Saturday, December 31, 2016


Not of my doing but Allah. Allahuakbar.

Friday, December 9, 2016

what could possibly...

the cause in a stability in thoughts and feel? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, December 8, 2016

stability of thoughts and feet..

They fly when they have to fly. Or they just sit down for hours without really a feel of instability. Allah is Great. Allah the Almighty. And in Allah they seek help and assistance. Allahuakbar.

batu asas..

Ada je `batu asas' yang hendak dilakukan hari ini. Mengapa tidak ianya di sempurnakan dari dahulu lagi? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah sahaja yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Friday, December 2, 2016

unfair game..?

The ironies and the contradictions are so big and so many, yet they still want us to stay united and them respected. Would we? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa ke atas Segalanya. Allahuakbar.

A perfect universe

Thursday, December 1, 2016

worst teacher..

the husband can be a worst teacher to everything but not to the children. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

hear differently?

Hear differently and far from the same understanding to each and everyone of us. As for me, it can never be far from ONE and undoubtedly not ZERO. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa ke atas Segalanya. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

tertutup dan terbuka....

Tidak merupakan citrawara tetapi kisah benar. Tertutup satu tapi terbuka dua pintu Kebarkatan, Rezeki dari Allah. Allahuakbar.

Monday, November 28, 2016

Terang benderang...

yang bodoh bila berjumpa dengan satu kecerdikan akan berlagak hingga tak mengenal dunia. Yang bijak dan cerdik akan sentiasa dalam keadaan terang benderang menyebakan segala tindakan tidak disedari sama ada dianya cerdik atau bodoh. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, November 24, 2016

acceptance and submission...

In life, the notion of having more of something, someone, is common. But despite having more, the greater is the feel without anything but just what we have within the confinement of what eyes can see, ears can hear, hands can touch, nose to smell, and mind can feel and think. Thus thinking so much about having and possessing, life can be just like swimming against a tide and shall be washed away far into the depth of an ocean and could be helpless. Wallahualam. Hanya kepada Allah dipohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

peminta sedekah yang tidak pernah tersenyum...

Mengapa peminta sedekah  tidak pernah melemparkan senyuman? Inilah satu satu kerjaya yang yang mana skop terma tugas adalah jangan senyum jika sedang mengemis. Apa itu kah satu kehiudpan yang diperjuangkan sehingga kita terlupa kepada yang memberi yang sangat murah dgn senyuman seiring dengan duit yang diberi? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segalanya. Allahuakbar.

Friday, November 18, 2016

we are the world kenny rogers

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

Masih menghala dan masih bertujuan...

Satu fitrah yang membuatkan kehidupan bertambah rancak dan berkelipan. Adakah sememang itu yang mengerakkan segala pergerakkan fizikal dan mental? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Lebih Mengetahui akan KekuasaanNYA. Allahuakbar.

Monday, November 14, 2016

mbar ynh

Sunday, November 13, 2016

Saturday, November 12, 2016


Are you trying to capture the similarities or are you trying to capture the differences? It is obvious you belong to the second category capturing the differences. You want to be different and only in some instances to be the same when you can't avoid it. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Friday, November 11, 2016

apa tidaknya...

In one shot it seems everything seems to be aiming at you. Most are thrown at you without prior notice and without your permission. It just comes and go without any warning whatsoever. It could be things from the past and what more things of what is happening now.  Some are just rubbish of a different kind. Nothing to do with you at all. No wonder it seems complicated. But a simple choice of everything is just a step away. It is indeed life is simple. It is about yourself and a step at a time. Then why the unnecessary influence? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, November 8, 2016

soul, heart, and feet..

Seldom I put the physical element in what I want. What do I always hear? Heart, soul, and mind. Where has all the feet gone to? Is it not considered the twinning of heart and soul? Mind, heart, soul could be rhetorical. But the feet would bring wonders to all you wished for. Is it? Wallahualam. Maha Suci Allah dari disyirikkan. Allahuakbar.

Friday, November 4, 2016

in short...

Life has been that fair. Memories come in bits and pieces. Remembering and recalling has been short distance and only for a few seconds. No such thing as long memory and long remembering. A split second and you are with a memory, could be a sweet one or sour. Can you ask for more? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, November 1, 2016


Terdengar satu suara berteriak memberitahu `siapa kata tak boleh'. Given what you have and who you are, why such rules and regulations? Is it not man- made or you yourself is creating and making it? Go easy on yourself. Such a strict discipline gets you nowhere to somewhere. Free yourself from such a tightening belt. Get some fresh air. Don't get yourself stuck in a pool of whirlwind that makes you see yourself only in some places and time. Get and go for it. Hanya kepada Allah dipohon Perlindungan, Pertolongan. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, October 22, 2016


Have you ever thought what you see and hear and think is only about yourself. Allah has given you the self that shall be functioning with others. It is a self you see more than other self. So start saying things in whatever things you do is about yourself, no exception. My self, self, myself..then where are the others. Also by asking that you are in a way asking about what is next about yourself? Writing all this. Does other self read it? You can never know. Because all these about yourself. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Monday, October 17, 2016

slavery and thought hypnotism..

Don't feel yourself a slave to some kind of thinking. To an extent I have been enslaved to some kind of thought hypnotism. And that hypnotism has been understood one by one. Sesungguhnya Maha Suci Allah dari disyirikkan. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, October 16, 2016

death position...

Do we have anyone? Nobody. So is today. I felt there is nobody just nobody. So when there is nobody there shall be less worries. Is it? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, October 15, 2016

Somewhere in time...

At some points in life, we could be everywhere, far away in time at some place.But at some points, life can just be a big expectation of everywhere. And that somewhere can be just a perception or could just a deception. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segalanya. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, October 13, 2016

perfect ending..

The thoughts are been bounded by the so-called the success in others. It seems the perfect ending and the perfect day are always in the face of others. What others have done seems perfect. Are they? Despite the ending, it has never actually perfect. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, October 5, 2016

the secrets..

All the eyes and it is all of them wishing and fishing. Is it on land or in the seas? Wish it is in the river. But what kind of rivers? What kind of eyes on the rivers? Wish it is all me. Wish me or versus them? A simple joke could unite the masses. But a war could kill them all. Why war has been chosen? For the heart of unity has never being spelt correctly. Thus peace usually threaten unity. They fight each other wanting more sharing of a small piece of land. Allah is Great. Tsunami overpower them all. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, October 4, 2016

Terlerai, terongkai..

No big deal. In the beginning it seems unreachable, unfathomable. But not anymore. Sudah terongkai. Sudah terlerai. Hanya kepada Allah di pohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, October 1, 2016

terbuka mata, terbuka hati...

Siapa kata semuanya perlu di cari. Sudah lama kita berjalan di muka bumi ini. Sepatutnya bila terbuka mata maka terbuka juga hati. Tetapi sayang, masih ramai perlu melakukan sesuatu supaya penghijrahan benar benar berlaku. Adakah kamu di antaranya? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Pemurah, Maha Pengasih, Maha Penyayang. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, September 29, 2016

unsur tidak menentu...

Bila unsur yang dianggap tidak menentu mula meresap masuk, seseorang itu akan mula mengambil langkah mengundur diri kerana pemikiran seseorang sangat menentu sifat dan perjalanannya. Itulah peribadi dan wataknya yang akan membawa kepada kesudahan hidupnya. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas SegalaNYA. Allahuakbar.

Friday, September 23, 2016

ingin dan dingin...

Memang ingin tetapi tidak seghairah dulu. Seolah dunia has come to a standstill. But that small rooms for giving and taking is still there. But what about the actual image of things come and go? Life seems to be on a track with thrills and surprises. Then why the hesitation on things that shall be called a buying spree? Should I? Wallahualam. KepadaNYA di pohon Perlindungan, Pertolongan. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

a story, an event, or just a piece of metal or paper...

