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Al-Fatihah kepada Arwah bapa saya

how come it seems like yesterday...

How come it seems like yesterday when I have to walk home in a very cold, dark, and shadowy winter at Whitewater Wisconsin. Day is short and before I know it is already dark. Upon reaching home on the Prairie Road, just thinking about nothing but sleep. But one thing I have never stopped in doing is doing a bit of writing like what I am doing right now. It seems life awaits us to express something to give it a meaning, so to speak. And tonight the meaning seems to be crystal clear. Despite the passes of time, nothing has been far apart, yesterday and today, nothing, anything and something. But is it meaningful? Wallahualam. Penuh kesyukuran. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNYA. Allahuakbar.

Mimpi....dan yang Diimpikan...

Mengapa mimpi selalunya lain dari apa yang pinta? Perpindahan hati dan perasaan yang begitu drastik berlaku apabila kita bermimpi. Mengapa ianya tidak dengan cepat menjadi kenyataan? Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas SegalaNYA. Allahuakbar.

A picture to remember....when life seems bleak..

I have lost contact with each and everyone of them....me, sitting, middle.

Being a little bossy but less busy boss at Twin-Island Motel...long time ago...a young man with just little knowledge on life...despite that I keep on progressing...Allahuakbar..

how do you feel..

What do you see? How do you feel? Guts are hard to come by. Day in day out, despite the relentless effort in writing different things and topics, the inner gap is almost and strangely consistent. That consistencies make you a you. I am Hamdan bin Hassan whose sheer desire is to be just me. And the obvious difference is in the difference in yesterday compared to today. Nothing magical. Just as usual. Could there still be differences? Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai terhadap apa terjadi dan di jadi. Allahuakbar.

Those understand seconds would understand minutes. Those who understand minutes would understand hours. Those who understand hours would understand days. Those who understand days would understand weeks. Those who understand weeks would understand months. Those who understand months would understand years. Those who understand years would understand life in its true form. When forms are being discovered, then begins the effort in trying to understand the Creator. Allah the Al-Mighty. Allahuakbar.

shadow..At first it is only a shadow. But now shadows are everywhere. When small, I was so afraid of shadows. But now, when it is more than one and countless, all shadows seem to be friends. But only for a while and for bad cause. We must stop being a shadow. We are very much real to the bones and the blood. We have mind, spirit, and soul. And we have Allah the Al-Mighty. Allahuakbar.

FLOW PERFECT......i

FLOW PERFECT......it has been a life of flow perfect. All the details , in years, in days, in ages, in the people surrounding all events, all along it has been flow perfect. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

I guess we could only give sympathy to ordeals experienced by others. What we cannot give and share with them is empathy. Sympathy, yes. Empathy, not quite. That is life in the genuine sense of the word. And when comes the Intervention from Allah the Al-Mighty, nobody knows and nobody has the might and strength to prevent it. Allah Knows ALL. Allahuakbar.

Plane lands in KLIA with remains of 20 Malaysian MH17 victims. A Malaysia Airlines plane carrying the remains of 20 Malaysian victims of the flight MH17 disaster has landed at the Kuala Lumpur International Airport at 10.00am today. It is a day of national mourning across the country with flags hoisted at half-mast.

A Malaysia Airlines plane carrying the remains of 20 Malaysian victims of the flight MH17 disaster has landed at the Kuala Lumpur International Airport at 10.00am today. It is a day of national mourning across the country with flags hoisted at half-mast. - See more at: http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/malaysia/article/nation-mourns-as-mh17-victims-return-home#sthash.LAEnthob.dpuf

Plane lands in KLIA with remains of 20 Malaysian MH17 victims - See more at: http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/malaysia/article/nation-mourns-as-mh17-victims-return-home#sthash.hf0i9KN2.dpuf

endangering...

We keep on saying about the world we live in. In the name of `goodness' are we endangering everybody's life? Look at Israel and Hammas who endangers who? Who starts it all? Obama airstrikes on Iraq, how many more would be killed and perished from this earth? Why can't they open a new chapter in life by doing something that does not endanger other people? We dressed great in the outside. What about inside? Wallahualam. Semoga kita sentiasa dalam Pertolongan dan PerlindunganNYA. Allahuakbar.

creepy...

creepy adjustment, creepy arrangement, creepy distances, creepy tv stories, creepy anger, creepy laughs and laughter, creepy shops and jobs, creepy desk-top, creepy comments, creepy days, creepy times, creepy discipline..Wallahualam. Kepada Allah saya Menyerah. Kepada Allah saya Memohon Pertolongan dan Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

science , art, and myths..

And it can be real. Or it can't. But not forever. There are times when life is just a step away from fantasies. When fantasies become realities, human being has lost their sense of belonging. Literally they are dead doing what ordinarily should be done by living and normal people. But they have lost their sense of pain. Are they worth living? Sesungguhnya hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui  Yang Benar dan Yang Tidak. Allahuakbar.

what it actually meant when seen from afar....why it has to be dismissed..

It is just nothing. It is just the same. Nobody wants anybody to have a good life. They sympathize. But they are merely reacting but far from being proactive. Beware of reactionary actions of persons that you might know or might not know. The reacting could just an act of culture's wish of any social human interaction. An act of proactive underlies the knowledge of humans actions and decisions that truly signify the caring and the concerned. Wallahualam. Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui, Berkuasa ke atas Segala-GalaNYA. Allahuakar.

Relief and belief...INCLUSIVE...

Feel some kind of a relieve and a strong belief in life and in death where everybody shall have their parting of ways. Sukar dirasai perasaan ini dalam keadaan lain. Tetapi entah disebabkan fakta apa, terasa terlepas dari kekangan perasaan yang sentiasa berusaha mencari jalan keluar. Hanya kepada Allah di pohon Perlindungan, Pertolongan, Taufik, dan Hidayah. Allahuakbar.

