Why do we smile..?

Want to know why? Similing is an act of adaptation. Animals don't smile because they have no problem with adaptation. We smile because we have a serious problem with adaptation. We smile a lot when we are with friends. Money can makes us smile. But not for long. Smile is an heart felt act of human being to another. When we are far away from home we smile less. The discomfort of a place indicates that we are not that adaptive. It is not the place but the people. Fear is a serious act of wanting to run away from an `enemy.' Instead,we cry. Some says of fear as if we are very emotional with something or with somebody. But why the smile? This is because life has been solitary and without a friend and a smile we are just lost in our own small world. So smile my friend to another and make today his or her day! And you know what? Yesterday I dreamt of someone and she makes me smile. Hoho haha.

The earlier feel is the hardest to erase...

Anything and anything at all, apparently the earlier feel has a control on the perception. It is hard to assess the depth, the width and the breadth of the effect, but it is just there. On the basis of earlier feel,the whole wide world is just a small world. My own small world of personal values, culture, and social. There is no such thing as border destruct that can allow us to have a free hand on everything. We are just motionless and in some situation helpless and at the mercy of the earlier impression created by experiences during birth and childhood. And at this point of my life I am still arguing about the way I see and feel things. Despite that, whoever I am, is it just a continuity or an extension of that earlier feel of mine?

Influence..

I was awake when the word influence bothers me to the bones. That day I was confronted with a situation where I was told to do something. So subtle and I don't give a damn to what has been said till I was all alone by myself that night. I begin to question the spirit of the `advice.' Is he sincere in the things said? At no other moment he cares but why now? In respect to this, the influence has to be scrutinized because it lacks details what more a direction. It is being given with no clear direction being laid out. The advice is very much one-sided, one way, and lacks of mutual understanding of one another. He does not understand me. He only understand himself. It is an influence but an influence that justified nothing. Should I care and follow his advice? All things has an element of influence. But which one can be construed as to be near to truth and nothing but only the truth? Know what I mean? Listen to the radio, watch TV, and read the newspapers. All are considered as medium to influence. The factor of influence are well planned in order to make you a believer of what has been said. Know what I mean? haha. Am I here to influence?

closes to one's heart...where is the smile?

Closest to one's heart. What is it? Don't really know what. Love to see the world moves in tandem with one's heart. Right now I am just delighted with what has happened. How come? Don't have the answer to that. I am what I am. Haha. The world tends to share the feeling of yours at this very minute. Just love to write something nonsense and the world is seen as nonsense too. Even the presidents and the prime ministers are seen as having fun with their round of daily activities despite the no nonsense attitude of certain people. In no certain terms, it is quite hard to predict what is going to happen tomorrow. Things can turn sour without any warning. But I am always positive with things to come. Why? This is because I do things that are only close to my heart. And heart sees and says the truth. Is that what everybody wants? Haha.

How to become a millionaire..

It has a positive impact. It is a turn on. Everybody wants to know about it. Easy said and its easy to be a millionaire! I have never said it. Why? It is none other not believing in myself. No! This is because I am not selling anything. If you want to become a millionaire you must have something to sell. That has been the negative part of me all along. I write but why not at the same time I sell something. So as of today think of something you can sell. Anybody out there who can help me with something that I can sell?

THE ENTREPRENEUR

The Reconciliation..

The quick, the fast, and the slow. The ups and the downs. The thick and the thin. Being cheated and being trapped. The planning and the impulse. The convenience and the unsought. The money and the charity. The giver and the taker. The beauty and the queen. The queen and the king. Friends are found to be a foe. An organization that sees nothing but power and selfishness. The frail and the country of the blind. The fakir and the wealthy. The royal and the people. The president and the third world countries. The prisoner and the junta. A step forward is a step backward. At odd with something and somebody. The women and the lover. The husband and the wife. The father sees all and the mother loves all. And the brothers creates havoc of 5.6 Richter scale. Love life and love death. Knows not and hears not. But has to be there somehow. Need to reconcile at some point. Have to do some thinking. Have to stay back and do the reconciliation.

Away from the pharoahs...

