symbolized existence..?

Has it been symbolic all along? Everything and everybody is a symbolic for something. Or has it been real? But why the real touch is impossible? Only in feel and feeling. The meaning attached is different. So is the day. So is every single day from day one. It has to be different, physically and mentally. And today symbolized my freedom that expands the mind territory equitably to efforts and thoughts expanded for the past 65 years, or 23,935 days! And what would be the world like after today, 31 July 2013, 22 Ramadan 1434H? Allah is Great. Allahuakbar.

Note: symbolized - it stands for some meaning..

the pick of the mind..the ripples of the heart..Jack the ripper...

It can be a very small, tiny things that eyes can't see, to things that are big and gigantic that can be very obvious and visible. It can be something conceptual, perceptual, or just anything physical, geographic, and demographic. Whatever the picks, all has its roots to something real and fantasies, conscious and unconscious. Can be behavioral or just has been there for centuries. We are just a picker with mind and the brain that goes down to the very reason as to why we are being created. The very mentioning of it creates a ripple in the heart separating the good, the bad, and the evil. Allah is Great. Allahuakabar.

terdiam...

Bercerita sahaja terhadap dan tentang sesuatu perkara, sudah pasti perkara itu ada perlawanan dan persaingannya. Kalau kita bercerita mengenai kekayaan, sudah pasti kita tidak dapat mengelak dari menjengok dunia kemiskinan. Bercakap pasal ada dan memiliki sesuatu, di luar sana ramai yang tidak memiliki apa yang kita miliki.

Syukur Alhamdullilah, dengan pengetahuan yang di anugerah oleh Allah, kesemua itu membuat kita diam seketika. Mengapa diam? Berlawanan tetapi tetap bersaing dalam menguasai sesuatu terhadap yang lain. Kita kena bersaing, kita kena berlawan. Elemen persaingan inilah menyebabkan manusia sentiasa bangun dan berusaha mengatasi segala halangan dan rintangan. Yang tidak berkaki akan berusaha mencari kaki seperti orang lain yang berkaki. Yang miskin akan berusaha mencari kekayaan. Yang tertindas akan berusaha mengatasi situasi penindasan ini.

 Manusia mudah lupa. Orang berkaki lupa akan orang yang tidak berkaki. Yang memerintah lupa akan rakyat yang gelisah. Lantas Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNya akan membawa Kebenaran tidak mengira masa, keadaan, dan zaman. Allahuakbar.

how would you consider a pain is a pain...?

The degree of pain in someone is unknown to another. My pain is invariably no pain at all to others. Vice versa. But there is one category of pain that can make the difference, that is, your pain is my pain. I can feel it and I can sense it. It is being seen as a bond between two persons.Wonder how many out there are in serious pain for something but in actual fact can't be felt by others? Allahuakbar.

tidak sama ombak menghempas pantai...

Seketika dan selepas itu ombak yang lain datang menerpa. Yang tadi hilang di bawa waktu hanya meninggalkan kesan dan kenangan yang berbagai. Kalau kecil ombaknya, maka ia akan berlaku dan berlalu begitu sahaja. Sekelip mata. Juga dan jika gelombang tsunami yang menghempas, kesan dan kenangan akan terasa sampai bila bila. Impak ombak tsunami akan mencipta sejarah di peringkat negara dan keluarga. Allahuakbar.

today is not today...

It seems that is how I feel about today, yesterday, and tomorrow. My hand phone continues sending me messages on my car installment that is due. Life is not perfect. Overdue in something has become the order of the day. It stresses so much on the word of economy and money. Management of time, in culture, in social, and in person, has well being taken over by gadgets in smart phones and tablets. Getting things done on time is no more a priority and no more a dignity. Money can't help but the true savior of life is in the nature of one's created life and breadth. The secret lies in the manner one has been created and being cheated (?). Growth and development of oneself is supposedly to be a natural process of adaptation to time and place. No matter where and when, the essence of success still lies in oneself, with and without the modern gadget. Allah is Great, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful, the Knows All. Allahuakbar.

concerns....

Look at the manner politicians manage their concerns. Ugly and dirty. And making things worse, their concern has become your concern and to some extent to the society at large.  Despite the `beauty' in the solution, the matter just do not go concurrently with the spirit of togetherness and unity. Have they failed to see what is the truth of the matter? Kepada Allah kita memohon Taufik dan Hidayah. Allahuakbar.

luaran...

