Friday, February 28, 2014

the strength...

Is it that kind of strength that I am trying to have a possession? Could be. Now I am writing with ease and no more in a hurry. The images out there are trying to have an influence on me. Luckily, at my age, I feel that I am protected. The images can no longer produce sparks that can serve the evils and the devils. Allah is Great, the Knows All, the Al-Mighty. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, February 27, 2014

tidak ada tolak ansur...

Unsur `tidak ada tolak ansur' ini ada di mana mana. Adakah itu merupakan rahsia kepada kejadian kita selama ini yang mana sangat sedikit kita berusaha mengkajinya. Silam kita, lampau kita, adalah bersifat absolute dan tidak ada apa yang boleh mengubahnya. Allahuakbar, Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa dan telah mencipta Segala-GalaNYA. Tidak ada dua tidak ada tiga yang diciptanya. Hanya kita yang satu. Ianya tidak berwadahkan tolak ansur. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

a measurement...

I am now of no measurement to measure something. My days are over. But a measurement does comes along when someone rejects the offer that has already being accepted earlier. What could be actual reason to it? I must find out what, who, and why. Mohon Pertolongan dari Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

A safe thought..?

A thought that spells adventures and risks are considered a safe thought to success. Look in the eys, and it spells just that. An infinite nature of stares and eyes. An awkward and adventurous thought it is, but a safe one to understand someone and a situation he is in. Allahuakbar.

Monday, February 24, 2014

buat seketika...

Dirasakan juga kegelisahannya. Tetapi tidak lama. Terasa tenang kembali. Mungkin selepas menghayati kedudukan dunia yang luarannya sunyi tetapi hebat sekali dalam disiplin pusingannya. Sebagaimana kata saya, `the next minute that matters and not the next dollar or ringgit'. Kehidupan yang tenang adalah sangat dihajatkan. `A decent living and a decent thought'. Apa tidakkah itu yang didapati dan disedari? Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, February 23, 2014


Apa yang terjadi pada malam ini merupakan gambaran pada hati yang mudah gundah gelana. Rupa-rupanya saya memiliki hati yang mudah berpindah dari suka dan ketawa kepada senyap, sunyi, damai, dan mendamaikan. Kepada Allah saya berserah semoga ditambahkan rezeki yang sangat dihajatkan. Semoga kedamaian rasa dan perasaan berpindah ke orang lain juga. Kepada Allah saya memohon. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, February 22, 2014

hak mutlak..?

Ia milik seseorang bagi memberi rasa, kekuatan, dan kekuasaan semasa. Mungkin juga merupakan rangsangan kepada sesuatu hajat dan penemuan pengetahuan. Ianya merupakan satu pengalaman baru. Adakah hiduan kepada sesuatu merupakan satu kekuatan seseorang yang dapat mendekat dan menjauhkan seseorang dengan seseorang? Lantas `jauh' dan `dekat' adalah sangat relatif. Adakah ini datangnya dari bauan planet begelar dunia dan telah memberi hak mutlak rasa kepada kamu dan telah mewarnai perjalanan hidup kamu? Adakah bauan itu khas untuk kamu? Adakah penulisan saya ini memberi satu bauan yang mana hanya beberapa orang sahaja dapat menghidunya? Bauannya pula, membenci atau menyukainya? Apakah bauan yang dibawanya? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Friday, February 21, 2014

conspiracy nature of problems...? appears problems work together in order to set us free from odd thinking, odd thoughts, and odd behavior. The moment a problem comes up, another problem is set to be in the making.You know what? These two problems tend to `conspire', so to speak. In the beginning these two problems (can be three or more) seem unrelated. But in the course of time, that one problem has a kind of association with the second one. In the lighter note, a future is set to take place. And it can be a bright one, if properly handled and managed. Semoga kita sentiasa dalam PerlindunganNYA. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, February 20, 2014

Mengapa ye..?

Sulaman hidup agak berpedoman dan berprinsip. Jika dipermudahkan sesuatu yang nampak sukar, maka pengurusan kepada sesuatu itu akan jadi mudah. Tidak sangat terasa cemas dan tidak menggerunkan tetapi hanya mengalami perasaan yang saya rasa agak rutin. Biasa, biasa. Semoga sentiasa dalam PerlindunganNYA. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

have never been truly...

