has life been kind to me..?

Lots of indications show that I have passed a lot test concerning life. When small I don't really know where I am heading. Don't think so much about the future. But lots of time I am baffled by matters concerning death. I always ask myself how it is like in the grave? But despite that still not really know where I am heading. My gratefulness to Allah for what I got in life. I am blessed by the manner what actually life has given me. And now I am somewhat baffled by my ability to write my thoughts out. The flow of thoughts seem endless. I wrote everyday. Penuh kesyukuran. Allahuakbar.