life, membrane, particles, and dust...

From life to dust. Life and survive on extremism. Die in just being dust. Thoughts in particles, the negative, the positive, and the terrorizing, and the extremism of all kinds. Being one? Not in one's life. Somewhat dazed by the thought. Too idealistic to turn around a behavior. It has already being like that. Too biological. Or open to synthesizing (?). So what? Now and the openness. When shall it would be the particles and the dust...

Malu bertempat..

Ya. Ianya sangat bertempat. Dalam keadaan bersendirian kita diselubungi perasaan malu dan tunduk kepada yang ESA. Sebagai seorang manusia kita memiliki kelemahan dalam banyak hal. Justeru kita harus berasa malu dalam semua keadaan tidak kira masa dan tempat. Tetapi apabila kita berdepan dengan manusia lain yang juga lemah, apakah kita terpanggil untuk membuat kebaikan? Di sinilah terletak cabaran hidup. Malu membawa erti yang lain pula. Kita bersyukur jika kita memiliki dan dianugerah lebih daripada yang patut. Jika orang yang kita berdepan tadi sangat sangat memerlukan bantuan, adakah kita perlu menolongnya? Adalah memalukan jika kita tidak berbuat demikian. Bantulah. Tolonglah. Allah sentiasa memerhatikan apa yang kita lakukan.

Malu dan keterbukaan..

Know what I mean? Well, literally I am a shy person because I am created weak. Sooner or later we would understand what strength is all about. It is all about others in all its forms and shapes. Unfortunately, they don't see themselves as weak. They perceive themselves as the one that ought to have a fair share of everything. If not now then it is going to be tomorrow. Sooner or later. It is a good thought. But why shy away from a true relationship with Allah the Most Gracious and Merciful? It is just a matter of how soon, how quick, and how fast when the revelation strikes on them. Till then `malulah pada diri sendiri di samping terbukalah kepada yang lain.' Itulah erti kekuatan yang sebenar. In other words, that is the true meaning of strength. It is just a mental attitude of oneself on others. Malu pada diri sendiri dan terbukalah kepada yang lain...

Evasive..

As we grow older the tendency to be evasive in responding to questions has become a normalcy. When small we are are direct in saying what we want. Then as time goes by, the answers are very dependant on where, who, what, and why? And the evasive has become a `trait' when we just don't want others to know who we actually and really are. The reasons could be political, social, culture or just sheer ego of oneself when confronted with win-win(I win) or win-lose(he loses) situation. And I am no exception. I too tend to be evasive but try not to. Why? I don't have to answer to that question. Shall we move to the next topic, please. I am being evasive...

Nota: P.Ramlee dalam filem `madu tiga' dipenuhi dengan adegan yang menggambarkan `evasive.'

impression and expression...

Impressions die hard. So are expressions. Old friends just refuse from shifting to a new stand on a particular topic. Things have change. And so are friends that I have not seen for a very long time. Have they change? I am quite surprised with those who still cling to an old opinion on others. But as I have said, impressions are not easy to erase. With that come the expressions, just an old expressions that you have heard before..

being lifted..

That is how I see life and so cowardly bow to the need of books, papers, pen, files, and friends. Even till to this very minute. Yes. But everything has changed now. I have to leave those behind. I have to walk and passed through them with a sense of my own strength. A newly found strength. It is my own heart now. I have to push through life without them. Can I? Why not? Without books, papers, and files, I am going to see and experiencing a new life. A life within my own realm of thinking that put me in the centre of everything and everybody...

Menabur bakti...

First circle..

At first I was somewhat amazed with the term `first circle' used in the course of marketing code MKT165. Then follow by the `second circle' and the `third circle'. I have been teaching marketing for a very long time. And one thing I must be prepared are `marketing terms' that change with the modern trend and thinking of what is actually buying and what is actually selling. Instead of dwelling in the exact marketing meaning of the `first circle', it gives me a kind of `smoky' sense of oneness with life.Now there is nothing in between. I am all alone with the Creator defining in exact terms whom I am. At one time I was very much living within the realm of `second and the third circle.' But now the choice is mine. Life is basically comprises the three circles. Majority lives within the second and the third. And the knowledge within the second and the third contributes to the bulky principles to be understood by the students before they can understand the `why' in everything. Generally it takes four months or one semester to make them understand that. Even that I doubted it. But all in all what sums it all is none other than living within the realm of the`first circle'. It is very much shorter and sweet. Good luck.

ruang lingkup..

Bolehkah kita menumpang ruang lingkup orang lain? Hari ini jelas sesuatu ruang itu sememangnya diperuntukkan khas untuk orang lain. Walauapapun yang dikata, perubahan dan penukaran sesuatu adalah di bawah kekuasaan Allah Subhanawatalla. Kalau dah bukan rezeki nak buat macam mana? Sering diungkapkan oleh budaya Melayu. Jelas ianya menggambarkan ruang lingkup seseorang itu adalah sangat tersendiri dan Allah jua yang Maha Mengetahui akan perjalanan sesuatu dan seseorang itu.

innate, real, genuine..

How to be one? Innate in my feeling, desire, and expression. Genuine in my knowledge. Real in what I produce. This morning, and today, I shall open myself to all these tendencies if I have any. Do I? Have I? Are those questions innate, real, and genuine?

short in feeling...

