tomorrow is 1 January 2014...

....and tomorrow is first of January 2014. Looking back all those years, life has been kind to me despite the uncertainties of path to be taken in the beginning. Syukur saya kepada Allah Yang Maha Besar lagi Mengetahui akan segala Rahsia kejadianNya.

Allahuakbar.

sharing..?

The first thought that strikes me the instance I woke up signifying the Greatness of Allah. It defines and it is definite in the sense that the consciousness is strictly mine. It defines what I can and what I can't. It defines the truly whole me, who I am, and what I am capable of. Whatever forms it takes of the consciousness are strictly mine. All the senses have been actively activated and thus make this writing possible. Something have been thrown out into the universe be-spelling the act of `sharing' to another consciousness of different forms and shapes. Is it an act of sharing? Allahuakbar.

Anugerah..

Tidak ada keajaiban pada muka manusia. Sama sahaja. Kesemua mereka mempunyai hanya satu lapisan peluang dalam segala-galanya. Tidak dua dan tidak tiga. Apa dia lapisan yang satu itu? Mudah. Kalau tidak hidup, mati. Tidak mengira pangkat dan darjat. Tidak mengira muda dan tua. Tidak mengira lelaki dan perempuan. Tidak mengira bodoh dan cerdik. Sama sahaja. Tidak mengira tempat dan masa.

Tetapi malang sekali, ramai telah dirosakkan dengan palitan pengaruh duniawi yang tidak henti henti asakan nya. Yang satu lapisan itu telah menjadi ribuan kepuraan dan kepalsuan. Firaun bermegah dengan binaan piramid melambangkan pangkat dan darjat. Apakah ia berpanjangan? Hidup tetap dengan noktahnya, mati.

Tidak terkecuali dengan kisah kisah di zaman ini. Ada saat dan ketika, saya juga tidak terkecuali dari menjadi mangsa pengaruh itu. Ada kala saya meragui sesuatu di atas dasar palitan pengaruh duniawi yang bukan bukan. Sedangkan dengan jelas segala gala yang tercipta adalah anugerah dari Allah.

Apa tidakkah disedari saya masih hidup, bernafas dan masih lagi bernyawa dan dapat lagi menulis sesuatu di pagi Ahad ini? Adakah ianya satu anugerah? Janganlah berhenti mengucapkan banyak kesyukuran kepada Allah. Mengapa perlu kita berdusta? Semoga kita sentiasa dalam PerlindunganNYA.

ALLAHUAKBAR.

thinking straight..?

It has been nobody's business to think straight. I don't. Do you? The fear is real. But it has been nobody's business to know what is real and what is not. I don't.
I am no part to what is actually real. Am I real? Ask anybody. They talk about fairness, but they don't really see others as part of that fairness. They talk about success. But most of the time the word success has been selfishly defined. So is the barber. Despite the money we give them, the barber forgets whose hair they have been cutting. So are all the leaders. So are all the followers. The leaders forget who and why they lead. The followers forget whom they have been following. Nobody seems real. That is what reality is all about. I am just me, doing fine with what I have been doing all this while. That is real. What about you?

Allahuakbar.

Tsunami...

Rain drop keeps falling on my head. It falls everyday telling me to write something or whatever I can write about. Well, I have decided to see the world in a more old-fashioned way and touch on our common, humble, unique, and heroic sensitivities that define the sorrow and happiness of our existence.

Yesterday night I was watching `The Impossible', a story on Tsunami that happened in December 2004. The story was based on a true story of a tourist family in Thailand caught in the destruction and chaotic aftermath of the 2004 Indian Ocean tsunami. Life and its uncertainties. It could be anywhere, anytime. And it could happened to anybody. A well linked family members can be instantly snapped away from each other after tsunami has thrown each and everyone of them into a world of desolation, sorrow and pain. But with persistence and belief, the family members were united.

Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Berkuasa Lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNya. Sebarang ujian yang menimpa, dengan ketabahan dan kesabaran, Allah akan mempertemukan cahaya selepas bergelut dengan perasaan kehampaan buat seketika.

Allahuakbar. 

Satu akal...

Hari ini saya telah disedarkan apa yang dimaksudkan dengan satu akal. Boleh dimengertikan sebagai satu cara dan gaya hidup yang sama. Tidak menyedari bahawa kebebasan hidup tidak hanya berpaksikan kepada satu akal, tetapi berlandaskan kepelbagaian sudut, perspektif, strategi yang boleh mencorak hidup yang lebih progresif dan lebih bertamaddun. Semoga dengan kesedaran ini terjana sejuta cara yang menghilangkan seberapa banyak duka. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

It is quite different now...

The basis for anything is not that many now. It is a straightforward case. Not so much thinking goes into it. This is because what has been submerged before has emerged into something more meaningful. I am very much a free man now. Not in the narrowest of the words but in the widest sense that touches `all corners' of the universe. In Allah I seek refuge from evils that try to destroy the straight path laid for me. Allahuakbar.

what the smiles are all about...

