pengkhianatan..

seorang kawan itu benar benar kawan bila dia sentiasa berkelapangan untuk kamu...dalam hidup dan apabila sudah mati..Wallahualam..

presentation...

Everybody, one way or another has something to present to the world. If he has three wives, I am sure he feels himself a hero so to speak. And that has to be presented. Wonder on what I do have worth presenting. I have been perceived as a quiet guy. No matter how loud I seem to present myself, the response is none other what they have been perceiving of me before. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

not that long...

I am just an ordinary person leading a normal life. Then something happen. I am no longer the person I am supposed to be. I am just experiencing some kind of a transformation. Aided by experience and then strange happenings, life has been an abundance of thoughts and thinking. And here I am writing. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Ke atas Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

me, Hamdan,

You, me, Hamdan, or could it be some other body in the body? What about the mind, the thinking, and the decisions. The flow seems dragging at first but it seems inclusive and some of it could be seen as exclusive. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Food for thought...

As for majority, food is only for the stomach. Well it is just food for thought. Wallahualam. Maha Suci Allah dari disyirikkan. Allahuakbar.

lost...?

What would you do if you get lost? Such a wonderful time indeed. Never have to think of what is normal and not normal. So don't get carried away by your so-called normalcy. If spending is normal then why not stay away from spending so much. So why not just save and save. This is because you have money to save. But as for others they have money to spend. Not you. Are you? Sesungguhnya Maha Suci Allah dari di syirikkan. DariNYA di pohon segala Kekayaan, Kebahagiaan. Allahuakbar.

the next terrain...

Life terrain promise no stability. I am moving into the next phase of struggle. Could I make it? InsyaAllah. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segal-Galanya. Dari Allah dipohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

Balancing act could be seen as a betrayal...

berintegriti, bermoral...

Semuanya sekan akan sama. Dulu dan sekarang seakan sama.. Apakah yang membezakan kepada segala-galanya? Jawapannya adalah sama ada kita berintegriti dan bermoral. Agama Islam meletakkan nilai tersebut kepada tempat yang paling tinggi. Jatuhnya Firaun kenapa? Tidak bermoral, tidak berintegriti lantas tidak bermoral. Begitu juga dengan Hitler dan mereka yang digambarkan berjaya tetapi jelas gagal bila persoalan integriti, disiplin di bangkitkan. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

what a speech..audience: old friends..

What they all see are only shadows, and more still shadow of others. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

moving towards one...

The direction is clear. I am moving towards ONE. But the moment you set your mind on yesterday, seems still thinking about the many. It should be well left behind now. It is an absolute life. Moving forward. But the `relatively speaking' makes one day too many. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

softly...

The softening of thoughts and the harsh of thinking, the art of writing..Where goes the voice and the actions? Allahuakbar.

You and me..the same me or the same you..

Stands in you is the real you or the real me? Right from Wisconsin Whitewater to the days of being a `clerk' in Kuantan, then doing gas business and right up to days of just you today after being a lecturer for 30 years and still asking and exploring who is actually you. When you are with others  I could be the same you. Despite all those years, I am the same me when I am just being like this, writing what I have undergone in life. What  I am doing here? Wallahualam. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Ya Allah..

Hanya kepada Mu Ya Allah dipohon segala kebaikan, kesejahteraan, kebahagiaan kepada anak anak hamba, isteri hamba. Juga kepada ibu bapa hamba, ahli keluarga yang terdekat dan yang jauh. Juga kepada umat Islam yang memerlukan arah yang membawa kepada Kebenaran. Allahuakbar.

answers to good life...

Everybody has answers to good life. But the opportunities of sharing are not there. Everybody is with their own life. Thus no sharing no talking. But as for myself, I just write what I have been thinking on what is good life. Am I not sharing? But not many take this opportunity in me sharing what I have. Never mind. I am just myself. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Megetahui. Allahuakbar.

no meaning..how well does it mean?

Seems lost with everything. Don't really feel and sensing the message of what I hear and see. I always see and hear things with a vision.Whereas to be real..there are always two sides of what we see,  hear and think for that matter, a double vision, so to speak. Despite that and this, it is always a bad influence, a small good. It is either black or white. Two sides of a story. Two sides of a person. A double vision. So as from now on, see it truthfully. But unfortunately everything seems to be untruthful. Wallahualam. Kepada Allah dipohon supaya saya di pimpin ke arah jalan yang lurus dan jalan yang beanr. Allahuakbar.

kesunyian itu kegelapan..

Mengurus kesunyian...membeli adalah satu usaha mengurus kesunyian...mengapa hari tua dikaitkan dengan kesunyian? Sakit itu sunyi dan gelap...apa orang muda tidak mengalaminya...hilang tenaga timbul kesunyian? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

jauhkan diri dari mereka yang ada ajenda lain...

