the bottom line..

Life is simple, so is death. Why? Those two are the bottom line to everything. It is a fact. But unfortunately the interpretation of non-life and non-death matters, makes the two factors difficult to understand. For those who is alive, they just refuse to think about being dead. And what about for those who are already dead? Allah is Great. That is the bottom line...

mengigau..

Dirasakan hidup ini hanya satu igauan. Dan teringat aku satu lagu yang mengatakan hidup ini adalah satu gurauan. Igauan dan gurauan. Kepada yang mengatakan hidup ini satu igauan sudah pasti ianya berkaitan rapat dengan apa yang berlaku kepada dirinya dan perasaan yang melanda ketika perkara itu berlaku. Saya merupakan seorang yang selalu mengigau tatkala sedang tidur. Sehingga hari ini saya masih mencari jawapan kepada `pengigauan' yang kerap berlaku itu. Sudah banyak buku saya baca, tetapi masih tidak terjawab persoalan saya ini. Dan hari ini saya beranikan diri menulis tentangnya dengan harapan ianya merupakan satu catatan dan juga penawar kepada apa yang sering berlaku. Dan saya akan terus menanya. Mengapa saya selalu `mengigau'? Adakah ianya mencerminkan pemikiran yang sentiasa aktif?

living by the day..a sunday trip..

It is all in days now. Still can afford to think through the years but what about to walk through? It is all living by the day now. Earning a living and life is all harvesting and giving. Say what I want and most of it I got it. And I have to give to the needy too. Love to think of the pasts. But if it is all in good thoughts and good deeds, then the past can be very sweet indeed. And today I am quite a happy man. Looking forward to classes. Looking forward to thoughts that shall be delivered. Looking forward to see faces of students with more of questions than answers. Despite that I have no complaint. It is all live by the day...Sesungguhnya Allah jua yang Kekal dan Menguasai Segala-galanya.

Yours..?

What can be yours can never be mine. But what can be mine can never be yours. What causes the length and the width can be the ears, eyes, and all the senses that has been part of us. So what actually can be yours? Are your eyes better than mine? Then so be it. Take it by all means. It is all yours. Despite the better sense in something, I can feel some are meant for today for its completion and some are not. We can take little thing at a time. And it all depends on whether your eyes are better built, and `senseless' than the rest of the senses. And nobody is that perfect in all the senses. As for me, if it is meant to be shorter in one sense then that is the way it is going to be. For now I am just enjoying what I write because of the developed sense of written expression..What about yours?

A university..a matter of interpretation...

Interpretation of anything healthy,positive, and productive should be a cultivated by both parents and the society. The schools and the universities contribute to the development of values results from the daily interaction of the so-called students and the institutions. The development of personal values can go either way, positive and negative. It is a matter of what they found. The moment the students step their foot in university campus, then it is the beginning of seeking, searching, or just accepting the interpretation of what university life is all about. University is no doubt both a regulation and a mission. Lecturers should in the first place be right themselves in the interpretation of what education and life is all about. In other words they should be right in interpreting the function of regulation and the mission. Most of it are `enshrined' in the course syllabus. But it is still far from sufficient in inculcating the true value of a healthy and productive life. It must be broadened to a point where the students would feel they are still in the act of seeking and searching despite the five years in pursuing a diploma and a degree. But still after three or five years at the university, what they got is still a matter of personal interpretation. Have they really broadened themselves? Again it is a matter of interpretation.

Before and after..

Is the secret of existence, without before and without after? What is before life? And what is after life? Then what is before death? And what is after death? Questions can easily being put forward but the answers can never be more than one answer. Even that the interpretation is always subject to scrutinizing. As for the answer, Allah is Great, the Knows All, the Creator of Everything, the creator of before and after.

Sapa menyapa..

Tidak sangat merupakan isu, tetapi aura negatif sesorang terpancul keluar menandakan ego besar yang dipamerkan bukan pada tempatnya. Itulah dia. Aku hendak menyapa.Tetapi dia semacam seolah-olah tidak menyedari kehadiran aku walaupun jaraknya sedekat sekaki sahaja. Lantas aku tidak menyapa. Adakah dia dalam keadaan obsesi terhadap sesuatu pada ketika itu? Atau tidak terlintaskah kepada beliau bahawa kematian akan menjengok sesiapa sahaja pada bila bila masa? Here and now should be the focus. Tetapi kemaafan patut diberi kepada sesiapa sahaja tak kira siapa walaupun dimana.

Aku masih mengingati bekas Pengarah arwah Abdullah Suhaimi yang mana pemergiannya sungguh memeranjatkan seluruh warga kampus UiTM Jengka. Dia tetap menyapa sesiapa sahaja yang dikenali apabila terserempak dimana-mana. Dirasakan umurnya panjang. Tetapi tidak. Allah sahaja yang Mengetahui Segala Rahsia Kejadian.

Di manakah terletaknya kekuatan anda..?

Bagi ramai orang, memiliki kekuatan diri adalah idaman setiap dari kita. Persoalannya kekuatan macam mana? Kekuatan Hang Tuah kah? Kekuatan Bill Gates kah? Atau sekadar kekuatan yang dimiliki oleh orang biasa sahaja? Tertanya tanya juga saya mengapa manusia tidak sama dalam pencapaian nikmat mereka di dunia ini. Andaian saya manusia boleh dikategorikan kepada tiga kumpulan. Satu, mereka yang mengingati mati, dua mereka yang terlampau mengingati hidup, dan ketiga yang hanya menjalani hidup harian tanpa memikirkan apa apa sehinggalah mereka dijamah kecelakaan atau kenikmatan. Manakah antara mereka yang memiliki kekuatan dalam erti kata sebenarnya? Jawapannya pun sangat terbuka kerana setiap kelompok tadi memiliki pecahan pecahan penafsiran yang tertentu dan tersendiri. Di ruang yang lain, saya akan cuba mengupas setiap kelompok ini dan cuba mengesan di manakah terletaknya kekuatan mereka.

gila sakan...

