leaving myself behind...

It is a heavy thought indeed. Why? I am trying very hard now to leave myself behind in dealing with what I called it a world without a terrain. Nobody can survived a terrain that seems to be endless in sight and extremes in all situation and interaction. Where would be the end mark? If that is the case, I have to proceed the other way, where I can be a person of no self. Then only a thought can be very light and penetrable and accessible. Allahuakbar.