Have never been truly is all in the self. Anything done all shall have a bouncing effect on yourself. All in the name of bouncing game till you can bounce no more. Drops dead. Breathe no more. So what and where exactly is actually the position of others? Still searching for the doors of heaven. What should I do? Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

the negatives and the positives...

Circling round, circling waves, and what causes it? Could it be the fights and the fightings? Is it the fights within and the fighting without? And the waves getting stronger and destructive just because of the imbalance between the fights and the fightings. The fights are getting selfish everyday so much so we can easily overcome and overwhelmed by the fightings that can easily derailed the fights within. Semoga kita sentiasa dalam PerlindunganNYA. Allahuakbar.

Monday, February 17, 2014

penduduk masa dan tempat...a circling waves..

Secara fitrah, tidak ada masa dan tempat dan keadaan kita tidak boleh tersenyum, lantas tidak boleh bermasam muka. Jika kita mengenal sesuatu dalam konteks Islam dan Allah, apa apa yang kita lakukan dan diperlakukan adalah merupakan hak Allah dalam PenentuanNYA? Adakah dengan tersedarnya kita begitu maka dengan sendirinya kita telah meghampiri dan mendekati pintu syorga?  Allahuakbar.

Sunday, February 16, 2014


Watching brief...looking for symptoms that can help me to understand how things can change for the better. One, so fast, so soon, and efficiently executed. Two, down deep you want it and wish it to happen. And as the way it looks, InsyaAllah, Segala Pujian bagi Mu, Ya Allah. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, February 15, 2014

not surprising...

Despite the everything, we still forget we have something that is considered all and complete. Just like my writing, I forgot, as a `small time writer' I have written a lot in this blog since 2008. And surprisingly to me I am only have today and  still clinging to something that I considered not mine. Am I? Yes it is yours. Is it? That includes the age. Have you forgotten your age? So it is not surprising to witness something that just do not make sense to you, but it can be a very sensible thing to other than you. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Friday, February 14, 2014

made in consciousness...

Consciousness. That explains. We are what we are conscious of. Thus we can be capable of anything, from A to Z, literally speaking. The first instance of something that has to do with pain, we are conscious of death. On this consciousness, do we have to cheat ourself? We are made of consciousness. Name it. And you are very much part of it. Of anger, of love, of hate, all in the consciousness and we are made of it. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, February 13, 2014


Ada hari terasa membuat sesuatu tidak serancak dulu. Mengapa? Soalan di tanya? Dengan Kuasa Allah maka tertulis jawapan mengatakan bahawa dalam apa jua keadaan seseorang itu sama ada dalam keadaan pemulangan atau dalam keadaan diberi sesuatu. Lantas situasi seseorang adalah dalam banyak angka dan jangka. Dan angka dan jangka dalam soal beri dan memberi, maka terasalah persoalan kerberatan yang disebutkan pada permulaan cetusan tadi. Wallahualam. Allahakabr.

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

discovering the difference...

I discover a difference today. Such an outright disregard of what should be the basic principles of taking and giving. Why the trespassing into territories that should begin with a permission? It is an outright violation of the first order. And with this consciousness I should always be on guard against such an intrusion. Memohon PerlindunganNYA. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

about oneself...

It is all about oneself. It is all about one's worldly fear.When one reaches the so-called `top', it can be seen as everything is `mine' and I `own' it. Yes, that can be seen as the prevailing attitude in all `sectors' of life. What about `death'? We are not being given the power in `managing death', so to speak. That is where `the sweet revenge' of `life obsession' takes place. It is a `court' where no human being presides. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-Galanya. Hari kita dihisab oleh Allah adalah merupakan keadilan yang sebenarnya. Allahuakbar.

Monday, February 10, 2014

the older you are..

The older you are the lonelier you would become. And for the lonelier one, beware of the worldly traps laid on the way. Are all those true to everybody? But looking from a different perspective, old age is not supposed to be seen as becoming lonelier. Old age can be associated with distancing. To them everything shall be kept at a distance. It is logical to see oneself as nearer to Allah than to what is on the ground which he sees as no more of relevance. What awaits everybody especially the older ones, are moment in the parting of life to death. With that understanding and consciousness, it eliminates fear especially in the old people. And also with that thought, life and death would be made simple, more of a smoother transition, so to speak. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, February 9, 2014

freeing yourself..