Dulu aku akan gila sakan kalau hendak berceramah. Tidak lagi. Entah kemana hilangnya perasaan yang sedemikian. Tidak ada lagi walaupun ceramah itu dihadiri oleh ramai perserta dan dikemudi oleh mereka yang ternama dalam masyarakat. Keghairahan aku telah dilanda sepi dan tidak bernyawa. Bertegur sapa dan beramah mesra dan katalah apa apa, aku tidak terasa denyutan dan dentuman yang menggambarkan gila sakan sebagaimana yang dirasa sebelum ini.

Tapi apabila jiran berdekatan tidak mengundang ke majlis perkahwinan anak mereka, adalah aku terasa sedikit dan tidak banyak, tetapi dalam konteks simpati kerana mereka masih belum memahami apa itu kematian...

Kematian...

Kalau kita hendak hidup dalam kekuatan fikirkan soal mati dan kematian selalu. Ia merupakan sumber kepada segala kuasa tenaga melebihi kuasa tenaga nuklear di dunia ini. Seketika dan sebentar tadi aku rasa tidak bermaya dan tidak bertujuan. Setibanya dekat komputer aku, dan perktaan kematian disebut dan ditulis, akulah sesegar manusia dan merasai diri boleh melakukan perkara yang tidak boleh dilakukan sebelum ini. Aku merasa berani yang melewati segala sempadan tenaga di muka bumi dan merasai sangat bersedia untuk ke mana..

Semalam aku pergi berkursus Haji bersiri dan merupakan topik terakhir bagi persediaan menjadi tetamu Allah. Seketika rasa tersentak dengan keinginan hendak ke sana dan tidak sabar berdepan dengan Kaabah buat pertama kali. Adakah hari itu merupakan hari yang sungguh bahagia bila berdepan dengan Kebesaran Allah?

innate morning..

Can you guess what do I mean by that? I am just summing up everything, my life, my feeling, from this dot of my creation. And it is still in the morning. Is it a good morning? Or is it just a morning. Or it is no morning after all. Am I my little and small self, or am I that eluded big self who is still seeking and searching the kind of person I am. Why must I feel responsible for what I am not responsible for? Just a feel and that explains what innate is all about. Am I for the eyes only? Everybody does. Like a pyramid, so gigantic but it was being built by the timid thought of the pharaoh who fear death more than anything else..Is that what is meant by innate?

Roadshow Dewan Perniagaan..

Entah macam mana, pada hari semalam saya tercampak ke Muadzam Shah dan menyertai program Dewan Perniagaan Melayu Pahang iaitu majlis ramah mesra dengan ahli-ahli di sana. Ahli-ahli adalah terdiri dari peniaga peniaga daerah Rompin dan Muadzam Shah. Daerah ini merupakan tempat jelajah pertama sebelum bergerak ke daerah lain di Pahang. Keseluruhan majlis menggambarkan peniaga kita perlu lagi berdaya dan berbudaya saing dalam segala aspek supaya diri dan masyarakat maju dan terpacu melintasi bangsa lain. Diingatkan tidak ada jalan pintas untuk mencapai kejayaan itu.

A niche..

We Malaysians, especially the small businessman, are fond to think of opportunity as only money. And money is out there being held and guarded by the authority. And a worse scenario of thought when we think we need somebody in politics to help them to get that money. Little do they know that the authority and politics only facilitates. They facilitate wants and need, skills and the abilities, and a responsible government also facilitate money and the banks especially for the smaller ones. Thus the wrong generalisation of business opportunity only comes from the perspective of money and authority that include banks. And today I am going to tell them, money does not matter. Opportunities ought to be seen from the marketing perspective of needs and wants and on top of that asking the question what you can and able to do in fulfilling those needs and wants. So it is a question of niche. And niche has two sides. One side is asking who you are. And the other side is determining who they are. Once both are well defined and understood, then life can be relatively easy despite of long hours spent in doing the business. Just like reading and writing and a person can spent hours on it if the love and ability is there. That is what I termed as `niche.'

Sinaran memancar...

Gelap gulita. Di ulit mimpi ngeri. Perkataan terpancur keluar dari bibir, kering dan gersang. Tidak ada sinaran yang boleh menaikkan mertabat. Jatuh di bumi yang gersang ketandusan air dan sinaran matahari, lantas tidak berpokok dan tumbuhan. Malah manusia pun lari dari kemanusiaan. Hanya apa yang tinggal hati yang telah di susuk dengan benda benda yang tajam mengguris dan menikam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Besar telah memberi kesedaran. Kepacuan jahat bertukar menjadi kepacuan iman membawa kesyahduan bagi kehidupan manusia, kemanusiaan, dan alam sekeliling.

The silent volcano...

It is there, big and majestic. It is deep in slumber. Dead or alive? Not in a hundred years when the anger strikes again and this time for the good of all. The volcano has been silent for decades. Despite that it cares and gives food to the poor and the needy. But why the sudden eruption? It erupts because it can contain no more ills manifested by the culture and the people. It has lost its patience. All this time it has been silent. But the silence is a manifestation of goodness and kindness of the surroundings. It is positive. After the eruption it is back to silence. And it is going to be the silent volcano until...