Thursday, February 28, 2013

the power in repeating...

Lest understood is the power in repeating and in repetition. It is the link with the All powerful, the Almighty Allah. I have been repeating in saying Allahuakbar. Allah is Great. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

under the multivariate shadow of thoughts, terms and conditions....

It can break or it can make or turn us into somebody of all heroes and of all heroics. Thus the earth can be rare. The wind can be sandy. And all places can be virtual. And all can be tamed and made timeless in terms of wants and needs. Do they? Can they? With appropriate terms and conditions, nothing is impossible. But are those terms and conditions subservient to Allah's Path of Righteousness? Penentuan dan Penetapan kepada Segala-galaNya hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Not for them...A new rare world of dimensions..ROD.

For Dato Sharkar (left),  Exco Pahang, politically and socially, still standing and running strong. Malaysia General election 13 is just around the corner. But why the no smiles and seemingly heart-bored? As for him, would there be a shift from state ADUN to Parliament? Would he then be made a Federal Minister? So many question marks.
It seems I have lost them. Now, it is all numbers. It is all hours and minutes. It can be just a drive and a talk. Heart and soul? I have said what has been harbored. Breaking all terms and conditions. And it is an experience so much out of the box, or out of worldly context and dimensions? Fearing nothing now. Allah is Great.  Have to pass the baton to others. They are not my kind of interactions and not my kind of communications. Not by any  chance and not by any standard. No more the inputs for they are the inputs and the outputs. Two in one. Already? Have lost in meaning. Lost in links. Have to move on to another realms of living and existence. 

Not that many have that kind of your chance and opportunity. It is a kind of wild worldly dimensions. Walking back into the the pasts, and you have the chance to correct the mistakes that for so long being regretted.  What an opportunity! Allahuakbar.

Monday, February 25, 2013

expectations, anticipations...

It breaks the all physical and all time barrier into another world of different dimensions. A much happier one. So vast an infinite kind of  a dream little understood by many and majority. As for now and here, this world, words restricted, actions restricted. So are decisions. Eager to explore all the kind of restrictions. It inhibits growth and thus prosperity. Do they have the choices? Allah is Great. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Mengapa dikira..?

Tidak ada. Tidak boleh. Ianya akan menghakis jiwa  yang penuh dengan kekuatannya. Is it not for yesterday that we all have to be counted? Yes and no.  Is it not all for now and here?  Lantas ianya tidak perlu dikira. Kerana apa? Kerana ianya soal isi hati dan tidak soal isi wallet atau isi perut. Sesungguhnya adakah aku menuju ke arah jalan yang benar? Allahuakbar.

Saturday, February 23, 2013

It is all numbers now..

It shall be all numbers now. I have waited for quality but it does not seem to appear.  I have wrongly judged the day. It shall be all numbers now. Don't have time for the soul and the heart. I have to use my brainy brain now. Have to be quick and fast. Have to accept, I am not facing a giant but still facing the `mouse and the squirrel' who are obsessed with hideouts, numbers, and the physical. So be it. Ya Allah. Berilah hamba Mu ini keampunan. Allahuakbar.

Friday, February 22, 2013

don't commit to remember... automated self-repaired process..

 I don't commit to remember. It remembered by itself. So making others to commit to remember and do things is not my food of action. It has never become a part to the development of my inner scenario and desire of my heart, my mind, and soul. It is self-built, automated and has become very much a part of me.  Thinking over what happened, yesterday and before, yes I am very much that type of person. Why now the realization and the consciousness?  I myself for one don't like to be pushed in the name of a forced commitment. With precision, I can sense it when someone is doing that to me. It is just like able to smell something from a far. That is me. And how could someone is telling me I should smell nothing. Ya Allah, ampunilah akan dosa hamba. Allah is Great, the Almighty and Most Gracious. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, February 21, 2013

the message is..

Not in words and not in sentences. It is the filling in of gaps and space and even the authors of the writing failed to see. So it is the unseen addition of words and topics that make a writing remembered by the readers. Not in the obvious and not in the actual form of sight, smell, and touch. It is all a matter of sense, conceptual. Sesungguhnya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

that is not everything...

The philosophy is simple and straightforward. It is not everything. Life can be short and painful if you to treat it as such. Guess what? I have come across a lot of things in life that seem to be `misplaced', so to speak. In the initial instance of experiencing it, looks like important and a must, but would be treated as just nothing when time dictates it self in later years. 

A well-looked after health of a person can take a sudden different path, fall sick and died. A once feared leader can now be just another person on the street. 

