Kesempurnaan..

Bertaut...

Buat seketika dirasai hati bertaut rapat. Kelonggaran dan keterbukaan tidak menjadi resam lagi. Selama ini segala kata tidak membina kota. Apa yang terjadi burung tempua tetap bersarang rendah. Kepada Mu Ya Allah saya memohon Keampunan , Kekuatan, dan Kebenaran. Allahuakbar.

Nothing wrong in asking...

I ask everyday. I ask on all sorts of things. I ask about something when I was small. I ask on something when I am old. I ask. I ask about why I am what I am. I ask this. I ask that. Sesungguh the answers are in the Greatness of Allah the Al-mighty. Why? Because as of now, this minute I am still asking. Allahuakbar.

Border and order....

I long to see myself in the context of no border and no order. Just wanting to be myself where I am not responsible for the norms and values inculcated in other people. I am just myself. I am just myself with order and border of my own. Allahuakbar.

Healthy thought...

An unhealthy thinking could be healed by healthy thought. With rigorous thinking and depth analysis, positive thought and positive actions would emerged. InsyaAllah. Semoga dengan Taufik dan HidayahNYA, kita sentiasa dalam Perlindungan dan PertolonganNYA Allahuakbar

position..?

Have ever we being positioned? Since small, even in the mother's womb, we are being disciplined in positioning. We might not be aware of it but it does have a great impact to life in general and to oneself in particular. And the thought could be a medicine to sickness. It heals unhealthy thoughts, so to speak. While making a calculation on my budget preparing my journey to Gold Coast, Australia, a thought has been trying to help me in making a decision. And that thought is none other than the word `death' and `positioning'. Does `death' has a positioning in someone? Very much so. With that formula of words, I am healed making me confident and happier. Penuh Kesyukuran kepada Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa ke atas Segala Ketentuan Positioning Kelahiran dan Kematian tidak kira siapa, Di Mana dan Bila Allahuakbar.

Friday - a communication error..

It is not in the innocence of words that have been said and written, but very much in the cruelty of meaning that has been understood. Sesungguhnya, hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Sembahyang Tahajud...

There will be a time when  everything seems not to concur but giving a little thought, it does seem to folllow a path that has been planned before. I have said it, let not anything in life be an unnecessary obsession. Just a little bit of everything and that includes what is happening to my life now. Money? Don't give so much worries on whether it is little or much. Opportunities? The same applies. Age? Do I have any control? Sesungguhnya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segala-GalaNYA. Allahuakbar.

finite..just being infinite..being in the infinity..

An infinite consciousness?
Change slides from finite to infinity. In terms of economy, by right, it slides from finite one ringgit to an infinity of figures that benefit many. In terms of social, from one person to many and move on till we loose count on the actual numbers. Kita manusia hanya sekadar merancang yang berupa finite, di atas yang tersedar yang teringat. Ketentuan sebenarnya tidak dapat ditentukan oleh manusia. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

pelengkap kehidupan....?

It has been that long. It has been years. It has been decades. But that awaited moment seem not to be a pleasant one. What we expect a story of change, gratefulness, and all smiles, tend to be the opposite as though death would not come to them. Am I asking so much? Sesungguhnya Allah sahaja sebaik baik Pembimbing ke arah jalan yang lurus. Allahuakbar.

too much...?

An advice to myself: Don't mess up daily agenda with what you listen, hear, and read. It makes things more messy and it aggravates matters by unnecessary sensitivity taking to heart in listening, hearing, and reading. At this time of my life, it can be construed as weaknesses. By now your agenda is simple, straightforward, and can be managed. Just take things one at a time. Semoga Allah memberi Pertolongan dan Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

change of heart..?

The heart has never change. Instead the heart has been the central to all changes in one's life. Thus heart has its own unique characteristic in being the same throughout ups and downs of a life. Change is a continuum sliding till it reaches the end tip. Then what? And fortunately heart knows where it is heading but with much restraint in telling the truth. If something goes wrong, it is not the work of the heart but very much the work of `syaitan'. The satan would lend a hand to a successful person only to mislead them along the way. With consistencies in seeking help from Allah, Satan's hijack of those who are in the path of righteousness shall doom to be a failure. Allahuakbar.

kekuatan pemisah...adakah ianya baik..?

