the pain when someone comes knocking...

Do I have that symptom of being a lapse in sound reasoning when someone comes knocking and asking me for a favor? It is deep seat `problem' of mine concerning the `gate' that closes the entry does not function properly. It continues to be open till a favour is met. At this age, it was realized the good, the bad, and the evil I have undergone in meeting those favors. Despite that in the final situation I am ok. Allah is Great. kepada Allah dipohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan, Kekuatan. Allahuakbar.