Friday, March 31, 2017

absolute, resolute..astute

Feel like being on top of a mountain. Far from the maddening crowd. Down there too many concerns and many unnecessary ones, trivialities, and all seems to be relatives. And most of the time you have become a victim of conveniences and personal passions of others. Just because you happen to be there and it becomes the starting point, the beginning. That is what happened when passions and conveniences meet.You have never being helped. You helped them. Some took advantage of the good behavior that you display and possessed. Now it is time to be absolute, resolute, astute. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas segalaNya. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, March 30, 2017

relatively speaking...

Nobody can be that resolute absolute because we all have interests and relatives to weigh when a decision is going to made. Thus the phrase `relatively speaking..' an indication we can never be alone in making a step forward. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

sangat berat, tak sampai hati..

Probably it can never be me making others feel of no value and of no use. Thus it is a form of alienation act of life by life despite the good words they say and hiding the sinister and despicable intention. Generally it is being regarded as a display of deficiency in them that leads to their arrogance. Wallahualam. Allah the Al-Mighty Manages All. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

memberi dan menerima...

Adakala kita memberi, kena memberi, terpaksa memberi, kalau tidak kita membuat dunia seperti tiada berpenghuni. Dan di masa yang sama kita menerima, terpaksa menerima, kena terima, in similar breadth dunia akan menjadi huru hara jika penolakan berlaku. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, March 26, 2017

group dynamics...

Group dynamics like a political party and even whatsapp for that matter would lead to the emergence of a dictator that dictates or an angel that showers the group with love and care. But in most instances, a group would want all members in the group to obey certain unspoken norms and values and it can be good, bad, or destructive. Wallahualam. Hanya kepadaNYA di pohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, March 25, 2017

understanding...

Everybody has their own equation of understanding of what is going on around them. Thus we can be a complete difference to each other given the age, gender, status and the experiences. But despite the differences we can still be together. Why? We almost have the same basic needs in eating, drinking, and relaxing. Do we? Wallahualam. Allah is Great. Allahuakbar.

Friday, March 24, 2017

Tidak ada sebelum dan hanya ada selepas..

Watak seseorang, ada yang sangat sebelum sifatnya, ada yang sangat selepas, ada yang yang hanya bergerak, ada yang menyimpul pergerakan. Dalam kamus seseorang tidak ada yang bersalah. Ada yang berkata kata penuh dengan ungkapan `hurmat menghurmati', ada yang taksub dengan diri dan fikir sendiri sehingga lupa kesalahan diri dan adik beradik sendiri. Ada yang asyik memberi tanpa berdiri, ada yang asyik menerima tanpa memberi dan tanpa duduk. Tertanya, aku dari golongan mana? Adakah aku bersendiri? Adakah dan Illahi. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, March 23, 2017

the danger..

Now I realize that if we are trying so hard to over reach at something, it would lash back at you and it could hurt badly. Some just don't heal and would lead to more complications. Wallahualam. Sesungguhnya Maha Suci Allah dari di syirikkan. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

sensitivity of an angel?

Mengapa begitu lemah bila berbicara pasal dia? Put a mountain in front of all things that holds no definite future. Is it not just a fantasy? A fantasy hides itself in all sorts of names called patriotism of an evil kind. Berjumpa jalan lama. Selama ini aku telah tersesat jauh. Berbuat baik adakala ianya hanya merupakan topeng yg melindungi kemungkaran. Tidak salah kita berpaling walaupun ianya pada mulanya nampak betul tetapi rupanya penuh dengan kecelaruan dan keliruan membuat pemikiran memikir perkara yang tidak ada kesudahan. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

begitulah ceritanya..

Walaupun ada tanda tanda kebaikan yang akan dibawa oleh si anak itu, tapi ramai telah dihanyutkan oleh pandangan yang mana akhirnya mendendangkan lagu terkilan dan ralat kerana perjalanan hidup seseorang tidak siapa yang tahu. Hanya masa akan menampakkan segalanya. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, March 19, 2017

lagi tidak masuk akal...