So are buildings, in castles and towers, can just be plain bricks and stones waiting for its total destruction.

A well-placed physical files of documents and documentation, would find its way into the digital world of untouchables. A well held philosophy can just be  plain words and sentences. Allahuakbar. Kepada Allah kita memohon taufik dan hidayah. Kepada Allah kita mohon segala keampunan. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa dan Menguasai Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

sensing the power within...

Sensing the flow of innate power within oneself is a non-stop effort. Programs, place, time, people, and individuals of all sorts and behavior has to be faced and experienced despite the initial fear of contacting and connecting. And so is writing of all sorts and of all words and feeling should be written. All in all what is being sensed is the power within that can spark ability and elevates mind dignity that is untapped and unrecognize before. What power do I have then? Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-galaNya. Maha Suci Allah dari Di Syirikkan. Kepada Mu Ya Allah hamba memohon keampunan. Allahuakbar.

Monday, February 18, 2013

If I were to go by statistics...

If I were to go by statistics and numbers, all can be the opposite to what my mind and thinking has been echoing all this time. Days are not at all great. Nothing great about my students. Their progress in observing the ladder to success is somewhat dismayed. It is a situation that is painful to swallow. But the numbers never lie. It depicts the realities of events. Statistically and numbers seem to say more of me than the others and the rest. The impact is personal and not so much on others and of others. So are with all good things that has happened. It seems the sorrow and the pain are with many and majority.  What about the big laughs and the true happiness? To whom does it belongs to? Kepada Mu Ya Allah hamba mohon keampunan. Kepada Mu Ya Allah hamba mohon taufik dan hidayah. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, February 17, 2013

a fan to my own blog..

It seems funny.Well,  It is not. I am an avid reader to my own writing. A fan to my own blog, so to speak. Is it mine? Why the question? I write everyday. And what do I write on? Sometimes I forgot the topic to things I wrote. I have yet to see and identify the cycle of my writing. Has it? Hanya kepada Allah hamba Mu memohon keampunan. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, February 16, 2013

nampaknya selesa...

Umumnya dan luarannya, segala-gala berjalan begitu baik dan sempurna walaupun peningkatan dalam mengenal MU Ya Allah meragukan. Saya berpandangan bahawa tidak ada orang yang boleh menghukum akan perjalanan sesuatu itu. Allah Maha Besar. Allah Maha Mengetahui. Di rasakan ini. Tetapi mungkin tidak benar. Mungkin itu. Dalam apa jua keadaan, ada satu keadaan yang  benar tetapi telah ditutupi oleh keraguan yang mana asasnya mungkin kurang pengetahuan dan kurang ilmu. Ya Allah,  kepada Mu hamba Mu ini memohon taufik dan hidayah. Allahuakbar.

Friday, February 15, 2013

5 sebelum 5...

Ganggulah sebelum 5 dirasa. Tetapi berlaku adilkah saya?  Bagi saya ukuran adalah yang disebelah sana. Tidak sangat di pihak saya. Sememangnyalah,  pada tempat tertentu saya merasakan boleh, tetapi persediaan terhadap perkara lima mesti dilakukan sebelum  ianya  benar-benar datang. Malah ada yand sudah meletakkan saya di tempat selepas dan bukan lagi sebelum. MasyaAllah. Kepada Allah saya memohon keampunan, taufik, dan hidayat. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

the process of swithching on...

They are still experiencing the switching on of various fundamental department of their dark brain. What I can say is that they are all rookies. The fright and the fear is clearly the elements that can slow down the process. In that I  do what I have to do. But how much? Their background can play a contributory role in this. It is either more negatives than positives or more positives than negatives. But that is normal to almost everybody. No matter what and which,  they have to fight the time constraint. Have they? Do they? Semoga Allah memberi taufik dan hidayat kepada mereka. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

why the odd and the perplexed..?

It sets against an odd and perplexed background of mind but not of the physical. The even and odd in all physical terrains are obvious, being understood,  and thus avoided where possible. But not the perplexed odd nature of the mind that seems to be worst than the physical terrain. Just incomprehensible. But soon the mental terrain shall be made even with the understanding that can shake off the heavier load. By being patient, the  murky, moist, and mist is cleared up and now set on a fresh terrain of even thinking and thoughts despite in the beginning it is odd. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013


The thought strikes and it seems to relinquish the old and the odd cruel thought of measurable and being measured. It shakes a load off and thus the heavier odd thought has become a lighter and even once more. No more heavier and measurable things to carry. No more a  measurable burden of norms and values of the pasts. Events has just become a flicker of the eye and it is not a part of the past but part of the lighter thought of certainty of what is going to come and become. It is me, just me. So be it. Ya Allah berilah hamba Mu ini keampunan. Allahuakbar.