When you are sick do you smile? Well, it is very logical if you don't. But even in sickness one can smile more often than when he is not. Could there be a reason as to why we don't smile? Ask him or her why the smile? The response could be just another smile...Allahuakbar.

independence or dependence...

Are we so dependent on what our weaknesses are? That is what it seems to be. All those postures are very much cultured-based. It appears they are just doing their best at acting - acting their way out. Out to where? Just can't say it. I might be wrong. Hanya Allah sahaja Yang Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

antics...

Some thoughts can be categorized as `antics'. The intention is good, but soon the aura of what was before and old begins to emerge. I was often perceptually misplaced in most situation of contacts, relationships, opinions, and  activities, especially as to what has happened in the past, long long time ago. Of course, there are few who can be very intuitive and emphatic. But back then in those days, I was that kind of person who can so easily injected and infected. But not now. But I am conscious of the fact I have to face it everyday now, antics or no antics. Despite I am free to choose, the recurrences of antics could still be found here and there, or either when I am with him or her or `her' or with `anybody' for that matter. In other words, what they perceive of me is, `I was what I am', or `I am what I was'. What happened to `I am what I am?' Hopefully what I write is not a reflection of those `antics'. I am what I am. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

remembered best...

Just love to know how I am being remembered. Am I? Yes you are remembered, but could only by an element in you or in a situation of extreme cases that you might or might not be conscious of. Haha..if that is the case, what about those who have not seen or talk to me for that matter? Well, psychologist have made a research, if they notice an element in you just like them (either represented by what you write or how you look) then you shall be remembered. It could be something to share especially in extreme cases of happiness and sadness. If it is something in the middle, then you are just nowhere in their memory because you have never been part of their dream. Does that matter to you if you are not remembered?  What matters most how Allah remembers me. But how? Allah Knows All. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

perception..the sixthe sense

You could be right and you could be wrong. If a man lies dead, sense of smell of the corpse would just prove that. Supposedly the real one would be the real truth. 

Not necessarily with society at large on almost on everything.To prove an opinion, would need a sixth sense, that is a sense of different kind that is perception. Perception does not emits smell, or for that matter it does emit anything. But with right strategy and right tactics, an opinion can smell bad, it stinks. It could create a false sense of security in the name of belief. And in some instances it could be perceived as truth. 

Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa  dan Ketentuan SebenarNya adalah Hak Allah Pencipta Alam Semesta. Allahuakbar.

di sebalik kata-kata...life indeed is a game...

Suka dan marah mungkin melewati pengertian yang diungkapkan. Sayang boleh diertikan sebagai hanya sayang. Kita marah kerana tidak ada cara menyampaikan sesuatu maksud. Mungkin jalan yang paling mudah adalah dengan memarahi sahaja orang tersebut.

Situasi yang spesifik khusus untuk diri jarang dimengerti. It takes one-to-one situation to understand it all. Kita mungkin menyampah dengan perlakuan yang tidak bersungguh-sungguh. Tetapi mungkin perasaan malu yang sangat menebal menyebabkan wajah tidak tersenyum apa lagi ketawa. Mungkin kita marah tetapi pada hakikatnya kita menyukainya.

Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

angkuh...

Kehidupan tidak mengizinkan kita angkuh. Dalam sedar atau tidak, ianya mungkin cetusan dari kata-kata, keputusan, dan perbuatan. Apa jua `kemenangan' yang dikecapi, ianya hanya bersifat semantara. Air sungai boleh mengubah segala-galanya. Laut boleh meranapkan segala-galanya. Berlakunya bencana samaada yang dekat dengan kita, mahupun yang jauh, dulu dan sekarang, boleh dijadikan contoh dan tauladan. Ianya telah memutuskan, merobohkan dan memberhentikan segala keseronokkan duniawi dalam sekelip mata sahaja. Umur seseorang dan kematian sudah pasti merupakan faktor di mana ianya di luar jangkauan manusia untuk memikir dan mengawalnya. Ianya pasti berlaku kepada setiap yang bernyawa. Allah sahaja yang Kekal. Kepada Allah kita berserah, memohon pertolongan, perlindungan, taufik dan hidayah dalam menghadapi kehidupan ini. Allahuakbar.

ini dan itu, dia dan saya...semalam dan hari ini..

Dilihat begitu bagi memudahkan penegertian yang menguatkan. Lantas terasa KekusaanNYA ke atas Segala-Gala nya.Tidak diumumkan kerana segala pergerakkan adalah di atas sifatnya yang tersendiri dan boleh behenti bila mana dan masa yang dikehendakkiNYA. Sana adalah sana. Tidak tersini dan tersana sesuatu mengikut kata diri ini melainkan dengan Kekuasaan Allah yang Menguasai Segala-GalaNYA. Allahuakbar.