mesmerized or hypnotized..?

mesmerized or hypnotized..? A saddening state of mental receptivity found in my brain that creeps into the formation of mind thinking, mental gap, and mental memory. On many occasions, pasts, here, and now..I have been hypnotized..have I? First, I should talk about the background..but why I am being wiped out to that urgency and priority? Menerima Segala Keredhaan dan KetentuanNYA. Allahuakbar.