somewhat nervous...

There are reasons to it. One, I am always asking, what I am trying to do? Why I am still trying to see ends meet. Seems I am trying to make good of what is left for me or in me. And over and above is thinking of death. It has been in my thinking process all the time. Should it? If that is the way it is, so let it be. The days are still there for me to sense the opportunities, chances, and solutions. I am still active as ever. The sense is always here now, and I have to do it. Is that the reason for my nervousness? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.