All those by chance or Hidayah,  can neutralize all the pains suffered after quite some time. Allah is Great. Setiap penyakit ada ubatnya. Could be the beginning. Could be the middle. Could be at the far end. Better late than never. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, September 18, 2016

why they...

Why they? Despite attempts of one thing to another, I have to face them. What actually do I have to face? Some just come at a level that seems to reflect be real me. But most pop out from a non-existence of so-called their perceptual level in goodness, bad, and evil (?). Who are they? Despite `knowing' them but why I am still asking `why they?' Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, September 17, 2016

finding myself..

Is that what myself is all about? The central issue is the heart. It does not stay for so long at one place, one person, what more, time. For a reason? It seems and appears it has become a moving target to my own self. Stay steady. That is not what my heart is.  And what I feel about this world is truly about how I feel about myself. Hanya kepada Allah dipohon Petunjuk, Hidayah. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, September 15, 2016

that is what you think...

Taking something, someone on their own pedestal..and I am standing on one, on mine. Let's there be no physical barrier that can lead to a guilt submission. Not a palace nor a small house in slumps. Nothing can make me leaving her on conditions of physical. Let we meet on a different plane that touches both hearts. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

life is personal..

Can life be other than personal? The answer is no. All forms of interactions would need the help of eyes, ears, mind, and of course the physical touch. Would it be very unfair to say it as not personal? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segalanya. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, September 4, 2016

teriakan, ajakan, anjakan, pajakan..

Banyak berlaku kisah pemborongan dan pembohongan idea. Lantas ianya menjadi teriakan jalanan yang membusuk selepas hanya seketika. Mengapa ternampak suasana pajakan di sana sini dan terhakisnya soal anjakan? Wallahualam. Maha Bebas Allah dari teriakan yang berbau pajakan. Maha suci Allah dari disyirikkan. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, September 1, 2016

an obsession, a dream..

The pharaohs suffer in the hands of pyramids. Why are they so obsessive with pyramids? They have power. But they also are being haunted by a belief that carries them to the construction of pyramids. Why pyramids? We never spend real time with them. Those days and all those days when the pyramids are being constructed do we know what exactly are their fears? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, August 31, 2016

past can be an haunted place...

The present seems to be a dragging place. The past seems to be a world where I can fly. But the past can also be a place where anything can be haunted. Then what is your choice? Living in the present, the gauge is the sensitive heart. The heart could easily pricked. A word can be the beginning of a world war. But the past has taught everyone a lesson. Word could be nothing or something. I am hurt. Why? The words are just build from creativity, neither from the past nor the present. But it has been taken seriously and out of context by those living the present. Could that be a sign the one who has been hurting me would feel the truth of what the past is like? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, August 28, 2016

i have not been writing for quite some time..

Not because I am lacking of materials, but my concentration has been more on something else. Like what? When I am more on my facebook, then I would be less on blogging. How could that be the reason? Well down deep I am an old man and as an old man I must always be ready. Be ready of what? Don't have to say it and enough if I were to say I just leave to Allah for what I am now. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, August 21, 2016

Thursday, August 18, 2016


Kecelaruan minda dan fizikal berlaku. Jangan mudah marah dan mengalah kerana ianya sudah lumrah kepada perjalanan yang patut diambil setiap hari. Hanya kepada Allah dipohon Perlindungan, Pertolongan, Kekuatan. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, August 16, 2016

dalam memburu mimpi..

Dalam memburu mimpi aku terjaga tersedar bahawa aku hanya sekadar mencari diri sendiri. Dalam banyak keadaan, kepuraan menjelma menjadi watak yang menyimpangkan aku  dari landasan yang lurus. Jelmaan dalam berbagai rupa, bauan, kecantikan, hanya sekadar berhenti dan mengetuk hati yang lemah dan rapuh. Dalam banyak keadaan dan keputusan, didapati aku berdamping dengan jelmaan yang menjauhkan diri ini dengan jalan yang patut diikuti. Instead jalan yang aku lalu berkepingan dan tidak mempunyai foundation jati diri yang sepatutnya mendekatkan aku dengan diri aku yang kuat dan teguh. Mengapa dalam banyak keadaan aku dapati diri ini tersungkur di pintu ketenangan dan kesederhanaan? Hari ini selepas terlena lama, terdengar laungan azan mengajak solat dan hanya bersujud kepada Kebesaran Allah membebaskan diri ini dari jelmaan kepuraan yang sukar dan susah di tolak pergi. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai ke atas Segalanya. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, July 31, 2016


Life is full of lies and deceit. In the full spectrum  of cultured like and love, all are thinly veiled under the guise of hate and jealousy. It is not so easily reveal. Only specific and later events and episodes would lead to revelation. And in that revelation a revered thought to the Creator is being sensed and felt. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, July 26, 2016

Life design...

Has life being designed for an unknown purposes? Or has life been designed as such that nobody has the power to have it above Allah's wishes of them to be or want to be? Wallahualam. Sesungguhnya apa yang terjadi adalah merupakan life design for each and everyone. Tidak ada terkebelakang, tidak ada yang terkedepan. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

perceptual depth, simply simple...

Are we fighting a wrong battle? It seems the word depth has been mistakenly pursued in this world of no strategic. There is nothing wrong in sleeping late or early. But we make a hell lot of a mess when talking about it. So are all those jargons that are rarely being treated as simple and simply.Why making a mountain out of a mole? Allahuakbar. 

Tuesday, July 12, 2016

i know..

I know and I realized that I am no longer concerned with what has happened. But the basic concerned remained. And so are they. It is a two way peeling-off process of attachments. But have they realized that as one gets older, only the basic attachments remained. But some once a true attachments has been undergoing a peeling-off process and I am surrendering to Allah for what I am now. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Monday, July 11, 2016

berakhirnya satu igauan..

With the buying of ASX Mitsubishi, I was awakened from a long slumber. I have been set free from `attachements' that seem to make me what I was. Am I a new man? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, July 9, 2016

stale, placid, stolid...

Three words that described the state of  situations I am experiencing. Thought the new car would give a new impetus to `staling mood', but it seems with age things do not grow any better. Is it? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Friday, July 8, 2016

baru aku sedar...

Tidak ada yang datang dan menyapa. Kalau ada mereka yang mementing diri sendiri. Ya. Ia merupakan ungkapan pandangan yang mungkin boleh menjejaskan diri sendiri dan diri seseorang. Tetapi adakah ianya merupakan hubungan yang ideal antara dua insan yang dipanggil orang dewasa? Tetapi itulah hakikatnya. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, July 7, 2016

keinginan dan harapan..

Dirasakan keinginan dan harapan merupakan tembok besi yang menghalang dari mencapai apa yang dihajatkan. Tetapi di masa yang sama, ada hari dan masa ianya terbuka dengan sendiri bagi memberi peluang mengecapi apa yang diingin dan diharapkan mungkin buat beberapa ketika tetapi sangat memuaskan. Di hari yang mulia ini, Hari Raya Aidilfitri maka terluang dan berpeluang merasai dan mengecapinya. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas SegalaNya. Allahuakbar.

Friday, July 1, 2016


Avoid talking anything bad this fasting month. Is it not a month of LailatulQadar? Just look at what you,  get, is it not a gift from Allah? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Monday, June 27, 2016

could be the next second...

All second counts. But what is in that particular second? Could be just a look. Could be just a touch. Could be a word. Why the word? Why the person? Just another display of another world. I am with my own world. Or rather in my own world, so to speak. All are designed and laid out for me. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, June 26, 2016

tersentak dari lamunan..

Adakala begitulah kehidupan.  Realiti terbawa kepada perkarangan mimpi dan menyebabkan masih tidak percaya dengan apa yang benar benar berlaku. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, June 25, 2016

No place to hide..?

Sooner or later things would be straightened out by events that can shocked everyone. Adakah ianya satu kebetulan? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

can be a world of subtraction and addition...

