A change in an element...

A mind could be many things. A small change in an element, a misplacement of anything or something can be deadly treacherous and dangerous. Is there a way to avoid it? Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai ke atas Segala-Galanya. KepadaNYA kita memohon Pertolongan dan Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

seeking the `unseekable'..?

Being alone and alone but we want somebody to accompany us. Why? That is what we are. How hard we try to be with others, it is short lived and in a while back to our own self wherever direction we are heading to, leaving them behind in the process. Wallahualam. Semoga Allah sentiasa memberi Pertolongan dan Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

Penyelesaian dan persahabatan..

Penyelesaian dan persahabatn akan mendekatkan perjalanan yang berliku ini. Permusuhan dan permasalahan yang berterusan akan menjadikan perjalanan lebih berliku. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

reminiscence...

Syukur Alhamdullilah. Allahuakbar.

satu langakah...

Penulisan ada evolusinya. Tidak lagi perlu meraba raba mencari langkah untuk dijadikan tauladan. Yang penting sekarang adalah langkah demi langkah hari ke hari. Tidak perlu sangat tengok ke belakang. Hanya dengan satu langkah ke depan segala hajat dapt dirasai. Soalnya kepada Allah kita Menyerah. Allahuakbar.

ternampak..

Ternampak dan akhirnya menjadi pasangan suami isteri hingga ke akhir hayat. Tak terkira ramainya pasangan yang bermula dengan ternampak, terpandang dan ada yang hanya bermula dgn terpijak. Sebagai manusia sesuatu itu mungkin bermula dgn ternampak atau terpandang. Tetapi bagi Allah ianya sudah KetentuanNYA. Allahuakbar.

hikmah disebalik yang ternampak dan terdengar..

Ada hanya banjir kecil, ada banjir besar, ada terus mengakibatkan tsuanmi. Ada berhati kecil berlagak besar dan akhirnya ditenggelami oleh banjir besar. Himpunan pada segala galanya menyebabkan keruntuhan, kejatuhan, dan kesesakan...crush, crash, but it still creeps..Wallahualam. Mohon Keampunan dari Allah. Allahuakbar.

straight line..

Slowly unwind the intricacies of life problem into a straight line. It seems the contact is direct thwarting all forms of falsehood. Allahuakbar.

where and when..

Despite the youthfulness in thought and thinking, the world is not getting any younger. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

old stories getting older...

Old stories are getting older and nothing is of fresh start. So what do we gain? Wallahualam. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa. Allahuakbar.

Is it now?

Adakah kita menyedari bahawa berani itu tidak ada mulanya dan takut itu tidak ada noktahnya? Malah setiap masa dan ketika kita di kelilingi oleh kejayaan dan kekalahan yang tidak mengenal erti bila. Sesungguhnya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Yes, in answering my questions...

How it appears, how it reappears, and how it disappears, could well define a living, a life, a situation, a thought and a passion in a person. For example living and life of those who are rich and famous, my intelligence, my concern, his or her death, and seeking and searching for Allah. It can be seen in those context of appearing and disappearing. Allahuakbar.

that real..?

Why all stories that I heard seem to represent my present, past, and future? I know it they won't last. But they seem to act and react on the spur of their moment, short moment. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Pemergian Nik Aziz..AL-FATIHAH

in short...

My expression does not need to be long and windy. I want myself to be understood. Would I? Let the race begins. Semoga saya dibekalkan dengan Kekuatan, Pertolongan, dan Perlindungan dari Mu, Ya Allah. Allahuakbar.

budak kecil yang kesunyian..

Sedikit bunyi langkah didengarinya. Sedikit suara yang marah akan diingatinya. Sebenarnya budak ini boleh melihat sejarah sesorang apa lagi yang sudah dewasa. Tertanya apa si budak kecil nampak dalam perjalanan hidup saya? Jangan tanya orang dewasa atau orang tua, dia sudah hilang penampakan dalam segala-galanya kerana dia sendiri sedang bergelut dengan kehidupan yang mana sudah terlihat oleh budak kecil itu. Ya Allah, kepada Mu saya memohon Keampunan. Allahuakbar.

don't have to run for my life....

It happens when you say it would happen. Don't fear any backlash, don't fear for any form of conspiracies, I am just safe where I am. I am just quick in my thinking and my sensing does not betray me. I am just me well, good, and fine. Am I? Hanya kepada Allah saya memohon Keampunan. Allahuakbar.

don't have to interfere...

There are worlds of this one world. But not all worlds are capable of landing. There are worlds where no one should interfere. And there is a world where the resistance is all pain and nothing but all pain. Interfere no more. I have my world where I am truly happy with all the dwellers. And has that been your true world of existence? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

an erosion..

Seems like an erosion of senses has occurred. The material that tied down hope and wish seems to disintegrate freeing me from 1000 bonds of once a strong relationship. It washes away down to the lower level of the bank and make me just helpless to climb back. Is that what I wished for? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar. 

smiles..

Life is relatively a small story of small pain, small gain, but always with a big happy smiles when being together with friends and relatives. Allah Yang Maha Pengasih, Allah Yang Maha Penyayang. Allahuakbar.

realiti..

Adakah realiti perbuatan dan pemikiran hari ini menyerupai realiti perbuatan dan pemikiran pada hari hari sebelumnya? Dan adakah terdapat cetusan cetusan hati dan rasa dan terbawanya kita kepada satu perubahan yang dituntut? Wallahualam. Semoga perbuatan dan pemikiran kita sentiasa dalam rangkuman keberkatanNYA. Allahuakbar.

history repeats itself...?

Years and long time ago, I have been asking myself would something good be happening to me? And it turns out to be really good. And now that same questions pop up. Surely there must be something good would happen to me. Why I am asking that? Why not? Despite the differences in scenario then and now, but the substance for the confidence is the same. Thus would history repeats itself? Just wait. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

weakness and strength...

Don't really remember whenI have been making a true, rough, and robust decision. But I do make it now. And that is after so many years being with the routine of others and their not well-being. And now that sense of freedom dominates my senses. Is it? Wallahualam. Yang Hanya boleh saya ucapkan Allah Yang Maha Besar. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa. Allahuakbar.

that face...

 weird, and strange...it is not me..it is that face...that face has been giving me a new life, a new personality. And that face..what I am talking about? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

a gathering of relatives...

a twist...and my comfort..

Life has been losing its old comfort. I must be ready for all eventualities, especially the layer of comfort I used to be in. When talking about comfort, it seems weird when others are trying to maintain and manipulate to their standard and level of comfort. And how could the other side just accepting it? The nearest comfort to someone is their mother tongue of talking, place, friends, and family members. But all that would change. I might just not be with them one day. Am I for another mental and physical comfort when they are gone? But it could be not a pretty sight when  others just want me and others to be on their side when comes to decision and passion. Comfort has never been a status quo. Comfort and discomfort is a function of change either slowly or drastically. Well, I have had enough of that. My passion has long been set aside just for the sake of common thought, common actions, and common behaviour. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.