We talk a lot about thought and thinking. But are we really into it? Much say than done. I am what I am. But I am not what they see I am. It is all in the outer part in everything that matters. It does not sink deep into the skin, the physical self, and the physical environment.  Only a chosen few that has the privilege to change this world, inside and outside. They see differently. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNya. Allahuakbar.

deep seats...?

Most of the time I took a back seat, mentally. Almost in everything? But if mind goes unchecked, it tilted, unbalanced and tend to play a dirty game for reasons least understood at that time. Preferably a back seat to front seat. Why? And worst still the back seat phenomenal has become deep seated that can make life miserable and aimless.  Am I married to one? Or am I born to members of family who has this kind of mind `syndrome'? Or is it just a momentary attitude? A married partner is a partner of active thoughts and actions. So are members of the family, especially the closed ones. A collective mental set might dictate the path taken, one after the other. Despite the strength I possess, there are times I have been in a situation not believing in something I really can. Ada masa tidak mempercayai nasi sudah terhidang di atas meja untuk saya menikmatinya !!  Not this time. Kepada Allah saya memohon Petunjuk dan Hidayah. Saya memohon Keampunan dan Kekuatan. Allahuakbar.

selfish..?

I want to ride and drive as a bad person. But with Allah's help, what more it is Ramadan, I turn out to be a good person after all. For a while, I have been bothered by what my actions would be before 31 July 2013. That very day shall be my last day at UiTM as a lecturer. I am quitting for good. My gratefulness to Allah for being created the person I am. Allahuakbar.

bankruptcy...

When life is very much the world of works, money, and lifestyle, people tend to see things  in many and wrong images of existence. It is not a question of be true to oneself, but now  it has become a world of dreams and fantasies. The root of all evils comes from money. When evil takes over the godly sense in living, life then is moving towards a situation called bankruptcy. Manusia bergelut dengan dosa  lebih dari pahala. Mohon keampunan dan petunjuk dari Allah. Allahuakbar.

meant to be...

Even in the latest episode of going to travel to another place, I have never been presented the proper way. Or it is in the proper manner, everything remains intact. Start questioning, and found myself only ceremonial figure just to have something happen. Am I? I am what I think I am. But you are also what others and they meant to be. Everybody is part of each other. The world is in place for you alone and nobody else but for you alone. But with the presence of others however, whenever, whatever they have come to your life, you are what you are meant to be. Allahuakbar.

being told...

A bottle is a bottle if it does not break. If it breaks, it is no longer a bottle. Why should  a bottle breaks? The hand that hold a bottle is no longer has a strong grip and thus it slips and broke to pieces. A lot of reasons contribute to a breakage. A unified whole in a bottle or in anything for that matter in the context of physical, economy, culture, and social, does not come naturally. We have to be together in order to be strong. Kepada Allah kita memohon keampunan dan pertolongan. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNya. Allahuakbar.

News to ponder:  Detroit, once the fourth largest city in USA is filing for bankruptcy... debts is in billions..

Jelmaan keuntungan...

Di segi fizikal, wang ringgit, tidaklah seberapa. Di segi kerohanian, saya, masyarakat, dan orang lain, perniagaan telah membawa kepada pengertian sejuta makna. Adakah itu jelmaan keuntungan yang sebenarnya? Kekayaan kefahaman adalah merupakan kekayaan yang membuat kesemua masa dan keadaan itu indah. Penuh dengan sejuta pengertian. Allahuakbar.

tetanya...

Kepada yang sihat, kita hanya tertanya apabila melihat orang lain yang sakit, berlapar, dan dengan penderitaan yang tersendiri. Bilakah kesemua soalan yang tertanya itu akan dijawab dan terjawab? Lumrahnya manusia sememangnya begitu dalam keadaan yang tersendiri dan tidak mendekati yang lain, jauh dari memahaminya. Sesungguhnya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui akan Segala-GalaNya.  Akan tiba masanya apabila  kesemua soalan akan terjawab dengan sendirinya. Tetapi mengapa sekarang terasa dan dirasai sedangkan hidup yang terdahulu dipenuhi dengan peluang untuk merasainya? Allahuakbar.