Feel I am tied to the toe. Why should my life being dictated by those whose commitment is not 100 percent? Life has always been a dream. A day starts with a dream and it ends in the night with a dream. So what is left? What has never been a dream. Allahuakbar.

Saturday, February 8, 2014


Beware of individuals who sees other as nobody and as nothing. Absolute nothing and absolute nobody.This individual in actual fact lives in her or his own world. Often times I have been trapped by this behavior. As from today, I shall be free from a situation where I am on the losing end. I shall live to where and what I am. But can they understand it? They don't. This writing is strictly for me. Allahuakbar.

Friday, February 7, 2014

when advice comes from a wrong source...

I am all alone by myself. It is almost 12 midnight. But I am writing this telling to myself that of late I have been making wrong decisions. The benchmark and basis of all decisions should be happiness here, now, and the months to come. But I have been advised wrongly. It is nobody's fault but mine. Others might have a different basis for the decisions. Most, money factor has become the basis for decisions. Not you. Next time, don't ask them. When comes to happiness, it is strictly the realm of instincts. And you have good, reliable, and trusted instincts. Semoga Allah sentiasa bersama saya. Allahuakbar.

Thursday, February 6, 2014

tidak mengenal...

Keajaiban hidup adalah mati. Adakah kita mengenal mati? Hanya yang mati mengenal mati. Begitu juga dengan mereka yang sihat. Adakah mereka yang sihat mengenal sakit dan sebaliknya? Begitu juga kemiskinan dan kekayaan. Sudah lumrah, apa yang disebutkan tadi tidak mengenal antara satu dengan yang lain. Adakah itu keajaiban keajaiban yang sukar difahami dengan mata kasar. Atau ianya hanya difahami dengan mata batin? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

ruang kecil yang begitu luas...

Ruangnya kecil dan segalanya berlaku dengan pantas. Tidak berpeluang berfikir panjang.Tetapi impaknya membawa persoalan kehidupan keseluruhannya bagi seseorang. Ada mengambilnya sebagai sudah tersurat dan menerima adanya apa yang berlaku. Sudah pasti begitu.Tidak ada kesudahan bagi semua perkara melainkan mati. Allahuakbar.

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

menonton sebuah lakonan..

Baru terasa bahawa itu hanya lakonan. Dirasakan ada sekat sekat yang mengawal percakapan dan perbuatan. Walaupun hidup ini dicipta dengan kebebasan tertentu pada pemikiran dan perbuatan, tidak terasa pada lakonan yang jelas dikawal oleh skrip yang datangnya dari seseorang. Saya hanya menonton sebuah lakonan dan mendengar sebuah nyanyian. Saya sentiasa menyoal dan bertanya adakah mereka yang hidup ini ada persamaan dengan sebuah lakonan dan adakah mereka benar benar memahami dan mengerti apa yang diucapkan? Atau mereka sendiri dikawal oleh skrip hati yang seketul itu? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Monday, February 3, 2014

Days can never be the same...

Bound to see something different happen everyday. Despite the old age, I am still young when comes to events and happenings. Despite I am real careful with my driving, I am yet to experience a near car crash situation. And today it actually happened. A Mercedes is trying to make a crash on my car. I only thank Allah for nothing bad transpired from the incident. Allahuakbar.

Sunday, February 2, 2014

Do they only make noises?

What are they doing? They are small. But they don't behave like one. They are all over the places. And they are far from being kind and good. They go to war. They fight each other. They killed each other. When comes to intelligence, it is a `filled-up intelligence', an intelligent that can be repaired to suit one's need. Have they been sincere when coming up to and help each other? They didn't die at the same time. Neither they are born to this world at the same time, together. So how could they be kind and good to each other? What could be possibly bind them? Allahuakbar.

Saturday, February 1, 2014

Kesetarafan dan hak...

Kesetarafan dan hak. Bila perjuangannya akan berakhir?

Mohon dan usahakan kesetarafan dan hak diri kerana Allah. Manusia bersikap zalim terhadap soal hak dan kesetarafan. Sebab itu ianya satu perjuangan manusia sejagat, tidak mengira tempat, dan masa dan tidak menampakkan titik nokhtahnya. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Pengasih, Allah Yang Maha Penyayang, Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.