Happiness can also be a world of division and multiplication. The word CAR has a meaning of something valuable. Take C or A or R away it would take away the meaning. But take R and C away and leaves it with only A then that A has a meaning. What does this all means? What it means is that life is somewhat an adventure. Wrong addition or subtraction it either can give strength or take away the strength altogether. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Bersendirian Menguasai Segalanya. Allahuakbar.

Monday, June 20, 2016

Mysteries and mystiques...

Nothing mysteries or mystiques, it is just about a day that is ordinarily created for human that hung strongly for humane life. Wallahualam. Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, June 18, 2016


Be vary of shadows that tend to divert things away. With that in mind, for the first time I have real felt of my role as an elderly. Thankful to Allah the Great for the Guidance. Allahuakbar.


Aku suka bercerita. Tapi tidak selalu dipaparkan di wadah tempat yang begini. Mungkin faktor usia menyebabkan aku ruangkan masa untuk berceloteh. Lagi pulak aku sekarang berada di rumah anak aku di Kajang dan banyak masa terluang untuk meluahkan isi hati yang mana pada asasnya tidak ada sempadan. Tapi hakikatnya demi perpaduan ummah tidak semua benda tidak boleh disempadankan. Aku akan menulis terus meneris joka aku mahu. Dan aku boleh menulis menceritakan banyak perkara. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Friday, June 17, 2016

Thought face...

My thought face seems to be at it again. Why cant I have my own say? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, June 16, 2016

it seems easy..but..

There are times when things can become easy and all to your conveniences. Hanya kepada Allah dipohon Perlindungan, Pertolongan. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, June 15, 2016


The word advice is so elusive that makes me don't really know what it is. If I were to advice someone, it must be an advice that is sought after. It is not something you simply give. When it is sought after it can be a real guide to a straight path that he yearns for. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

behind and in front...

If too far behind, you are a person who are misinformed on everything. If you are in front in terms of thoughts and thinking, then you would be looking back without tears not like those who are way behind of everything. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Monday, June 13, 2016

a journey to loneliness...

Thought just an ordinary journey. But it is not. It seems it is a journey to loneliness. The heart is not truly with the trip. Is it then just an empty journey? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, June 11, 2016

salah kita juga...Strategic in being the opposite..

Kehebatan pada sesuatu boleh mengundang padah. Jangan mendabek dada terhadap apa yang ada. Mungkinn syok sendiri. Tidak ada yang tahu.  When driving, the speed is in you to decide. But you go to the extreme in driving depending on the type of car you are driving. In order to be safe in using yourself, try to be strategic or opposite to what you are. Tidak ada orang lain tahu awak miskin atau kaya dalam pemilikan sesuatu. So reduce the speed when you need to. Be strategic. That is what life is all about. Too much to offer despite we have nothing, or just small thing. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Friday, June 10, 2016

kelemahan atau kekuatan...

Perancangan atau sistem yang baik sepatutnya diasaskan kepada kelemahan dan kekurangan yang terdapat pada manusia. Kita beredepan dengan perkara yang selalu disebut sebut, kuat dan lemah. Kelemahan membawa seribu makna. Contoh bila memandang kita hanya ada sepasang mata yang mana keupayaannya sangat terhad.  Bila membina sesuatu perancangan, kelemahan sebegitu mesti difikirkan dan dihalusi. Hanya Allah Sahaja Yang Maha Berkuasa. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, June 9, 2016

mendahului masa?

Apa jadi kalau kita ketinggalan jauh dalam satu perjalanan? Dan apa rasanya jika kita mendahului mereka dalam satu perjalanan? Mengapa tak letih? Mengapa tak lapar? Mengapa kita menyedari bahawa hari sudah berada dalam suasana petang? Adakah kita ketinggalan atau mendahului masa? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

a calculated risk at best...

Difficult to fathom a question and decision. At best it is either real or fantasy or just be. It can be scientific or just like a slower tortoise or a fast rabbit. Would there be an exact criteria to go by and measure?  Wallahualam. Hanya kepada Allah dipohon Pertolongan dan Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Fasting month begins..

All this while have I been local and traditional in thoughts and doing? Hope this month would be an opportunity to recharge what seems to be old and stale. Hanya kepada Allah dipohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, June 4, 2016


It has been such a beautiful world. But the languages to express it seems to be too indirect. As such the world is no longer one but constitutes layers that could hardened the true reason of living and existence. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, June 2, 2016

no memory..?

Not to mean he is forgetting. He is so much in remembering. As such he seems to have no yesterday. It is all today even it has happened long time ago. In other words he has no memory. He just keep remembering like it just happened? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, June 1, 2016

seeing tomorrow..

Would it be the same as today or tomorrow? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

human element...

How could we blame the human for all when all shall be wiped out from the planet earth? In all its actual sense they are only the reasons to all and never a thought should be in blames.Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, May 29, 2016

keep remembering versus keep doing..

Remembering eventually we can do it without even think about it. So just keep doing cause we can be better off with just keep doing than keep remembering. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, May 28, 2016

feel somewhat free..but

but that eerie feeling is still there. At times I feel I am in a different world doing things I love to do. But there are other times when we have to stop flying and touch the ground. This ground where we are used to land is a different world indeed. I think that cause the eerie feeling. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Friday, May 27, 2016

persempadanan semula dari `living wish' kepada `dying wish'..

Life could take a different turn now. They are very much alive because of their living wish comes true. But they fail to see those who just want their dying wish comes true. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa keatas yang hidup dan yang sudah pergi. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, May 26, 2016

seemingly their way...

The gap, mental and physical is very wide. Why should you bow to the tyranny of their thoughts? Happiness is just in being ordinary. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

tercatat sejarah silam..

Mimpi yang sarat dengan Majlis di raja dan juga berlakunya pesan memesan dengan abah yang hendak hadir di satu Majlis kepartian di ibu negara. Berlatarkan masa sekarang tetapi pengisian penjelmaan  adalah dari mereka yang sudah pergi meninggalkan kehidupan ini. Al Fatihah untuk mereka. Allahuakbar.

Monday, May 23, 2016


Merasai keterbukaan yang melewati insaniah tetapi tidak terasa gegarnya arash hati dan pemikiran yang sentiasa padu dan bertindak balas dengan penuh rasa kasih sayang dalam kesedaran. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, May 22, 2016

simple question simple answer...

Actually I am just going for a simple question and hope for a simple answer. But all those simplicity are not within my grasp. I could ask any simple question. But would I be reassured of a simple answer. Actually the element of simple is either the answer is quick, faster or much later. That should be the area you should make the cut. One question looks simple but sounds arrogant to others if it is being asked today. Ask that same question 20 tears from now. And the answer is simple indeed. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, May 21, 2016


I have my off day. I have been cheated. What can I say. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi menguasai Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Friday, May 20, 2016

Waktu dan ketika...

Terfikir sesorang dan terfikir sesuatu. Adakah ianya ada kaitan dengan peluang dan menepati waktu? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, May 19, 2016


Allahuakbar. Adakah selama ini saya membenarkan akarnya tertanam dalam. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

till it seems perfect...

Perfection is not an effort. It is a natural perfection. Trees grow perfectly. So are days and nights perfectly blend in the coming and in the ending. What about life and death? Does it complement one and another? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

malu-malu..masih lagi ada hati..

Merasa malu dan masih lagi ada hati merupakan dua ungkapan yang sering di ucapkan oleh semua orang yang normal kejadiannya. Ciptaaan Allah ditiupkan kedalam rohnya dua perasaan tersebut. Sedikit demi sedikit dirasakan tertariknya perasaan tersebut. Maka terjadilah cerita demi cerita. Baik ke? Buruk ke? Wallahualam. Sesungguhnya Maha Suci Allah dari disyirikkan. Allahuakbar.

Monday, May 16, 2016

diri ini...

Adakah yang benar benar bersedih ke atas diri ini? Adakah awak benar kasihan terhadap mereka dan di atas apa yang disumbangkan? Allahuakbar. Kaitan serapat-rapatnya adalah dengan Allah yang Melebihi Segala-Galanya. Adakah disedari? Allahuakbar.

