The Titanic Self...

Slowly it leaks and soon everything crumbles right in front of their very own eyes. Save the day by being humble and acknowledge the Greatness of Allah, the Almighty, and we shall be shown the path to righteousness. But many are locked in by the titanic exterior beauty and little did they realised small gesture of kindness matter..

Adakah kita sudah mengenali kehidupan..?

Ke mana nak saya dibawa dengan soalan itu? Tidak ke mana selain hendak menginsafi diri akan Kebesaran Allah Subahanawataala. Hari ini, masa, ini, ketika ini, saya masih mengatakan bahawa saya baru mengerti dan mengenali kehidupan. Walhal saya juga telah mengatakan demikian pada tahun tahun yang sebelum ini. Allah Yang Maha Besar lagi Mengetahui dan itulah yang membuat saya tidak berani mengatakan yang saya sudah mengenali kehidupan. Tidak terfikir kita akan sesuatu jika sesuatu itu masih lagi belum dialami dan masih lagi menjadi rahsia Allah. We have our limitation in terms of our physical and mental self. What is beyond? Saya tidak tahu dan tidak sesiapa yang tahu kerana ilmu kita terhadap kehidupan sangat terbatas sekali. Adakah anda sudah mendabek dada dan mengatakan anda sudah mengenali kehidupan..?

Why the cry...

Why the cry? It is a magic phrase to Menteri Besar of Perak, Mohamad Nizar. The court rules that he is the rightful person to the post of Menteri Besar of Perak. By now, Mohamad Nizar has no more tears to shed because his life seems to be like riding on a roller coaster. Everything has been dried up just because they want him out. But why the cry? Like it or not, life has all along has been with and for him. And today he has an audience with the Raja Nazrin of Perak. Why the cry. He is still riding high on the roller coaster. Is it time to stop?

Experience makes the difference

How could I feel the impact if there are similarities in the events that has happened? Yes the impact is there but it is somewhat minor in terms of the kind of chaos created. Is that what I described it as a maturity in one's life? Think so or don't think so? Despite of some bad experiences in life, the events seem to be just a repetition of what has happened in the past. Thus it cushions the fall just because the fall has been anticipated and experienced before. As I progress in life, the kind of event that feared me is anything that might happen and I have no experience in facing it. But the anticipation of such an impending event where and what I have never been before has put me into a category of a matured person. The thought itself has become an experience. Is that too would make a difference?

Routine thought form and association...

It goes by many labels. Social and culture are among the popular terms being associated with thought form of a society or race. I would like to go beyond the understanding of culture and social to something personal. I have seen and heard a person, a teacher for example would say the same thing over and over again despite the change in age and experience. His years of being a teacher has led to the same thought form of various things that are well associated with his profession. The word `student' can unleashed an emotion to him either anger or delight. It has been like that for years. And some places could be phobic to him by just visiting a town and school where he used to teach before. Thought form and association can be a silent killer to one's mental state of mind if care is not being taken. One should get rid of any form of routine that could bring us to that scenario. One tip is that we must be mentally vigorous and creative in order to free our self from that unproductive mental state of mind. As for me, my regular exercise in order to free myself from that routine are thinking, reading, and writing, and GOLFING. Haha. How do I sound to you?

Kepada semua ibu diucapkan `Happy Mother's Day.'

Nothing specific...

Today is Saturday. It is quite gloomy with ray of sun does not penetrate earth atmosphere. Thick clouds are hanging up there. Research has shown that one's mood is linked with the weather. What about the mood of the nation? It is link to what? The world with its ample space does not reveal much on its character. Human has been living on earth for so long but yet fail to understand the link between on thing and another. I myself for sure would love to know why I write what I have written. And today's topic has been nothing more that just expressing my narrative thought and thinking, just like the older days. It is about nothing but psychologically it is something. When nothing is something then surely it must be a source to knowledge. And I shall keep on writing to find out what and why?

I am calling for help and..

It happens again. In sleep I felt I have been disturbed and in vain trying to get help from anybody within visibility. Guess who comes to my rescue in times of need of that nature? My wife. I can feel my hand is being clenched tight just to wake me up from my sleep. Is it a dream? Is it a nightmare? Is it for real?

When crisis deepens..

Stick to the rule of the law and see to it that any document can be of help in fighting the crisis or case. After all any activities are all governed by the rule of law of the land. Any emotional outburst in terms of doing and acting must be avoided. Just smile and do your daily chores as though nothing happens. Be a law-abiding citizen and law shall be on your side.

Rip Van Winkle..