Friends from Oregon and Frankfurt

A strong divisiveness in two things could lead to mind sickness, so to speak. A word echoed can be a mile apart with goodness but could be very near to evil. And so it be, an evil man he or she is. Wallahualam. Sesungguhnya Allah Yang Maha Pengasih, Maha Penyayang, memberi Perlindungan kepada CiptaanNya. Allahuakbar.

Sentimentality me...

Some sentimentality is playing on me today. Somewhat confused and amused. At this age still running around doing this and doing that. Am I what? Am I just good to be true? Penuh kesyukuran. Alhamdullilah. Allahuakbar.

they are still at it...

And I am going to play a game they have never seen before. It is a death game. They are not thinking of death. But I am. They are are thinking of respects and honor. But I am thinking straight in terms of my words, my promise, and my action. In life, as for all animals, the death instinct makes them bigger and stronger. Human does not know that. This is because human thinks in terms of life, honor, dignity, respect, and being alive tomorrow. They have no death instinct. As such they are much weaker than animals physically. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNYA. Semoga diberi kekuatan dalam soal Hidup dan Mati. Allahuakbar.

waking up to wickedness...

It is the beginning of a struggle. Wickedness are everywhere and worse still is in the body of human and not in tress and forest. Everyday we are subject to all sorts and all forms of wickedness. And of late the outbreak in Ebola and is turned into a worst epidemic in history. And the militancy of ISIS worse than Al-Qaeda. Where would all this lead to? Semoga kita sentiasa dalam PerlindunganNYA. Allahuakbar.

feel great...act great...happier life..

A man of my age should stand great and don't let anything `small' comes in you way. What do I mean by that? Sometimes, despite all the `great journeys' you have undergone and experienced, you still think and act `small'. It is not your fault. You have been just like that though no harm is inflicted. Being what you are now, act great, think great, and you will be great. And life is much positive and happier. Wallahualam. Sesungguhnya hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Jika...

Tidak ada setenang hati jika kita melarikan diri dari fantasi dan berani menghadapi dan menerima realiti. Jika ianya membawa perbalahan dan menambahkan lagi keaiban dan realitinya, walaupun tidak mudah, berundur adalah tindakan yang berani kepada yang berani. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

ketaksuban..

Isi hati yang tidak menggambarkan keluasan hati dan perasaan. Tidak juga menggambarkan keluasan fikir dan pemikiran. Lantas akan membawa kepada ketaksuban yang boleh memudaratkan. Mengapa ianya terjadi? Sesungguhnya sedikit sekali manusia memperolehi ilmu di atas semua perkara, yang tepat, padat, dan singkat. Tetapi dalam sedikit itu ianya telah menyerupai bayang bayang yang memperjelaskan kesemua aspek hidup dan kehidupan sekarang dan masa akan datang. Akhirnya terjelma alam nyata yang membuang segala ketaksuban yang tidak diperlukan. Dengan tiada ketaksuban yang melampau, ianya akan membawa kesejahteraan ummah sejagat.Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

360 degrees...

This world can be a happy place to stay if we are able to turn 360 degrees on any problems facing us. But not that many can do this. What more many are destined to turn only 10 degrees and less. I am somewhat amazed by my 360 degrees turn on something seem complicated in the beginning but Allah is Great..Are all greatness comes simple? Ya Allah, ampunikanlah dosa hamba mu ini jika keterlaluan fikir dan keterlaluan rasa. Hanya Kamu Sahaja, Ya Allah, Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNYA. Allahuakbar,

Mengingati ukuf 2010, 1431H.

what are they meant for..?

Merasakan diri dengan Allah. They have been against you all along. Just because  I am good in their eyes, that does not mean I can easily being pushed around. One day, the big burst occurs. It tightens me further into the embrace of Allah. Allahuakbar.

kalau ianya benar...

Kalau ianya benar, agak malang sekali bagi budaya yang terjelma. Banyak persoalan di Malaysia tidak merupakan persoalan yang genuine. Kebanyakkan nya adalah fake bagi pengisian hati, perasaan, dan pemikiran yang tersasar dan yang tercalar. Dari menyanmbut hari jadi kepada soal persekolahan, perkahwinan, dan cinta terhadap bangsa dan negara telah tidak ternampak tertanam jiwa kental dalam erti kata perbandingan dengan garisan line yang sebenarnya dan sepatutnya. Wallahualam. Semoga kita sentiasa dalam PerlindunganNYA. Allahuakbar.