Sunday, May 15, 2016

death promises no straight path?

It appears messy. Don't feel like going to sleep. Or I have had slept enough during the day? Anger is part of that line which is not straight. Expectation of great things to come but don't mind on what is coming. Supposedly life is moving forward. But there are things which brings back the past. Do I need it? What actually do I need? Thinking of my older brother who died on the 22nd February 2016 and what a mess life and death can be. All the senses of direction has been haywire. Soon everything is just like waking up from sleep. It is gone and another day has to face. But sense of uneasiness creeps when some event keeps pulling and pushing. I should not be there. It is all over. But they don't live in your dimensional world. They are just them. And so are yours. And where is the presumed straight line? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, May 14, 2016

no distance..

Allah creates no distance in what eyes have seen, in what ears have heard and in what other senses have experienced. Allah creates no distance in the mind what more in the spirit. If it is in you, it can also be in others whom you know. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.


When something has passed a standard distance, a conclusion on something  can be made. Physical and mental are two well served criteria for a distance to be standard. But another element that is clearly has been yours is spiritual. And because of that criteria you seem to be at no distance with anything, anybody. What? Who am I? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Megetahui. Allahuakbar.

Friday, May 13, 2016


Don't really care now. I am not really into a lot of things. Am I myself? I don't know. But what I know I am a person who writes everyday. And now I am talking about uprooting my own roots. Am I? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, May 12, 2016

that far..?

Don't have to go that far to seek an answer to an old problem. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

the power that moves it...

The power behind that moves everything, everybody. And what kind of power do I have to see something and somebody moving? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

bow to insanity?

Insanity are everywhere. Wonder why I am fond of that word insanity. Just a word being expressed with care. But do we care? Sesungguhnya Maha Suci Allah dari Disyirikkan. Allahuakbar.

Monday, May 9, 2016

A friend..

I have been asking who are truly my friends. Life is a process and getting older is part of it. Wonder, along the way who has been truly a friend? Well, relatively speaking, it is very much depending on what they are looking for in you. What about you, what are you are looking for in them. So a friend is well defined in terms of needs and wants. Am I being fair? Or have they you being treated fairly? Wallahualam. Sentiasa mengharap jawapan yang menghubungkan diri ini dengan Allah. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, May 8, 2016

tidak seperti dulu...

Tidak lagi mengingati perkara perkara yang mana pada satu ketika sangat menghubungkan. Politik? Ada apa pada politik? Pemimpin datang dan pergi. Ada apa pada ahli keluarga. Ahli keluarga juga datang dan pergi. Lantas apa yang saya ada? Apa yang saya ada adalah perkara yang boleh bertindak cepat dan pantas. Tidak memerlukan emosi, perasaan, dan talian. Yang perlu adalah kekuatan dan ingatan yang termampu pada masa dan ketika ini. Yang selebihnya adalah Milik Allah dan Kesemuanya dalam Kekuasaan Allah. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, May 7, 2016

hide and seek..

Yes, they are playing and seek. And are you sick of it? I guess not anymore. They should be ashamed of themselves. And now you got them. Have I? Well just talk facts with them. And I am sure they know fully well what you are talking about. I have my intelligence. Do they belong to me? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa. Allahuakbar.

Friday, May 6, 2016

being indirect...

A strategy formulated. Success is indirect. So is the sun shinning on us. It could also be true with understanding. All seems to be slanted. What happened when everything has been directly related and directly linked? It could lead to disaster. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, May 5, 2016

Fragmentation , a cool one..

Never feel like this before. Seems to be traveling to where I have been before. All those days seem to make me a calm person, sense of strength that I have long time gone, and here I am in the midst of not knowing whether I should be here or I should be there. Should I be happy or sad? But anywhere, anytime, and with anybody is just fine. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa ke atas Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, May 4, 2016

either on land or at sea...

Nobody is going to bother you anymore. Good of you to notice the land and the sea. What about those people who are on land and those who happened to be at sea? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

tidak menyedari impak dan kesan...

All this time I was not conscious of the gravity in the impact to what I have been `sacrificing'. Adakah ini berkaitan rapat dengan ungkapan `apa sangat yang saya telah buat'.  Ianya berlaku kerana ianya sudah tertulis dan berlakunya tertulus dalam apa yang telah berlaku. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Monday, May 2, 2016

hajat, harapan, impian...

Bila hajat tidak terlaksana, ianya menjadi harapan. Bila harapan tidak membawa berlakunya sesuatu, maka ianya menjadi impian. Mungkin dapat mungkin tidak. Hajat bapa kepada anak adakala hanya merupakan impian. Tetapi tidak ada sebab mengapa kita mesti putus asa. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa ke atas Segala-Galanya. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, May 1, 2016


Beware of each word says and written. It could lead to who you really are in terms of potentials. And the potentials that you possessed are different and unique. Different and unique? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Ke Atas SegalaGalanya. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, April 30, 2016


seorang kawan itu benar benar kawan bila dia sentiasa berkelapangan untuk kamu...dalam hidup dan apabila sudah mati..Wallahualam..


Everybody, one way or another has something to present to the world. If he has three wives, I am sure he feels himself a hero so to speak. And that has to be presented. Wonder on what I do have worth presenting. I have been perceived as a quiet guy. No matter how loud I seem to present myself, the response is none other what they have been perceiving of me before. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Friday, April 29, 2016

not that long...

I am just an ordinary person leading a normal life. Then something happen. I am no longer the person I am supposed to be. I am just experiencing some kind of a transformation. Aided by experience and then strange happenings, life has been an abundance of thoughts and thinking. And here I am writing. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Ke atas Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, April 28, 2016

me, Hamdan,

You, me, Hamdan, or could it be some other body in the body? What about the mind, the thinking, and the decisions. The flow seems dragging at first but it seems inclusive and some of it could be seen as exclusive. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Food for thought...

As for majority, food is only for the stomach. Well it is just food for thought. Wallahualam. Maha Suci Allah dari disyirikkan. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, April 26, 2016


What would you do if you get lost? Such a wonderful time indeed. Never have to think of what is normal and not normal. So don't get carried away by your so-called normalcy. If spending is normal then why not stay away from spending so much. So why not just save and save. This is because you have money to save. But as for others they have money to spend. Not you. Are you? Sesungguhnya Maha Suci Allah dari di syirikkan. DariNYA di pohon segala Kekayaan, Kebahagiaan. Allahuakbar.

Monday, April 25, 2016

the next terrain...

Life terrain promise no stability. I am moving into the next phase of struggle. Could I make it? InsyaAllah. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segal-Galanya. Dari Allah dipohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, April 23, 2016

berintegriti, bermoral...

Semuanya sekan akan sama. Dulu dan sekarang seakan sama.. Apakah yang membezakan kepada segala-galanya? Jawapannya adalah sama ada kita berintegriti dan bermoral. Agama Islam meletakkan nilai tersebut kepada tempat yang paling tinggi. Jatuhnya Firaun kenapa? Tidak bermoral, tidak berintegriti lantas tidak bermoral. Begitu juga dengan Hitler dan mereka yang digambarkan berjaya tetapi jelas gagal bila persoalan integriti, disiplin di bangkitkan. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Friday, April 22, 2016

what a speech..audience: old friends..

What they all see are only shadows, and more still shadow of others. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, April 21, 2016

moving towards one...

The direction is clear. I am moving towards ONE. But the moment you set your mind on yesterday, seems still thinking about the many. It should be well left behind now. It is an absolute life. Moving forward. But the `relatively speaking' makes one day too many. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, April 20, 2016


The softening of thoughts and the harsh of thinking, the art of writing..Where goes the voice and the actions? Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Monday, April 18, 2016

You and me..the same me or the same you..

Stands in you is the real you or the real me? Right from Wisconsin Whitewater to the days of being a `clerk' in Kuantan, then doing gas business and right up to days of just you today after being a lecturer for 30 years and still asking and exploring who is actually you. When you are with others  I could be the same you. Despite all those years, I am the same me when I am just being like this, writing what I have undergone in life. What  I am doing here? Wallahualam. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Ya Allah..