I think I have been sleeping for so long. And at last, yesterday it has been a wake up call for me. I have been raised to a level of consciousness where the thought significance has been shifted that see others too are in the process of imprisoning and sleeping. They accidentally open up the gate of my home that makes me see things differently and freely. Or it is about time I should be awake by now for the sake of freeing myself from thought association and form that has mesmerizing me for nearly a quarter of a century. Remember, Allah Is Great that puts no limit to opportunity that can makes a person richer by the day provided change is his or her serving theme of his daily activity. Thought elimination of old association and form as a lecturer is slowly taking place now. Soon you will be completely free from all kinds of encumbrances, real or fantasy. So welcome to a new home.

Departure..it sings a similar tune

It is a frightening moment. But I know it is coming. It is time to depart from the scene. As in the events of yesteryear, a departure is a frightening moment especially when the signals are weak and not that clear. But the bottom line is always that feel and sense of imminent loss that would soon becomes only a memory. Yes, it is going to be only in memory. Nevertheless, when it first touches on your first sense of departure, it sings a similar tune. And it is beginning to get loud and louder when the signals are no longer by the six sense but by the actual seeing and hearing and touch. Soon it is going to be a real feel away from this routine. One way or another life has to be seen from a different perspectives. I have to move on. So is everybody, the day shall come. And as for me and family, it is always for the good. An event that has the exact format of loss when my family and I were on the bus for the last time heading to LaGuardia Airport New York and taking a flight to Malaysia and never to look back. Well it is a departure of that nature I am talking about. And it sings a similar tune and I alone can hear it.

You don't have to tell me...

But she did. Why? Keeps me wondering of life and the time I was being told about that. Life is so wonderful not to see it in its true and ultimate form. The layering of bricks and the layering of events (episodes and drama) in life has its similarities. I am already a completed house. I can find comfort from my years of layering my pieces and now I see a beautiful house that gives me and family a shelter from turbulence outside. But I was told of something and seeing it from the layering point of view, it keeps me wondering of the impact at this time of her life. But that is life and it is an act of layering the bricks one by one.


MY YOUNGER DAYS, RUNNING MY OWN BUSINESS,
BACK THEN A HEAVY SMOKER
And sometimes you might be asking when it is going to finish. Well it is all in the effort and the ethics that should be observed while doing the layering. So you have been asking me how long it is going to complete? You tell me.

It happens all the time..It is not you..

That is the name of the game, it is them only them. One recent experience that hurts me when they just don't turn in their assignment despite the repeated warning of doing so. And they just don't bother to tell me until their grades are low. They give a lot of reasons for not turning in their assignment but the damage has been done. They are hurting me. In life it is only them. What about me? As far as they are concerned you don't exist. So it can never be you when they make a contact requesting for something. If it is not you then who else? Must be them. So what shall you do when it is from them? Ignorance then is the best policy. haha. Spare the pain and just enjoy the show. Trust in your judgment.

Trust and thrust..

The elements of trust and thrust should be the principles of knowing and sowing relationship with others. Yesterday I was faced by a kind of feel that seems to have locked me in something but don't know what. At last I was made to think that it has to do with my character and my personal behavioural characteristics when comes to trusting others. I am somewhat late in reacting to something that the thrust seem to have the element of terrorising. In other words I am not firm and decisive when comes to request of others and that might put me on the wrong side of the negotiating table. Two words that can explain my dilemma, trust and thrust. Others might come and see me and request me on something. Throughout my life, the thrust is always humanity when comes to human interaction. Thus at first it is not easy or it has been my leadership style to trust them. I have to listen. But it hurts when it transforms itself into a battlefield when the other side declares war for a very selfish reason. Caught between the devil and the sea, what thrust should be adopted in order to fight the battle and win the war?

In deep thoughts...

What I have seen and hear all the time is no thinking. Rubbish. The moment I set my eye on somebody or something, the mind starts to find its present level of familiarity and understanding and at that same time trying to gauge the change in the the things hear and see. In other words I am doing some kind of thinking. Like it or not, my mind has been doing the scanning on all things either before or now, alive or dead, trying to come out with some kind of a new thinking scenario that has never been visited before. In the process of deep thinking, I might get in contact with all sorts of thought scenario that might be false and far from genuine or it might be real to the bones. Whatever in all those thought situations and operations, it makes me a better person in terms of heart and mind cleanser and to a some extent a soul cleanser. Thus I am spared by not indulging in playing with bad sentiment and bad blood because it is all in the name of deep thoughts. The activity seems like a ritual to one's life but again it is all in the name of deep thoughts..and the process should come naturally. Try it!

The one-eyed man is king..

That one-eyed man is in everybody, so to speak. I just rambled through on everything and some listened and some don't. Why? If you don't know you would be giving deep thoughts on the topics written. If you are in the know, then why spend time reading this and that? But a very distasteful situation when somebody who holds position and try to pass a judgment on somebody whom he has not done any background checking. That somebody might appear blind but he does not only see with two eyes but are blessed with hindsight that can forsee what is to come. So be careful of what you said to others. He might nod and smile at what you said, but deep down he is the rightful heir to the throne.Haha.

Happy labour day!