Dimensional life is possible these days. With knowledge we can travel far and wide into any land we wish to be. Just a thought away and why not a stop by at a dwelling whose curse was none other than that of the pharoah. Just imagine a tide of thought going back to the dark ages of the mind of yesterday. So big, gigantic, and powerful the phraoh is, being revered by the people without really questioning the possibilities of seeing the day break of tomorrow. Life was just seen as death and it is just any second away. The land belongs to the phroah and when you are summoned to build a pyramid it means you are being given the honour to be part of the royal death of the phroah and their wealth, any time and any day. This day, today, at this dwelling, a mother is witnessing the curse of the phroah entering the body of her very sick son just because he chosed to be away from the pharoah. To the people the curse is real. An honour awarded and it must be taken. It is an award from the palace. No one can refuse and no one can find himself or herself away from the pharoah. For if it does, it spells nothing but sorrow and death. Haha. Luckily we were born in the 20th century and have seen the day break of the 21st century! Can we be away from anything?

Lost In the wilderness..

Lost as in lost? Yes. I am asking you that question. Are you lost? Well, I have been walking for quite sometime now and I am not really sure whether I have reached my destination or not. Day and night, it changes everyday, and I have seen a lot of things in the days and in the nights. Good things, bad things, and the devils. I have been to somewhere and everywhere. But what actually do I see? Today, and today I look around and find that everybody seems to be just like me. They too are walking to somewhere. Is it somewhere or anywhere? Some stop upon seeing each other and exchange occurs in the form of just talking or just concentrating on the so-called games they played with each other. Back home I do some kind of a watching at others on what they called as TV screen. It depicts life that seem to be so dramatic in their seeking of what they called happiness. Am I experiencing the same kind of drama in seeking happiness? Happiness is a continuity in things we experience everyday. What makes happiness continues to the next day, next year and thus the next chapter is the principles we hold tenanciuously and would not have it traded for anything. Not for a million bucks, so to speak. But in the process of walking, we are so easily tired and thus we can easily be cheated with a scenario of promised land of happiness. Principles are principles. It is a bridge to the next episode of happy life. But unfortunately many do not realized that a short term pleasure is an act of burning the bridge to the next shore of happiness. Losing the next shore meaning putting oneself in the wilderness of time and place that promised nothing but torture and torment. I am asking you. Are you tired? Me tired? Not me. What about you?

The feel, the smile, and the secret in faces..

The first instance I look at someone it tells me a thousand stories. It tells me the story of that particular person from start to finish. A peculiar smile that says he or she is as strong as the great wall of China. But there is a smile that make me wonder of what he or she is up to. Neither innocent nor cynical, but sheer staring at something that is not there. A face that keeps a thousand secrets and if you dare that kind of person can easily be conquered and persuaded. Haha. Enough of faces, secrets, and feel. Time to move on and stop this nonsense. Nonsense? Well you can make a fortune if you can tell someone by just looking at the face and the smiles. But what about if the face is all smile and no face? Meaning muka tak malu lah.Hehe.

Life has always been a mystery..

No matter where you turned to for help, answers are not easy to come by. Life is as serious as death. But till the end of his life he is still behaving as though life is without the final chapter. I have an experience with a man who in his life time never really like me. Avoidance is the right word when I see him coming my way. Now he is already dead. One month or two months before he died, I still see him as a man whom harbours a kind of an old and ill feeling towards me. The funny thing is that I am still carrying that perception even to the day he died. Am I the one who does not change or he is? Someone who is going to die in two months surely would discard his bad habits and thoughts on others. Did he? Don't really know the answer. Life is a combination of many things and many people. We have no other place to go except the mother earth. But why the weird things that have come in our way? There are instances our actions and views are inappropriately imposed on us and others for no clear reasons. Well, life has and always been a mystery.

My own doing, making, and marking?