Hanya kepada Mu Ya Allah dipohon segala kebaikan, kesejahteraan, kebahagiaan kepada anak anak hamba, isteri hamba. Juga kepada ibu bapa hamba, ahli keluarga yang terdekat dan yang jauh. Juga kepada umat Islam yang memerlukan arah yang membawa kepada Kebenaran. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, April 16, 2016

answers to good life...

Everybody has answers to good life. But the opportunities of sharing are not there. Everybody is with their own life. Thus no sharing no talking. But as for myself, I just write what I have been thinking on what is good life. Am I not sharing? But not many take this opportunity in me sharing what I have. Never mind. I am just myself. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Megetahui. Allahuakbar.

Friday, April 15, 2016

no well does it mean?

Seems lost with everything. Don't really feel and sensing the message of what I hear and see. I always see and hear things with a vision.Whereas to be real..there are always two sides of what we see,  hear and think for that matter, a double vision, so to speak. Despite that and this, it is always a bad influence, a small good. It is either black or white. Two sides of a story. Two sides of a person. A double vision. So as from now on, see it truthfully. But unfortunately everything seems to be untruthful. Wallahualam. Kepada Allah dipohon supaya saya di pimpin ke arah jalan yang lurus dan jalan yang beanr. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, April 14, 2016

kesunyian itu kegelapan..

Mengurus kesunyian...membeli adalah satu usaha mengurus kesunyian...mengapa hari tua dikaitkan dengan kesunyian? Sakit itu sunyi dan gelap...apa orang muda tidak mengalaminya...hilang tenaga timbul kesunyian? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

jauhkan diri dari mereka yang ada ajenda lain...

Boleh di rasa, boleh di jangka, percakapan dan prbuatan yang ada perancanaan bagi memastikan sesuatu itu  berlaku. Tidak kisah lah kalau baik, tapi menyakitkan jika hanya hendak memperdengarkan kata kata yang menyakitkan apa lagi perbuatan yang memecah belah. Ramai yang hanya mempunyai kehidupan dan pemikiran yang selapis sahaja. Itulah makan, itulah tidur. Itulah kencing. Itulah berak. Tapi adakah itu satu kebahagiaan? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala Perancanaan. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

when a night can bring some news..

Is it good? Is it bad? Sometimes I don't like what I think or rather what I feel. What more a feel of one kind and seems to have my heart being operated on. A minor pain. But it is only a small intrusion and soon it would be gone and all for good. Wallahualam. Maha Suci Allah dari disyirikkan. Allahuakbar.

Monday, April 11, 2016

by being free..

It could be a different story if the events turn out differently. Why still that freedom has not being taken seriously? After so long and years of working under some kind of orders, I find it difficult to go forward. They are in actual fact not as free as you are. They haven't taste freedom in the true sense of the word. And now I should have realized the situation I am in. Going back? No never. I am going forward. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, April 10, 2016

Just an ordinary day...?

Despite the day appears not ordinary, and despite the change, the feel is that I have always been an ordinarily ordinary in all things I do and experienced. Have I? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, April 9, 2016

felt ordinary...

Has that been the standards well in-built in me? Well it has never been termed as `standards'. Just an ordinary me. Despite being `everywhere' and almost `everybody' I am just an ordinary me. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Ke atas Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Friday, April 8, 2016

main story...main event..

Actually life can be simple to a person. With main story and main event, if it is a book, it would only cover 30 chapters at the most. And with regard to me, how many more chapters do I have? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, April 7, 2016

pandangan hati...

Peringkat umur yang mana tidak lagi mengunakan pandangan mata tetapi banyak tafsiran dibuat berdasar kepada pandangan hati. Adakah ianya lebih menghampiri mati dari kehidupan fizikal yang banyak menghampakan? Wallahualam. Kepada Allah di pohon Taufik, Hidayah. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

berdialog dengan Allah..?

Ramai yang dalam keadaan ketakutan. Lantas mereka telah melakukan satu perbuatan yang di kira tidak kena pada masa dan peringkatnya. Apa dia? Mereka telah mengenepikan manusia dan terus secara langsung melakukan sesuatu yang ada kaitan dengan ketakutan tadi ia itu berdialoq dengan Allah. Perlu ke? Wallahualam. Berdialog atau tidak, Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui, Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa, Allah Yang Maha Penentu kepada sesuatu sempadan masa dengan menganugerah kebahagiaan kepada ummah dalam berbagai rupa dan bentuk. Adakah mereka menyedarinya? Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

The reasons are different..

Wonder on how I come this far in writing. Wonder how I was caught up with topics I myself did not think about it in the first place. Just a pop up? Surely there must reasons to it. Reasons? Could be too late to look into reasons. I am no longer a young person. Well the older you are the more you need reasons. And at your age, the reasons could be as varied as to what the universe is. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Monday, April 4, 2016

Would there still games to play..?

How many tomorrows would there be in order to finish a game? Wonder how many more games I have to play? But how could I label it as a game? If it is indeed a game, then what would the strategy be in order see everything through? Hanya kepada Allah di pohon Perlindungan, Pertolongan. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, April 3, 2016

Ramai yang mencari..

Dari dahulu kala lagi, ramai yang mencari tetapi tidak terjumpa yang boleh memahami sesuatu dengan ringkas, cepat, tepat.Yang terjumpa adalah yang ada kaitan dengan karut marut. Firaun terjumpa piramid yang menyebab mengalirnya darah, keringat yang tidak putus putus. Ada yang terjumpa berhala dan dijadikan tempat menyembah. Syukur Alhamdullilah, orang Islam di pertemukan dengan agama Islam yang membawa kepada pengertian Allah  melalui wahyu yang di turunkan kepada Nabi Muhammad. Persoalan kehidupan telah dipermudahkan. Malah dengan konsep sedekah, jihad, ramai yang mendapat manfaat darinya. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, April 2, 2016


Have you ever thought that life is a training ground for the events that you would be facing in the not distant future? Be it here and be it in the world hereafter. Be careful with relationships, mental and physical that tends to make you a failure and a loser. Could only be perceptions and could be just ghostly. Nothing doing. You are in fact a winner in some aspect of your consciousness and your conscience. The conscience in being a `sedekah man' and `pengorbanan' just fit in with the curriculum of `sedekah' and acclimatizing. When someone is dead, what automatically comes to mind? His curriculum on topics of `sedekah' and sacrifices are over despite one's greatness in life. So now know where you are? I am in the so-called land of practices and acclimatizing. I should be happy right? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Friday, April 1, 2016

per self...

Self is a self of many things. As self travels in life, it can become strong, it can become weak. What sets in commonly uninvited. Self could also find itself in a not compromising position and situation relating oneself to just nonsense. Instead of becoming a self of per self free and independent, it has become a follower of predestine sort where per self is commonly placed in a weak position amidst of nothing. And today is a day where I am in the rise again knowing myself as per self always strong moving towards a place called a true self. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

your journey...

How familiar a person is, past and present, dead and alive, if ever you are to stumble on his or her name and for whatever reasons again, both would no longer lives in world of same dimensions. Both are with two different anticipation. Despite seeing someone in a happy mode, that happiness is somewhat heavenly and not worldly. But if it is still worldly, then you have to look into the depth of one's living. They might not be alive after all. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai ke atas Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Just me inside and outside...

Yes, if ever you see others, what would you see are all the outsides. All outsides are outsiders. And all outsiders would create a mental and physical mess. But if only you are more to the insides, then life would be just fine and heavenly. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Monday, March 28, 2016

just be yourself...

Be myself? It has been said by almost everybody when confronted with a difficult decision situation. But despite that, it is easy said than being truly oneself. Even when comes to writing, I can't guarantee all being written reflects my true self. But if I can't be myself then how could I write with ease and with flair? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, March 27, 2016

have to look at Sunday differently...