Boleh di rasa, boleh di jangka, percakapan dan prbuatan yang ada perancanaan bagi memastikan sesuatu itu  berlaku. Tidak kisah lah kalau baik, tapi menyakitkan jika hanya hendak memperdengarkan kata kata yang menyakitkan apa lagi perbuatan yang memecah belah. Ramai yang hanya mempunyai kehidupan dan pemikiran yang selapis sahaja. Itulah makan, itulah tidur. Itulah kencing. Itulah berak. Tapi adakah itu satu kebahagiaan? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala Perancanaan. Allahuakbar.

when a night can bring some news..

Is it good? Is it bad? Sometimes I don't like what I think or rather what I feel. What more a feel of one kind and seems to have my heart being operated on. A minor pain. But it is only a small intrusion and soon it would be gone and all for good. Wallahualam. Maha Suci Allah dari disyirikkan. Allahuakbar.

by being free..

It could be a different story if the events turn out differently. Why still that freedom has not being taken seriously? After so long and years of working under some kind of orders, I find it difficult to go forward. They are in actual fact not as free as you are. They haven't taste freedom in the true sense of the word. And now I should have realized the situation I am in. Going back? No never. I am going forward. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Just an ordinary day...?

Despite the day appears not ordinary, and despite the change, the feel is that I have always been an ordinarily ordinary in all things I do and experienced. Have I? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

felt ordinary...

Has that been the standards well in-built in me? Well it has never been termed as `standards'. Just an ordinary me. Despite being `everywhere' and almost `everybody' I am just an ordinary me. Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Ke atas Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

main story...main event..

Actually life can be simple to a person. With main story and main event, if it is a book, it would only cover 30 chapters at the most. And with regard to me, how many more chapters do I have? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

pandangan hati...

Peringkat umur yang mana tidak lagi mengunakan pandangan mata tetapi banyak tafsiran dibuat berdasar kepada pandangan hati. Adakah ianya lebih menghampiri mati dari kehidupan fizikal yang banyak menghampakan? Wallahualam. Kepada Allah di pohon Taufik, Hidayah. Allahuakbar.

berdialog dengan Allah..?

Ramai yang dalam keadaan ketakutan. Lantas mereka telah melakukan satu perbuatan yang di kira tidak kena pada masa dan peringkatnya. Apa dia? Mereka telah mengenepikan manusia dan terus secara langsung melakukan sesuatu yang ada kaitan dengan ketakutan tadi ia itu berdialoq dengan Allah. Perlu ke? Wallahualam. Berdialog atau tidak, Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui, Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa, Allah Yang Maha Penentu kepada sesuatu sempadan masa dengan menganugerah kebahagiaan kepada ummah dalam berbagai rupa dan bentuk. Adakah mereka menyedarinya? Allahuakbar.

The reasons are different..

Wonder on how I come this far in writing. Wonder how I was caught up with topics I myself did not think about it in the first place. Just a pop up? Surely there must reasons to it. Reasons? Could be too late to look into reasons. I am no longer a young person. Well the older you are the more you need reasons. And at your age, the reasons could be as varied as to what the universe is. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Would there still games to play..?

How many tomorrows would there be in order to finish a game? Wonder how many more games I have to play? But how could I label it as a game? If it is indeed a game, then what would the strategy be in order see everything through? Hanya kepada Allah di pohon Perlindungan, Pertolongan. Allahuakbar.

Ramai yang mencari..

Dari dahulu kala lagi, ramai yang mencari tetapi tidak terjumpa yang boleh memahami sesuatu dengan ringkas, cepat, tepat.Yang terjumpa adalah yang ada kaitan dengan karut marut. Firaun terjumpa piramid yang menyebab mengalirnya darah, keringat yang tidak putus putus. Ada yang terjumpa berhala dan dijadikan tempat menyembah. Syukur Alhamdullilah, orang Islam di pertemukan dengan agama Islam yang membawa kepada pengertian Allah  melalui wahyu yang di turunkan kepada Nabi Muhammad. Persoalan kehidupan telah dipermudahkan. Malah dengan konsep sedekah, jihad, ramai yang mendapat manfaat darinya. Allahuakbar.

sedekah...acclimitizing..

Have you ever thought that life is a training ground for the events that you would be facing in the not distant future? Be it here and be it in the world hereafter. Be careful with relationships, mental and physical that tends to make you a failure and a loser. Could only be perceptions and could be just ghostly. Nothing doing. You are in fact a winner in some aspect of your consciousness and your conscience. The conscience in being a `sedekah man' and `pengorbanan' just fit in with the curriculum of `sedekah' and acclimatizing. When someone is dead, what automatically comes to mind? His curriculum on topics of `sedekah' and sacrifices are over despite one's greatness in life. So now know where you are? I am in the so-called land of practices and acclimatizing. I should be happy right? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

per self...

Self is a self of many things. As self travels in life, it can become strong, it can become weak. What sets in commonly uninvited. Self could also find itself in a not compromising position and situation relating oneself to just nonsense. Instead of becoming a self of per self free and independent, it has become a follower of predestine sort where per self is commonly placed in a weak position amidst of nothing. And today is a day where I am in the rise again knowing myself as per self always strong moving towards a place called a true self. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.