Monday, February 11, 2013

beralam-alam, berpalang-palang...

Mengapa hendak dihairankan? Mengapa perlu takut? Perlukah kita bimbang? Tidak semudah itu mereka melihat kita sebagai individu yang hanya kita sendiri merasainya. Bagi setiap individu, hidup ini beralam-alam dan berpalang-palang. Ada bercukang-cukang, berparang-parang. Semuanya memungkinkan. Sometimes we can just never guess of types of  behavior being displayed. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, February 10, 2013

To depart from...

Discard the normal view of personafication, the usual thought of linking, thinking, and the familiar habit of analyzing and doing things. It is a process out moving towards something fresh and new. Is it going to be a long or short story? Allah the Almighty, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.  Allahuakbar.

Saturday, February 9, 2013


Body + mind = FUN

Happy holiday to everybody..Kenali lah antara satu dengan yang lain supaya tidak bergaduh.

Friday, February 8, 2013

di kepung....

Meninggal dalam usia 46 tahun. Al-Fatihah.
Aku tidak boleh berdalih lagi. Segala-galanya boleh dilihat  dari segi ketutupan dan keterbukaan. Terpulang kepada saya untuk memilihnya. Walaupun mereka pada mulanya agak serius dengan tujuan yang diwarisi dan mungkin disebabkan faktor umur, pendedahan, dan pengalaman,  sedikit demi sedikit saya  membawa mereka ke dalam dunia penuh keterbukaan. Air muka dan wajah yang tadi masam, marah, dan tidak meriah, akhirnya dengan spontan tersenyum menandakan kepuasan disebabkan keindahan fikiran dan pemikiran yang dapat meletakkan mereka dalam keadaan yang tidak perlu serius lagi. 

Secara firasat, terdengar mereka berkata bahawa selama ini mereka terkepung dengan sikap pewaris yang jumud dan batil. Tetapi hari ini, mereka tidak lagi begitu. 

Tujuan saya adalah menyedarkan mereka bahawa soal terbuka dan tertutup boleh dijadikan paksi kepada segala-galanya. Dengan itu, kita dapat melihat sesuatu betul pada hidup dan nazaknya. Wallahualam. 


Thursday, February 7, 2013

Persada dan Parameter...

Persada perbuatan dan pemikiran tidak menjurus kepada kesempitan diri sendiri tetapi kepada perluasan yang merangkum  perkara lain, orang lain, dan masyarakat sejagat. Persada perbuatan dan pemikiran pelajar hendaklah diperkembangkan kepada perkara sebanyak mungkin semasa mereka berada di sesebuah pengajian tinggi sejajar dengan kemudahan yang disediakan dan mungkin tidak disediakan. Inisiatif dan kreatif terpulang kepada pelajar.  Selain library, asrama, dan kuliah, penerokaan hendaklah dilakukan kepada benda yang baru dan belum pernah dilaku dan difikirkan sebelum ini.

Peranan pensyarah hanya sekadar untuk menyedarkan parameter dan persada ini. Jika  dianalisa, umumnya persada  mereka tidak meluas sebagaimana patut dan perlu. Boleh dibilang dengan jari akan kehadiran dan kunjungan pelajar di pejabat saya bagi membincangkan sesuatu apa lagi hal bersabitan ilmu dan ilmiah.  Peranan saya menyedarkan mereka persada yang merangkum serba serbi itu.  Terpulanglah kepada mereka memanfaatkan itu semua.  

Sebagai bandingan, persada makanan dan minuman amat banyak dan berbagai. Terpulanglah kepada pembeli untuk memilih yang memanfaatkan. Adakah itu berlaku? 


Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Di tunjuk?

Allah Yang Maha Pengasih. Allah Yang Maha Penyayang. Allah Yang memberi Petunjuk dan Hidayah. Persoalanya, adakah kita menyedari dengan jelas apa  yang pada satu ketika dulu hanya bayangan dan sekarang telah menjadi kenyataan? Cukup banyak. Adakah kita bersyukur dengan apa yang telah diberikan? 

Hutan belantara telah menjadi bandar dengan penuh kemudahan dan laluan maya dan fizikal. Di siang hari kita boleh melakukan sesuatu dan malam boleh rehat dan boleh bermimpi. Hidup bermasyarakat dan bersosial dan beriadah. Permasalahan dan persoalan, berat dan ringan tidak berkubur begitu sahaja. 