Very little of things created are of man's own doing, making, and marking. Much of it are caused by group's own doing,making, and marking. As an individual, they are definitely not the sole maker of what he thinks he makes. You as an individual can disown things but not the group. But sometimes you can sense the selfishness in a person in wanting to leave his or her mark of doing, making, and thus the marking. Despite their selfish effort, again much of the marking, and making are group generated effort. Thus we cannot fight the wave of change that can creates ripples and havoc, and tsunami everywhere on earth and beyond earth into the galaxies of stars and other planets. Thus the doing, the making, and the marks everywhere, who creates it and who owns it?

Sense of neutrality...

Writing and experience are world apart. The word experience has a lot of connotation ranging from physical to mental experience. Whatever. It denotes something that is not static but always on the move or on the run. And all this time I am writing as a fugitive. Not now and not anymore. Do I write with somebody or something in mind? Do I? But what and who? In reality it is for no one except me. So no need on my part to be so concerned who would be my readers. That sense of neutrality must be felt from within when writing something. I am just on my own running errand to my own thought. Sense of neutrality is the catalyst to what I am thinking about. Associate with no one and I am as free as the wind. While writing my thoughts, the association could be as innocent as the cat that is meowing for food. Or just pondering on nothing but something. Am I losing my mind? Certainly not! I am just experimenting with something that is strictly yourself. I am just that man with that sense of neutrality. Something foolish but it is great and very satisfying.

Terlepas pandang atau buat apa pandang...

Dalam semangat baik dan muhibbah kita katakan terlepas pandang. Tapi dalam nada kesal dan menyampah mereka kata buat apa pandang. Orang kaya menggangap orang miskin itu tidak berguna maka terlepaslah kata kata seperti buat apa pandang, tak mendatangkan faedah. Itu sebelum pilihanraya mungkin. Tapi bila pilihanraya tiba, maka terdengar kata kata `kami tidak lagi terlepas pandang akan perkara perkara bersabit kemiskinan rakyat.' Hendak menyedapkan lagi cerita, orang filem pulak berkata `jangan pandang belakang.' Inilah dunia yang dipenuhi dengan wabak wabak lakonan yang tidak telus dan tidak lurus. Hidup tetap hidup. Perjuangan tetap perjuangan. Kita kena pandang masa depan. haha.

Jet peribadi selebriti..

Lakonan mereka memenuhi keperluan penonton seluruh dunia. Ini bererti setiap kita menyumbang kepada kekayaan mereka. Dengan infrastruktur ekonomi dan lain-lain yang sudah terbina dengan rapinya di Amerika, industri hiburan dan perfileman mereka juga telah berjaya menguasai pasaran seluruh dunia. Lantas termiliklah jet peribadi seperti paparan gambar John Travolta dan artis artis lain yang mana cerita mereka dimuatkan dalam surat khabar perdana kita Utusan Malaysia. Mungkin tidak adil jika kita membandingkan kekayaan mereka dengan selebriti kita di Malaysia. Infrastruktur pemasaran dan ekonomi kita masih lagi daif dan tambahan pula lakonan artis kita tidak berjaya menembusi pasaran walaupun di tenggara asia. Malang sekali atau sememangnya dah begitu lakaran hidup yang terdapat di Asia Tenggara ini termasuk di Malaysia. Indonesia memiliki penduduk seramai 237 juta sama ramainya dengan Amerika Syarikat (308 juta) tetapi juga mundur dan terkebelakang. Kerana apa? Kerana kita masih lagi tidak bersatu dalam banyak hal. Kita suka berkelahi atas perkara remeh dan kecil. Sedikit sekali terdapat aura antarabangsa pada pemimpin dan kepemimpinan di kalangan kita. Dalam banyak hal kemegahan yang dirasa hanya untuk hari ini dan untuk kelompok kecil dan diri kita sendiri sahaja. Lantas kita hanya berlegar dan berlumba dalam wadah yang kecil itu (fizikal dan mental). Boleh berjaya ke kita? Saya yakin dan percaya, jika aura antarabangsa dapat melekat kepada pemikiran kita, dalam masa yang terdekat Malaysia juga akan bebas dari kekepungan rendah diri ini dan dapat melangkah keluar menembusi pasaran dunia yang sangat berpotensi dan terbuka luas itu. InsyaAllah.