If only you know how, learning something new is not difficult. The word `substitute' and `analogy' helps cushioning the complexities of what in the first place looks difficult. Marketing, why not substitute it with finance? Thought enclave in a phrase has often become a stumbling block in seeing something new. For example, is there such a phrase as `short in feeling?' What about `short memory' or `short in memory?' Lots of it. It is the opposite of long term memory. What about `short feeling?' Why not? I think I am experiencing in `short in feeling' or `short feeling.' Meaning my feeling can easily go away despite the instance it happens I was so aroused. As a result I am not so easily attached to a happening of a recent event. The feeling has become heavenly so to speak. That is the safest place where my feeling resides. Do I have a strong feeling for this piece of writing of mine? Here and now yes. After a while it has found its way to heaven. That is what I mean by `short feeling' or if you will `short in feeling.' For a moment it is only a `heavenly aroused.'

losing its grip...?

On Sunday I was at the Delegates meeting of UMNO bahagian Temerloh. Being a delgate I have to be there at 9.00 in the morning to attend the `perasmian' by the Minister of Defence, YB Datuk Dr Zahid Hamidi who holds the political post of vice president in UMNO. It was not like before where the anticipation of what is to come surrounds the occasion. But not now. Or I am getting older? Don't really feel the grandiose of the event despite of its occasion once a year. Or the source of its glittering has lost its face value? Or am I missing something here?

no exception..

It is just about anything from here to there. From morning to infinity. From life to the next. The classes are just a small part to a much bigger life game. Everything is accounted for. Even the numbers that hold the key to the success are being looked into till the real secrets are out. The whole spectrum of life is the world and the people. Sensing what is going to come is just apart to a much bigger things. Just like the tsunami waves that spare nothing in its path. No exception. The good and the evil. The kind and the goodness, in the first instance or for the last taste, it spares nothing. All are for the knocked out. No exceptions...

Put on the fifth gear...

Time to shift to the fifth gear. We would be in danger if I were to do that. Could you? After all these years of driving with gear one, then to two, then to three..and now the shift to the fifth gear is not at all a shocking. It is a natural process of shifting from nothing, to something, and to more thing. So come on it is the fifth gear then. If you say so, so be it!

menghulur tangan meminta maaf...

Jarang sekali kita beberbuat demikian. Perlakuan manusia menjijikkan sekali. Lempar batu sembunyi tangan. Mereka semua orang baik baik. Pepat diluar runcing di dalam. Bujur lalu melintang patah. Alang alang menyeluk saku biar sampai ke penjara Pudu. Itulah manusia. Sangat bertabiat. Apa kata tangan dihulur maaf dipinta? Hanya sekali. Itu pun masa Hari Raya. Haha. Jangan sampai bumi tersungkur baru salam di sembah.

Bayangan hidup...

Semalam aku meredah malam dalam hujan yang begitu lebat. Aku hendak ke satu tempat dan berjumpa sesorang. Ada faktor yang sangat menggerunkan dalam hendak mencapai tujuan malam itu. Dalam hujan yang begitu lebat, boleh sampaikah aku dalam masa yang ditetapkan? Hujan selalunya membawa erti, membawa kereta mesti dalam keadaan yang tangkas, cekap, dan jauhkan diri dari pemanduan dalam keadaan lemas dan cemas. Walaupun begitu aku tidak menolak sebarang kemungkinan dan ini termasuk kemalangan.

Syukur Alhamdulliliah, sebagimana lalu dan dulu-dulu, menepati masa dan janji telah menjadi lumrah dengan elemen keibuan kepada perjalanan hidup aku. Semuanya berjalan dengan baik sebagaimana diatur. Setiba dirumah, ternampak di peti surat satu surat. Lantas aku mengambilnya.

Surat dari Syarikat Travel and Tours Haji rupanya. Antara isi yang terkandung dan membuat aku tersentak adalah ayat permulaan `Bakal Tetamu Allah Yang Dihormati' dan diakhiri 'Penyucian Jiwa di Tanah Suci.'

Allah Yang Maha Besar. Malam tadi yang penuh dengan keserabutan mental dan fizikal tetapi perjalanan aku dipermudahkan. Seakan apa yang telah berlaku merupakan hanya bayangan hidup yang hanya boleh didengar, dilihat, dan dirasa buat seketika, dan untuk dijadikan itibar. Walaupun dalam apa jua keadaan, ianya juga merupakan satu perjalanan yang mempunyai arah dan dengan pengertian yang tersendiri. Kepada Allah saya memohon keampunan. Di mana jua persinggahan saya malam tadi, ianya merupakan persinggahan dalam menuju ke tanah suci di mana penyucian jiwa dapat dilaksanakan dalamn erti yang sebenarnya. Hanya Allah Jua Yang Maha Mengetahui akan Segala Rahsia Kejadian.

Destination earth...

I could still remember `Star Trek' a TV series in the 70's whose mission to places where no one has gone before. And that includes the planet earth. What they find is that the earth people is in disarray on all sorts of things. They are lacking in the community spirit. And it continues till today. Despite the modernization with nano technology, digital, and what not, they still have not found themselves as to why they were born or brought to this world. They do not realized that they are fighting among themselves which can lead to the annihilation of the entire human race and human form. Captain Kerk and his crew took the trip to planet earth to do some kind of repairing. But again the galaxy is infinite and need to be explored other than the earth. For now Captain Kerk is happy with his solution to the human race problems. But would it be for long? If it recurs, then once again Captain Kerk would direct his Starships crew, destination earth. By then would it not be too late..?