It would no longer be the same Sunday. Everything has to be configured. It could no longer be at the same place. I have to replace it with something more stable, handy, and taking into consideration my age and my days. Have I been to demanding? Could be. Discard it and replace with different tone and different songs. Semoga Allah sentiasa memberi Taufik, Hidayah, Pertolongan, Kesejahteraan. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, March 26, 2016

lingkaran maut...

Being encircled by few thought circles that could set you free but at the same time there are thoughts you have to cut it loose. Wallahualam. Hanya kepadaNYA diphon Pertolongan, Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

Friday, March 25, 2016

simple but could be a killer...

Words presented, said and the ideas repeated could be just the hidden strategy that can led someone down. Instead of going up, that person just don't have the desire to pursue good living anymore. I just don't want to say what could possibly the undesirables but it lurks every now and then and it kills. Wallahualam. Hanya kepada Allah di pohon Taufik, Hidayah. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, March 24, 2016

when you have only yourself....

Not the politics, nor the economy, just being myself. And I have to be a good manager and a good listener in order to see what turns around does not come around anymore. It should be a straight line thereon. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

stupid and stupidity..

Often times you would be looking over you past and how many times you have been brought back to life just because of that stupidities. Are there still acts of stupidity I am ignorant of? Could be. But should I care? An act of stupidity has also been with great people. The moment they realized those stupidities, that very moment life can be very beautiful. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Nothing overlaps...

kita ada dua mata, satu untuk tengok ke luar dan satu lagi untuk menenong melihat ke dalam diri kita. Dua tangan satu memberi satu menerima, dua kaki, satu bergerak ke depan di samping tidak melupakan satu kaki lagi di belakang. Satu hati yang cepat merasa dan terasa dan berperanan menjadi pengukur dan penanda aras kepada mata, kaki, tangan, dan telinga agar tidak ada pertindihan yang merosakkan..Wallahualam...

Monday, March 21, 2016

vision makes easy...and achievable...

Just look down and see what you can do. Small money if let it gathers it can be as big as you want it to be. The problem is that generally vision is being seen as hard and difficult to achieve. And this is because you have to think far and big that ordinarily defines a vision. Well for a change, allow it to be here and now. Thus vision could be realized every minute and every day. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, March 20, 2016

today is Sunday...a day in humanity?

Yes, today is Sunday. There is something to it when I say today is Sunday. Well it could be anything. It could be that sense of one thing and another thing. What is it? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, March 19, 2016

an obvious change...

An obvious change to my mental terrain. What was before a peak now seems flattened and dry. what was before a valley to be explored, now seems just a lost valley of jewels and diamonds. What a life. Some paths are closed to some opportunities. But one thing is obvious, Allah is Great and what can`t be achieved are being realized today. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Friday, March 18, 2016

a tall tree..

Tall big trees has always been admired for variety of reasons. But one simple thought that has been passed over for centuries is that tall and big trees help and protecting. But when those trees are cut and make way for the so-called progress, then disasters start coming one after the other. When would it stops? When consciousness of what is old is appreciated, aided, protected. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, March 17, 2016

found a reason to be everywhere...but sometimes with nobody and just being in a place...

Not from the small mind neither from the big heart. Some just follow the dream. Be it you, be it me. There must be reasons to every steps we take. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

not an empty hand...

It shall be filled. It would not be left empty. Not for long. The answer can be just round the corner. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Membuat Penentuan Kepada Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Certainties and definite..

Despite well-organized and well-planned, nothing definite and certain on what is going to happen today and tomorrow, but not yesterday. Does that erased some of the burden in your thoughts? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa ke atas yang datang dan yang pergi. Allahuakbar.

Monday, March 14, 2016


fast, quick, shorter - just a flash. Be it anything - days are overtaken by night and soon it would be forgotten. And tomorrow is a new fresh day free from any dirty elements of yesterday. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui.Allahuakbar.

Sunday, March 13, 2016

found my my standards?

A day I found myself a home. All being set as standards that explain who I am. I have found my age. I have found friends. I have found the real strength in social and family relationship. In that too, I sense cruelty and kindness in people. Wallahualam. Sesungguhnya hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, March 12, 2016

melayan perasaan...

Bercampur baur perasaan aku hari ini. Pagi pagi lagi hati tidak merasa tenteram. Tak tahulah apa yang dmarahkan. Dan malam ini tercetus kata kata seperti `do i have anything? There is nothing to look forward to. What has happened? Try to look deeper into me and events that has happened lately. My eldest brother passed away. I am the second in the family. The role of an elderly man has been shifted to me. But instead being felt the burden, I feel free from unnecessary attachments. Is that what I really feel? Well the title to what I write tonight is `melayan perasaan'. Instead, why not changed it to `melawan perasaan?' And I have been doing just that. I am writing my thoughts out. I know I can go on and on till tomorrow if I want to. I am being blessed with that ability without really learning about it. My mind is my brain. Brain does not stop talking, thinking, and writing. Not many are being blessed with that type of capability. Then where do I get the ability from? Should i explained? Just be grateful to Allah the Creator of All here and the hereafter. Allahuakbar.

Friday, March 11, 2016


Ada istilah yang membelenggu diri secara semula jadi. Ada yang boleh dipadankan dengan keadaan dan suasana. Ada yang membuat kita marah tak tentu arah. Ada yang melepasakan diri dari keadaan `keterbelengguan' yang selama ini berupa puaka. Dengan expressi sebegitu adakah saya boleh dikategorikan sebagai pelampau? Persoalannya mengapa ianya memperanankan saya secara auotomatik? Wallahualam. Kepada Allah saya berserah supaya terbebas diri dari keadaan diri yang munafik. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, March 10, 2016

okay when it is not okay...

How does it sounds to you if I were to say everything is okay? How does it sounds to you if I were to say I am okay? Are you okay? The word okay seems to carry a million mysteries. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

kehidupan yang sangat berlawanan..

Adakah kehidupan keseluruhannya bisa di atur? Bila terlalu di atur maka apa yang terjadi peraturan sudah menjadi tidak teratur lagi. Adakah itu merupakan satu kenyataan dan hakikat? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Penentu kepada Segala Penentuan. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

go for less but of high standards and quality..

Somebody has said it and I have my full support of the remarks. Are we not eventually surrounded by less and smaller groups of friends and families?  And these small groups make us happy. In fact much happier. Even a successful business depends on few brand that thrives on few reliable and profitable target segments. Hanya Kepada Allah Yang Esa kita berserah dengan penuh keyakinan. Allahuakbar.

Monday, March 7, 2016


ketidaksempurnaan politik menjadikan seseorang itu obsesi dgn hukum menghukum...apa hukuman itu setimpal dgn apa yang telah dilakukan?

be happy and go to sleep...

That should be a good motto - always be happy. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, March 6, 2016

smallest to the biggest...

The nearest to the farthest...they talk in silence about decaying and destruction...sooner or later. You cannot hear it, you cannot see it. Only at times you can feel the pain.This is because either you are too far from the smallest or you are so near to the biggest. Hard times indeed for all. Hard times? Not at all. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, March 5, 2016

a big loss...

A big loss in terms of heart mind soul, so to speak. It subtracts one thing and add most things that was once being thought of as persons of blood ties, but now feeling odd and unfamiliar.  And I am alone now. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Friday, March 4, 2016

living through....

Writing through. In a matter of time all that was written explains who I am. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, March 3, 2016

Healthy relationship..

They want to be rich and wealthy. But when comes to building a relationship, they seem to be thinking and reacting in short-term. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

words for friends...

Well, it is online game with friends I don't know whom. And these friends are from various English speaking countries. My score is not bad and my vocabulary of English words is fantastic. Well, I have been playing for several years now. It is a quiet game but the strategy and tactics really boggles me. Walahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, March 1, 2016

halal and haram...