Dengan adanya institusi pelajaran, rahsia otak diselongkar bagi penyelesaian kepada permasalahan dan persoalan yang dihadapi. Jauh boleh didekatkan. Tinggi dapat direndahkan. Berat dapat diringankan. Warna dapat dicorakkan. Bayangan  dapat menjadi kenyataan. Adakah itu semua hasilan petunjuk dan hidayah dari Allah Yang Maha berkuasa ke atas Segala-galnya? Hamba Mu memohon keampunan. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Orang mati tidak melemparkan senyuman...

Tersenyum, senyuman, dan senyum hanya bagi manusia yang hidup. Tidak pada haiwan. Juga tidak pada yang mati. `Dead man does not smile'. Juga bagi mereka yang sudah mengalami `dead thought'. Tersenyum, tapi tanpa keikhlasan.

Keindahan pada sesuatu dan seseorang tidak akan ternyata dan terserlah jika senyuman tertahan rapat. Juga tidak ada unsur memberi bagi orang sudah mati. Hak memberi khusus bagi orang yang masih hidup. 

Lantas senyumlah, nescaya kebahagiaan dan keceriaan akan dirasa. Berilah, lantas tidak ada yang terkurang dalam memberi. Malah bertambah. Wallahualam. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa terhadap Segala-Galanya.


Monday, February 4, 2013

hanya dua pilihan...

Itu pun kalau pilihan masih ada. Manusia tidak menyedari pilihan yang diperuntukkan bagi segala-galanya adalah berlandaskan kepada hanya dua perkara yang pokok. Kerana tidak menyedari ciri perkongsiannya, maka berlakulah sifat bongkak, riak dan takbur, seolah-olah pilihan yang mana mereka lalui adalah lebih spesial dari orang lain. Sesungguhnya, Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segal-Galanya. 

 Terciptanya manusia dan terciptanya dua pilihan, malam dan siang. Adakah pecahan lain dari malam dan siang? Adakah pecahan lain diantara berpengetahuan dan yang tidak? Carilah rahsia kehidupan dalam konteks pecahan hidup dan mati. Adakah kamu miskin atau kaya? Adakah kamu boleh atau tidak? Mengapa masih lagi teragak-agak dan tertunggu tunggu? Pilihlah antara dua, hendak pandai atau tidak? Mohonlah keampunan dari Allah dan mohonlah pilihan jalan yang lurus. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Don't feel the grip...?

Am I losing the grip? Something is just not right. The fundamental slips right in front of my eyes. Are they serious with what they really want? Don't ask them that. Why? They are very much a product of today's turmoil and turbulent in all fields of endeavor. No proper organization in things we want and in things we don't want. It is chaotic. As such it has a direct effect on the young and the youth. Life to them is just a display of nonsense and nonsense. They can't relate and they can't connect, so to speak. And we expect them to have a good grasp of the old fundamentals. Have they? Or are they in the process of coming up with new behavioral patterns and fundamentals of their own? Kepada Allah kita memohon supaya mereka di tunjuk jalan yang benar dan lurus. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, February 2, 2013

thought sight...

It says the right thing about a person. It says the right thing about something. The thought door just swung open. It sees the young and it sees the old. It sees the beginning of something. It sees the end of nothing.

Why the only and one thought when I am in close proximity with her or with him? Why the youth and why the old wisdom?  And why the morning writing and the prayer with all the beginning and the end? Or is it merely a thought sight that sees and hears the truth and nothing but the truth? 

In many instances, why the doom and the darkness in terms of thought sight? But in some instances too, it is majestic and spectacular. Remembering performing Haj in Mecca, Kaaba emits  a majestic feel and a spectacular sight. Allah Yang Esa, Allah Yang Maha Pengasih. Allah yang Maha Penyayang. Allahuakbar.

Friday, February 1, 2013

suasana pagi di Amerika...

Menggerikan dan menggerunkan. Apa tidaknya, dirasakan hidup sangat bertujuan. Dirasakan ada mulanya dan ada akhirnya. Dirasakan ada sikap yang positif dan ada motivasi yang tinggi. Dirasakan kehidupan merupakan perjalanan hidup yang menunggu masa akhirnya. Baik berkawan, baik makan, baik minum, dirasakan kesemuanya itu dalam suasana yang sangat tertutup dan dalam banyak keadaan penuh kepuraan. Tidak ada pilihan. Walau begitu keadaannya, dirasakan tidak ada kekangan yang terlampau.  Dengan tulisan sebegini, I am able to walk back the passage in the pasts. It is a thought passage yang sekali sekala dapat dilalui dan dirasai semula. Allahuakbar.