Apa yang dipinta tidak masuk akal. Lagi tidak masuk akal apabila saya mempersetujuinya. Sedangkan sangat jelas ianya akan membuat awak sangat luar biasa kerana mengugat prinsip dan tiang kejadian akal itu sendiri. Lantas saya bertanya dimana sebenarnya pegi akal kamu? Ya Allah kepada Mu dipohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan. Berilah hamba Mu ini Kekuatan bagi menghadapi situasi di mana ianya melanggar lunas lunas yang telah di tentukan. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, March 18, 2017

not all...

But one and two. And the rest have been trying to display a behavior in dumb and silly but befitting their age and level of knowledge. It is rather satisfying in knowing Allah has been so Great, Gracious in showering me with abilities of a unique kind. Not a billionaire in terms of assets, kind, and money but in thoughts, thinking, and sensitivities. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segalanya. Allahuakbar.

Friday, March 17, 2017

running cold..

Age could say it all. Contrary to what has been desired, heard, and seen, things could easily been running cold that renders thoughts and thinking  helpless except  for some closed encounters that inescapably being seen as the work of wonders and miracles. Thus it has nothing to do with the worldly view of reward and punishment.Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segalanya. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, March 15, 2017

pasti positif...

Gambarnya serius. Banyak kata kata yang boleh dilabelkan. Tapi hanya satu label yang dirasakan tepat dan benar di Sisi Allah. Serius memang benar serius. Serius dengan wang. Atau serius dengan kehidupan? Atau serius kerana menghendaki sesuatu? Lantas yang mana satu? Wallahualam. Dengan mendengar suara halus dari jiwa yang halus adakah itu jawapannya? Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Walaupun berlapis lapis yang didengar hanya kepada Allah di pohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

suara membiskkan...

Ada suara membisikkan, I am not going to bother anybody anymore. For a start I shall start with somebody. Who shall be that somebody? Well you know who. But this time let it be more definitive. From there it shall move to another, and another.

menunggu dan perbezaan..

Tidak ada banyak pilihan dalam soal menunggu. Sama ada di sini atau di situ. Tak kiralah awak siapa. Sampai masa semua orang akan berhenti menunggu. Dan yang sangat tidak ketara dalam soal menunggu ini perbezaan di antara seorang perempuan dan seorang lelaki. Seorang perempuan akan menganggap satu penantian itu adalah pasti. Tidak pada seorang lelaki yang mengharap lebih dan terbaik daripada apa yang ditunggu dan tidak menolak sebarang ketidakpastian yang akan berlaku walaupun sentiasa positif dan sentiasa berserah. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, March 9, 2017

intent listening...

It has been a long time I stop listening to myself. And today, for unknown reasons, I did  listen to myself. And what do I hear? Do I feel good on what I hear? Well, sometimes we have to listen to our self in order to feel good. Do you? Allahuakbar.

Sunday, March 5, 2017

Calculation..

Calculation...
We have been calculating almost all years in our life. Sometimes it adds up. Sometimes it does not. One day would we be losing all our sense of calculation? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa ke atas Segalanya. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, March 2, 2017

diuji..

Tatkala orang lain  sedang tidur lena, saya dikejutkan untuk menulis sesuatu. Dirasai ketika itu, pemikiran berupaya menjenguk masa lampau seolah olah itu lah masa depan kerana itu satu kebolehan pemberian Allah Subhanawataalla yang disedari aku milikki. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

only yesterday...

Yes only yesterday I am unwell. And today I feel the opposite to those helpless moment. Yes that is what life and body is all about. If we don't have the passion and permission to live we could be just be nobody in person and in life. But Allah is Great. Anything, anybody if in dismal if properly handled would make us more alive and ready for any tomorrows. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.