At first glance, it looks as though it is unworthy of your attention. But that same thing could become an unusual and unique business concept that range from capital to marketing that is worth a proposal to an investor. So just take a closer look at everything. But must remember what differentiate between ideas that are halal and haram. Many took a dive at the so-called inspiring business concept but in the end plunge into a bottomless pit of regrets. Sesungguhnya dari MU Ya Allah dipohon Taufik dan Hidayah. Allahuakbar.

Monday, February 29, 2016

a simple world...

So is life, a simple life. But we make it difficult. Have we? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, February 28, 2016

write as one?

A writer too many. That was before. And now i am all alone in my struggle. But i have my basis in doing things. ALLAH is the creator to all. and I have learned my lessons. ALLAH is GREAT. ALLAHUAKBAR.

Saturday, February 27, 2016

the winner...

You might be distraught  with what has happened. But there is always a winner in the name of dreams. Dreams last till you die.  Sesungguhnya hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Friday, February 26, 2016

they are not strangers...

They are just another person who have a different set of belief. And their set of belief is just unbelievably belongs to those whose today is just today and yesterday and no tomorrow. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah sahaja yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, February 25, 2016

a different world...

What more can I say. It is a different world altogether. Wonder how I have come this far and it seems a dislocation and a displacement.  Would I still heading for a location in another place? Or just only another viewpoint? Hanya kepada Allah dipohon Pertolongan. Hanya kepada Allah di pohon Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

unwinds itself...

No more going up the windy road but it appears that the road unwinds itself. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Dikebumikan juga malam tadi..

dikebumikan juga malam tadi...Al-Fatihah..

for what, what for..
When something happened, these questions pop up - what for? For what? Sounds simple and easy but the answers could be years from now. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Sahaja Yang Maha Mengetahui akan setiap perjalanan hidup seseorang. Allahuakbar.
Allahyarham Abdul Aziz Haji Hassan - the eldest in the family passed away on the 22 FEB 2016, 13 Jamadilawal 1437

Monday, February 22, 2016


We are surrounded by energy. And one characteristic associate with the energy is that it would be erratic if high words, high tones, high voice, high contents are part of one's character. That leads to the uncontrollably unleashed of more energy and it starts the lashings and the crushing. Thus the destruction of the body and the terrain where the body resides. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Ke atas Segala-galaNya. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, February 21, 2016

conveniences, opportunities, threats...

Neither the laughs nor the smiles, neither the tears nor the cries can they put me into that position again. It has to be be detached. My standards, norms, and values often times are being made and perceived as vulnerable. I am going to rise again. And this time my own thoughts, ideas, creativity would make everything grows big. Hanya kepada Allah dipohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan, Kekayaan. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, February 20, 2016

Eyes and limited edition...

They physical vision of eyes cannot match the super vision of the heart. The eyes only see something in front. But the heart can see almost anything that resides in the near and far distance of life. Can the heart sees what is in the life after? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa. Allahuakbar.

Friday, February 19, 2016

Would I say that?

It seems funny but that is what life is. Despite living through on almost everything, seeing is just seeing. It seems I have never been part of it. In actual fact you have been there. Would that reduce the burden of having much yet feel so little personally? Wallahualam. Allah Yang Maha berkuasa Ke atas Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, February 18, 2016

in terms of words..

In terms of words, we are all equal. We can say it as equality in expression. Despite the same words used in expression, what differs are the language of the heart. Happiness is not the work of expression but more in the functioning of the heart. We differ in terms of mind, heart, and soul. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

no place for a perfectionist..?

The universe in itself is perfect. And human has been trying to be perfect in their quest for perfection. In the process of being perfect, nothing stays longer and ends in destruction. Only Allah is Perfect. Are we human has been trying to be perfect ignoring the very basic principle of Allah's creation of a perfect universe? Are we putting the challenge in the wrong place? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa dan Menguasai Ke atas Segala CiptaanNYA. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

Biological timetable...

Is there a change in the kind of clock sense I am experiencing? Somewhat puzzled as to how this hour is linked and connected to the next. Seems to lose my grasping and attention on some stories and events. And that sense of urgency in something and now it is just nothing. Wonder how and what can be explained? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Monday, February 15, 2016

has life been kind to me..?

Lots of indications show that I have passed a lot test concerning life. When small I don't really know where I am heading. Don't think so much about the future. But lots of time I am baffled by matters concerning death. I always ask myself how it is like in the grave? But despite that still not really know where I am heading. My gratefulness to Allah for what I got in life. I am blessed by the manner what actually life has given me. And now I am somewhat baffled by my ability to write my thoughts out. The flow of thoughts seem endless. I wrote everyday. Penuh kesyukuran. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, February 14, 2016

Is life more of a mystery?

Seems to be the beginning or could it be more of an end? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, February 13, 2016

Performance measured...

It seems everybody has a way of measuring performance. What variable or variables to be used in measuring happiness? Can anybody tell me? A question asked by many but everybody seems not to be happy with the answers. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Friday, February 12, 2016

could that be the answer to my old time dreams of death?

Could be. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, February 11, 2016

Is it a matter of choice..?

A journey could be just straight, simple, fast, quick, and forward.
It could make a big difference between anything and everything, between everybody and anybody for that matter. Sesungguhnya Maha Suci Allah dari disyirikkan. KepadaNYA di pohon Taufik, Hidayah. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Mana penutupan , mana pembukaan..

Adakah perlu pada penutupan diri untuk sementara...bagi tujuan pembersihan hati dan mengenal naluri..Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, February 9, 2016

the thought of a general...

If not of Allah how could it be? One thing for sure all this time I have been acting as a winner. Yes I am a general. Must not lose out to anything, anyone. Allah is Great. Allahuakbar.

Monday, February 8, 2016

instantaneously instant....

Instantaneously instant....a dim light from the past of the first `world'. And now in a world of just on my own. Nothing intelligence but just mere pride with worldly possession. Subhanallah. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, February 7, 2016

simple gesture..

Despite the big help in all those trying years, most parents just wished for that simple kind gesture from their children in coming home and visit them. So are husbands, despite growing old, wished for that simple smile from their wife. Maha Suci Allah dari diSyirikkan. Allahuakbar. 

Saturday, February 6, 2016

breathing in..

It has been a breathing in the change and the changes. But come to a point when it is no longer a breathing in but a breathing out the dusk and the dirt. Di pohon Segala Pertolongan, Perlindungan dari Allah. Allahuakbar.

Friday, February 5, 2016

being pushed or being given...

Just like you wished for, then and now. Has anything being denied? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, February 4, 2016


Don't make life like a machine. It gets faulty as it gets older. Semoga segala kesejahteraan dalam sebarang situasi yang di hadapi. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

when life is death...

Many fear the very sound of the word death. A five letter word but so long a time to face it. Wonder what secrets of oneself when it is time to die. Say the word and all problems seem to be neutralised. It is not a lonely word. It is a word that gives strength to face the world full of lifeless life. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

when life is life...

It seems life is for all. But looking it over, and thinking it over, it seems life can be seen as strictly individual. In pain, nobody seems to be there except few family members. But it can be the opposite when laughter would attract everybody even they are not family members. Hanya kepada Allah kita memohon keakraban dan silaturrahim sesama kita. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Monday, February 1, 2016

kepada Allah di pohon Kekuatan...

We always talk about strong and strength and will power. But are we strong enough to face the worse that would come at any moment if that is Allah's wishes it to be? Wallahualam. Hanya kepada Allah di pohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, January 31, 2016

that few more...

How much few, how much more. What shall be more? What shall be few? Till what? Till when? Is there such a thing as a miracle? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa ke atas Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, January 30, 2016

blood ties..

What could be the explanation other than blood ties that could posed a challenge to a relationship. Wallahualam. Cabaran yang lebih besar adalah mencari hubungan dan kredaaan Allah yang Maha Berkuasa. Allahuakbar.

Friday, January 29, 2016


It has been a successful operation. Has the doctor got it wrong?

Thursday, January 28, 2016

greeting and smiling...