Stupidity and intelligence..

Stupidity reflects in a much longer time compared to intelligence when all is well and good in the beginning. Sesungguhnya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke Atas Segala-GalaNya. Lots of nations fell in disgrace despite it was boasted intelligence ceremonially in the beginning. Hanya Kepada Allah kita mohon Taufik dan Hidayah. Allahuakbar.

the plus and the minus...

Moving forward is always seen as making money and making a name of oneself. In terms of  humans progress it can be seen as  plus and minus. Much and many does not mean plus. Little and nothing does not mean minus. A nation is being seen as rich and wealthy but lacks in working as one is regarded as minus. The same applies to a nation working towards being rich and wealthy but keeping intact the oneness in the society and community can be regarded a plus in spirit both physical and mental. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

it is to you....

It has been yours all along. You have that kind of mathematical ability in terms of life and direction. Yes it is not that difficult to fathom. The question here is just to believe it. But sometimes it seems unbelievable not because of you but it is just when others say other wise. Ignore them? That is where your weakness are. That fluid of interference cause havoc to your judgment and logical thinking. It is time to trust and believe. Semoga Allah memberi Pertolongn dan Perlindungan, Taufik dan Hidayah. Allahuakbar.

Allahuakbar...

Unconsciously, they never allow me to discover myself. Am I to be blamed? Life is trying an error. And along the way is your self lying seeking for help. And today I found that help. Allahuakbar.

Apa yang berlaku di Selangor, Malaysia..

telah membogelkan manusia dengan kerakusan mereka. They have been taught with novel principles in schools. But when they grow up come a stage where schools and teachers have been forgotten. Sesungguhnya hidup ini mesti berguru. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

power within...

Sesungguhnya `power within' seseorang tidaklah sebesar dan sekuat mana berbanding dengan Kekuasaan Allah Subhanawataala. Allahuakbar.

Where the power is...

The power is in Allah. I don't know what's got into me today. But after that I am not what I was. Am I what I was? Am I a changed person? Allahuakbar.

Dissociated

Dissociated - in the beginning it is just a flash. But it is quite lasting and that is a beautiful feeling and it is creepy. And I am going to go against angels and goodness? And leaving technology behind? What? What I am talking about? Kepada Allah saya memohon Pertolongan dan Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

are my thoughts more powerful..?

I am beginning to see who I am, mentally, emotionally, and professorially. Should not be afraid anymore. That serve as lifter to what is supposed to be a reality versus a fantasies. And am I alone? That was initially the feeling but behind that feeling is my specialty. Has it been like that all along? Wallahualam. Allahualam.

manusia tidak serupa..

Dalam tidak serupalah, maka setiap orang dinugerahkan kekuatan dan kebolehan. Tidak terkecuali saya. Bukan sahaja saya berkebolehan dan berkeupayaan dalam sesuatu hal, juga mampu mengesan akan kebolehan yang mana orang lain tidak memilikinya. Saya merasakan kebahagiaan. Saya merasakan keseronokan. Saya merasakan penyelesaian. Apa kesemua itu merupakan bakat disemulajadikan atau dinugerah oleh Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNya. Maka itu di kehendaki oleh Allah, maka berlakulah ia. Allahuakbar.

The absence of personal touch..

Despite the very much personal nature of birth and death,  life seems too `official' in its stride and in its interactions. We don't interact the way it should be, personal and human in all its humility. Dari tanah kita dijadikan, kepada tanah kita akn dikebumikan dan kepada Allah kita semua kan dikembalikan. Allahuakbar.

Nostalgic...

Year?

When you can have everything? My past has never tried to create a path towards 2014. But as in everything and everybody, nobody owns anything what more trying to have everything. When a person died, what would be the counting like? There must be something that he or she fails to own. All in all we might be nostalgic at events in the past when it is so near yet so far. What can I say. Allahuakbar.

What is left...

I have to ask, what is left of me? My younger days are over. I am left with some fortune. I think it is worth more than I thought earlier. I am rather fortunate in owning something tangible and intangible. That intangible is more than I can bargained for. See. This aspect of my ability is worth more than I can envisaged. After all nothing would be carried to the world hereafter except what you have intangibly gathered and earned. 
 Allahuakbar.

A day can be...

What happened when somebody fight against nobody? But it can also be nobody against nobody. What about when somebody fight against somebody? Semoga sentiasa di dalam Perlindungan dan PertolonganNYA. Allahuakbar.

behind my back...

They say so, and they say it behind your back. Who are they? It can be somebody who are close to you or anybody for that matter. What they say can be something good, can be something bad, but I don't think they are talking evil about you. Some might say something positive, and some could be negative, and some just do not know anything about you. Sesungguhnya hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Am I fair..?

It is a fair game in everything. But of course relatively speaking. But am I fair when talking about the direction I took? Adakah ianya membesar dihujung dan kecil pada peringkat permulaan? That is how it looks when comes to my life. Just like a tree, it gives shelter and fruits in abundant as years go by. Ya Allah,Ya TuhanKu, semoga ketenangan yang dicari, Ketenangan Yang Sebenar diperolehi. Allahuakbar.

self-policed matters..

There are things which ought to be self-policed in order to pronounce the wrong doing, overdo, and do not do as a self-inflicted crime and pain. What matters most is the peace of mind free from self-inflicted wounds of wrong doing of oneself resulting from the wrong-doing of others onto me. Wallahualam. Semoga saya sentiasa dalam Perlindungan Allah. Allahuakbar.