th President of USA then make an historic first visit of USA's President to Malaysia on his way to Vietnam then in the midst of Vietnam war. I was then at Rubber Research Institute Sg Buloh undergoing a 3 months training for the position of Assistant Rubber Instructor. It has been said the President would be visiting RRI Sg Buloh and how excited I am for it would be my chance to see in person President of USA. Unfortunately, for security reason, it was canceled at the last minute.

Again, in the year 1984 (?), I was presented with another opportunity to see another President of USA, and he is Ronald Reagan. He is going to be at Waterbury, Connecticut, USA, campaigning for his second-term being President of USA. I was then a student at New Haven, a town just a few miles from Waterbury. Again, I missed the opportunity because, for security reasons, all roads leading to Waterbury were closed.

2014 could be year of just having a glance at Barack Obama on TV. He is the 44th President of USA making an historic two-day visit to Malaysia, after 48 years of Lyndon Johnson's visit. But by now the thrill is not like yesterday. Those days we have issues like `cold war', `vietnam war', `apatheid', and a growing communist MaoTseTung's influence and threat in South East Asia. 

Still want to see Obama? I could just make a trip to KL, a 2-hour journey from Temerloh. But that 2 hours can be a precious moment just to be with myself at home. Haha..I am now a `President' in my own ways.Why should I see another President if I am not given the chance to have a chit chat with him on issues like Russia and Ukraine, human rights, climatic change, vanishing of Aircraft MH370, Trade Agreement in TPPA, and other global issues.

Well, despite I stood no chance in seeing living world leaders in action, it is not a gone case altogether. I did have my opportunity. That was in the year 1967. My father and me, only two of us, and for a reason, we have made a trip to see Tun Razak Hussein, 2nd Prime Minister of Malaysia, at his official residence, Sri Taman, Kuala Lumpur. We were invited in and after 20 minutes, we bid Tun Razak and his wife Toh Puan Raha good bye. And that meeting with Tun Razak has changed my life for the better and for what I am now. Wallahualam.

Allahuakbar.

writing..

That is what they called it. Writing. To them writing is not easy. Why the difficulties? I myself don't understand it. Writing is such an easy activity. Just let go anything from inside. That inside could be the heart, the brain, the thoughts, and whatever that makes writing possible. What about feeling in writing? Yes. Feeling. My feeling. I don't know whether I have it or I don't have it. Just throw myself out and what I write and splash is mine. Mine? I could write anything. Anything from point A to Z. But I have to stop when I feel I have written enough. Kepada Allah saya menyerah. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNYA, Allahuakbar.

success..

Not in terms of money but in terms of finding myself at the right place, right time, and right in things I do for the day. And in the evening I am home.What about work and more money? I do think about it but what matters are opportunities that are tied closely to what I really want as a man of my age. And I got it. Is that not a success? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

sensing global..mengesan kebenaran..

Hati yang jahat tidak menyedari ada hati yang baik sedang memerhati. Pengetahuan yang sumbang dan songsang tidak menyedari pengetahuan yang penuh dengan kemanfaatan. Banyak sudah yang terdengar dan banyak sudah yang terkata. Ditanya mengapa dirasakan masih `menyakitkan hati'? Ini kerana kata kata dan perbuatan mereka tidak benar benar `global' sifatnya. Ada sahaja kata-kata yang `menidakkkan' globalnya kita dalam kehidupan.Tetapi mengapa penglobalan sebenar dirasakan hanya dalam `kematian'? Benarkah? Betulkah? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

those days...

Those days fly with time. I am now on a new set of platform that seems to be of no difference with those days. Those days I have my thrills and looking forward to another day. And today I seem not to really counting on the same thing. I am just a person of no future in the true sense of the word. I am what I am. Despite the so-called big events happened to me, I am just me looking forward to another day. Just like those days. Allahuakbar.

No more pressure of that nature...

I am somewhat happy these days. This is because the life pressure I am experiencing now is somewhat of my own making, so to speak. I am now free from being dictated by others. I am my own boss but to an extent still feel the pressure of my own doing or making. I can do the escape from it all whenever I feel like it. All thoughts inclusive? Except for some basic concerns. That keeps the pressure down and within my capacity to manage it. But what pressure me most is thinking about tomorrow. What would be tomorrow like? Would it spells happiness in terms of much much much money? Or happiness in terms of something intangible other than monetary? Kepada Allah saya berserah. kepada Allah saya memohon tambahan rezeki. Kepada Allah saya memohon Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

too much or too little...? How come you know..?

A quiet world. Are we force into it? Or are there missions to it? With all the vital organs equipped with sensory capabilities, we must be here in order to do a sensing on something. Life is indeed a sensing process. And Allah creates that sense organs in all of us in order to find something and in the process to be and at peace with everybody. Are we? Allahuakbar.

thinking twisting..

Thinking twisting, thinking turning, and thinking diving, all has been a way of me to get into something. In the process, a straight thought is being discovered...and thus preparing me for a straight path that can set free hindrances and mental blocks of all kinds. Wallahualam. Kepada Mu Ya Allah saya memohon Pertolongan dan Perlindugan. Allahuakbar.

uplifted...

A sense of being assisted and help in things I do. All are in place and I have never thought it might happen. What can I say. Allah is Great. Allahuakbar.

what a day..

I want to make it a point to write something everyday. And today is of no exception. But it is with a difference. I write against a background of accidents of a kind, of some kind. I just want to express it in pictures. No words can explain it. Allahuakbar.

dunia lain...

Telah dipijak tetapi tidak dirasai sangat. Mungkin kerana masih merasakan keterikatan dengan cerita lama dunia lama. Tetapi berbagai peristiwa yang berlaku, dan ada yang terlalu `definite' sifatnya, maka dirasai sangat, saya sememangnya telah berada di dunia lain dengan rangkaian kepelbagaian yang mencakup soal morality, humanity, dan kerohanian. Terlalu sukar rasanya hendak diredah. Dunia ini kecil. Masa pun tak lama. Syukur kerana dapat merasakan pengembaraan yang sebenar selepas berdunia begitu lama dengan dunia lain sebelum ini. Maafkan saya jika tulisan saya ini kurang jelas dan menggelirukan. Allahuakbar.

titik tengah...the middle spot..

It spans the whole planet, the galaxies, the whole universe, and the whole time, past and present. And I shall be springing back to where I formerly belong. After experiencing life for quite sometime, I found the middle spot that is the `titik tengah' of that `infinity'. In order to understand a layer of a particular time in the past, I just have to switch to the `titik tengah' that sprung all the movements, actions, and decisions at that particular time. The events then can be understood in its own `logical' and `rational' manner. Allahuakbar.