That is what stress is all about. One thing that is notoriously lacking in a hospital is to greet and to smile.Visiting is one thing, but to greet and smile is the hardest to come by in a person's behavior. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, January 27, 2016


When nobody gives but just takes, and when a measurement is taken,  it adds up to all insulting, no consulting no compromising, life can turn into a red land of war zone. Hanya kepada Allah dipohon Perlindungan, hanya kepada Allah dipohon Pertolongan. Wallahualam. Hanya kepada Allah di pohon Keberkatan. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, January 26, 2016

today, tomorrow, yesterday...

Wish for a better today, a better tomorrow,  then what shall yesterday be..? Yesterday  shall remain as yesterday forever..Allahuakbar.

Monday, January 25, 2016

Big people..

As big as him in groups and in being alone but nobody seems to notice. He plays dumb. That is is usual self. But when he rises up to the occasion, everything shall be strewn in bits and pieces. But then how could a small person with a small mind understand what is going on in a big man's brain? Wallahualam. Sesungguhnya Maha Suci Allah dari di syirikkan. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, January 24, 2016

Should be equal...

Neither equal nor the same. I am not being treated as such. Hanya kepada Allah di pohon Perlindungan dari setan yang di rejam. Hanya kepada Allah di pohon Perlindungan, Pertolongan. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, January 23, 2016

how could we know what the reasons are....

The spins and the turns in everything could make the world darker and darker. It could lead to a lonely life but very satisfying in terms of psyche and psychology. At best sensing Allah is Great has been part of the spins\and turnings. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Friday, January 22, 2016

day and night,,,

It has always a different day and different night. What about tonight? Would it be going to be a long night? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui.

Thursday, January 21, 2016


Selagi pemikiran berfungsi baik, rahsia diri dalam kehidupan akan terus diburu bagi mendapat kepastian. Apakah sebenarnya yang hendak di cari? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Di pinggirkan..?

Terjemahan saya terhadap apa yang berlaku begitulah. Banyak episod cerita yang terjadi akhir akhir ini membuat saya rasa di pinggirkan. Mungkin tidak, tetapi hakikatnya saya hanya dipergunakan sahaja. Dirasakan dalam banyak keadaan saya telah dicampakkan ke luar sempadan. Wallahualam. Di sisi Allah setiap apa yang berlaku itu ada jalan cerita dan hikmahnya yang tersendiri. Di sinilah kita hendak berfikiran jauh, banyak kesabaran  bagi terjemahan kehidupan yang tepat, betul, benar. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Berfikiran jauh..

Berfikiran hanya dari jauh. Setelah menjangkau setengah abad, dia mula berfikir. Bila berada beribu batu, fikirannya mula bermain. Bila berdekat hanya perasaan riak dan sombong menjadi mainan. Mengapa tidak ada ketulusan dan keikhlasan? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Monday, January 18, 2016

when the truth is in the feel..

What more do I have to say. The feel might say something about the truth of what has happened. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Saturday, January 16, 2016

love and hate...

In dreams it is always a story of hatred. In dreams I am hearing a voice in crying tone. Wonder why it all should be in dreams? In reality life is full of love, expecting an anticipating. But life is somewhat cruel. Love is light. Hate is darkness. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Friday, January 15, 2016

choice has never been easy...

This is because it has to do with winning especially for those who always win. But winning has many dimensions. It could be in this world. Or it could be in the world here after. Or it could be both. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, January 14, 2016


Choice has never been neutral. Do you have choices other than the choices you have to face? Tomorrow you shall be doing the routine that choices have been destined. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, January 13, 2016


Distances in everything play a psychological role to me. You might feel safe with something put within distance. But when wrongly distanced, it would take away some of  the power supposedly belongs to you. Just distance yourself from something you are unsure of safe or unsafe before you discover the right distance. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

ingatan dan perasaan..

Rapat dan jauhnya seseorang dengan seserang yang lain adalah disebabkan oleh kekuatan ingatan yang dianugerahhkn kepada diri sseorang. Ingatan pula berkait rapat dengan perasaan yang menyelubungi ingatan tersebut. Persoalannya, adakah perasaan menyelubungi ingatan atau ingatan dselubungi oleh perasaan? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mngetahui. Allahuakbar.

Monday, January 11, 2016

most secretive part is..

A feeling is strictly one's own and is likened to a fingerprint and is hard to change. I once have a high regard with someone...but his life not that great despite being born to a family who appears to be all round okay. If one interacts, the main element that could lead to disagreement is the feeling one possessed and owned. No two person is alike when comes to the color combination to their feeling. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Megetahui. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, January 10, 2016

satisfied with what you have achieved yesterday?

If there is still today, then why not you make an improvement on areas where you are still not at par with the  standard set. Sesungguhnya hanya Allah yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, January 9, 2016


Kita selalu memperkatakan keikhlasan  Banyak dikaitkan dengan perasaan dan jiwa seseorang. Perasaan sangat lambat berubah. Jiwa berubah tanpa disedari. Keikhlasan sangat relatif sifatnya. Bergantung apa yang difokuskan ketika itu. Pembeli sangat ikhlas dengan apa yang dibelinya. Hanya pada situasi membeli. Jika dia berada di keadaan lain, keikhlasannya akan menjadi samar dan kabur. Mungkin akan menidakkan seseorang itu wujud. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah yang Maha Berkuasa ke atas Segala-galanya. Allahuakbar.

Friday, January 8, 2016

bravery and guts...

Do you have it? Don't worry just say it. One day, or today for that matter you might in need of it. Wallahualam. Allah yang Maha Mengetahui. Allah yang Maha Berkuasa. Mohon Kekuatan dariNYA. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, January 7, 2016

is it that difficult?

Just think of a word and then using your experience elaborate on it. Take the word difficult, does it sounds difficult? Depends on what I am talking about. If I were to say I know what is going to happen tomorrow, then I might be a person with a difficult memory. Difficult memory? Does it sounds difficult to you with me describing memory as difficult? If it does it is time to see things differently. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

rahsia seseorang yang memisahkan...

Adalah di luar kuasa kita untuk mengetahui rahsia yang tersimpan pada diri seseorang. Tembok besar yang sukar diruntuhkan adalah rahsia diri seseorang bersabit dengan segala-galanya. Lantas jangan cepat melatah dan menghukum tanpa mengetahui terowong hidup dia yang penuh dengan rahsia. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

terpanggil, dipanggil, memanggil...

Steps seem to be taken naturally. Are you tired? Then could be physically inspired. Searching for a solution? Could then be mentally inspired. You have to do what you have to do? Then comes the question of inspiration derived from culture. Do I have any control? You might think you can. But some actions might not interpret easily. Not a fine line between what inspired you and what can be just ordinarily described. Wallahualam. Sesungguhnya tidak berlakunya sesuatu jika tidak dengan kehendakNYA. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa terhadap CiptaanNYA. Allahuakbar.

Monday, January 4, 2016

a denominator that can see all...

I have tried. But it appears one's life is not static. A 360 degrees turn would make a thought invalid. A change in place would reset what has been set. So are one's age. It changes what seem to be so fundamental whereas it is not. Allah is Great. Allah Knows-All. Allah the Al-Mighty. Hanya kepada Allah kita berdoa agar tidak terpegang pegangan yang salah dan menyesatkan. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, January 3, 2016

that dimension of nearness..

That sense in nearness in you of you, from you to all of you's and nothing to do with others. What about other members of  my families and relatives? Do they or is it all you in you? Walllahualam. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, January 2, 2016

When he says he is going to die soon..

It is going to be either way, yes and no. Yes, when he seems to be so frail and hearing a song from Tom Jones would shed his tears. It is going to be no when thinking of his presence would boost the morale of his young children. Then where can be your stand? Wallahualam. Mati itu perkara yang pasti. Bila? Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Friday, January 1, 2016


What would the year 2016 be like?  Would it still filled with what is expected and anticipated? Just hope what comes along would be what is truly meant for me. Hope I know what it is. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.