strictly me...

There is a `lake' in me where i can easily immersed into the depth and then I am just back and breathing again and this time much stronger. Figuratively speaking, I have been let down many times. And I just forgot that I am much greater than they are. In most aspects i can say with confidence i am just myself in terms of ability and skills. But the measurement has always been them and their treatment as though I am just nothing. Should I fight back? Well, you are safe from drowning, right? Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa ke atas Segalanya. Allahuakbar.

dosa dan pahala...

Dosa dan pahala hanya kepada yang hidup dan berakhir apabila kematian menjemput kita. Tapi yang selalu menjadi persoalan, apakah dosa itu berlebihan dari pahala apabila manusia berjumpa antara satu dengan yang lain? Atas nama ekonomi, politik, sosial, tidak sangat diteliti kesan dosa dan pahala terhadap keputusan yang dibuat. Apa sebenarnya itu dosa dan pahala?  Hanya kepada Allah di pohon Taufik, Hidayah agar kita yang hidup ini dibawa ke jalan yang benar. Allahuakbar.

Ramadhan...

Semua orang, tidak ada yang berkecuali, merasakan dirinya kurang dan sedikit dalam segala aspek hidup, pemikiran, dan kebendaan. Dengan datangnya bulan puasa dan berpuasa, ianya mengukuhkan lagi 'sedikit dan kurang' itu. Sebagai manusia ciptaan Allah, bersendirian tidaklah merupakan keutamaan dalam mengecapi kebahagiaan, kekuatan, dan kesejahteraan. Ramadhan mengajar kita betapa pentingnya kekuatan diri dalam konteks ummah dan jumaah. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

the direction is towards me..it is not being shared...

Kesemuanya merupakan sesuatu yang tidak boleh menyembunyikan saya dari berkata-kata. Sesunyi mana sesuatu, sejelas mana sesuatu, ianya tetap akan menyentak dan menuntut pandangan dan perasaan yang automatis kepada saya. Ia merupakan `pengaruh' yang cukup halus kerana ianya telah menjadi binaan yang sukar diruntuhkan dan perlu diperhalusi semula bagi mengelak dari tertawan oleh iblis dan syaitan.Wallahualam. Kepada Allah dipohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

how could that be a shame?

There are situations that are in-built with life itself. Conscious and unconscious aspect of life are well laid out for a reason and later on become reasons. It looks like weaknesses. Is it? It looks like being cheated. Have they do it on purpose? Or they too are unconscious of the fact that life is with specific and individual directions? Berapa jauh dan berapa lama seseorang itu dengan seseorang yang lain? Ada kah sesiapa dapat mengagak dengan tepat? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa ke atas Segalanya.

bersendiri dan beramai...

Bersendirian at best apabila fardhu ain diamalkan. Beramai at best apabila fardhu kipayah di utamakan.both complement each other.

puncak...

A man who has been writing this has been very humble with his ability. Why? His world has never been a flat one. It runs steep and narrow. Nothing holds just swept down. On the top it is just me. So should there be worries after knowing where you are? Allahuakbar.

seeking the path and knowing the level...

That is how ties are developed. Know the path. Know the level. Everybody interacts differently when comes to individual path and individual level. Yes a world is seen as one. But looking at the paths and levels  everybody has to trot on, the differences could be steep and could be narrow. Anybody of the same path and same level as me? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

picking free...

Those are parts that belong to you. It sounds easy. It looks easy. If ever they don't touch you, they don't mention you, the part and that is yours has never make known to them. Hamdan, and that is me, has never make easy to them. You are just not one of their chosen part. Have I? Never have been. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

a straightfoward thinking...

When there are a lot of thought directions, the path seems to be crooked and hazy. I can put it right and straightforward by not talking and acting so much on it. Why not just wait? Can you? For sure the end is in anything, everybody and everything. Allahuakbar.

tenang...

Bila aku lupa atau terlupa aku dapati diriku tenang. Bila teringat sesuatu aku kembali tenang kerana aku sekarang lebih berhati terhadap apa yang membuat aku tenang dan tidak tenang. Alhamdullilah. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

tunnels of weaknesses...?

Before reaching lights of real strengths, one has to experience the scorching heat in the tunnels of ignorances, weaknesses and seemingly stupid. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segalanya. Allahuakbar.

good intention...

The first day versus the 100 days then moved on to 100 months. 100 years? The first day with all the good intention and declaration, can it be sustained till the 100 days, 100 months, 100 years for that matter? With exception of few companies, para nabi dan Rasul, the rest would just changed direction in the name of a changed world. As a Muslim, on the first day, the son or daughter would be hearing all the good words and pray from parents and friends hoping for better days ahead. What about me? Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segalanya. KepadaNYA di pohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

a sign of dependence and weakness...

Mere expressions of strength can never make a person a complete whole. A person can be really and relatively independent with resources of cash and  kind. Do I have both? Hanya kepada Allah dipohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

a savior?

Do they bother on who you are? Am I sick or they? They have only themselves to think about to the last dollar and the cents, so to speak. And today a facet of you has been dug and has been brought out from the depth of `seas, oceans, forests, and volcanoes'. And it is a weakness that have haunt you for so long. It is a stage that can be so frightening. `You know it but you can't do anything'. To a point you seem to be dictated. Even the manner you weigh seems intelligent and experienced. But still at the end you are being made the victim like being robbed in the daylight. Has that being me all this while? Wallahualam. Hanya kepada Allah dipohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan, Kekuatan. Allahuakbar.

ringan...

Ya. Itulah saya. Saya meringankan apa jua. Ia memang dah semula jadi bagi saya melihat serba benda ringan. Itulah sebab mengapa saya amat permudah dan pemurah orangnya. Tapi bagi yang tidak memahami diri saya, saya diterjemah sebagai mudah dan senang dipermainkan. Hari ini saya menyedari bahawa tidak seringan itu bagi orang lain. Satu perkataan yang diutarakan adalah seperti seketul batu yang hendak dilemparkan. Tidak bagi saya. Serba serbi seperti layang layang yang sedang terbang, Justeru saya perlu berjaga jaga terhadap niat orang lain yang songsang dan memudharatkan. Kepada Allah dipohon Pertolongan, Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

little little things..

Not that big grand things, but those little things could change one's life. I  for one does not really think big when I was small. But I move on till I can write both big and small things. Not to mention my experiences it can be seen in a similar breadth. Allahuakbar.

relatively moving..

Water moves to find its own level. A person moves towards its own dynamism, real and fantasy. Until a true dynamism has not been found, felt, and seen, he keeps on moving. Till when? Anyway, it would stop somewhere. When? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa ke Atas Segalanya. Allahuakbar.

being serious...

Have I been serious before?  I need to. It is no longer yesterdays. It is now. Even it is not today. It is now, And I am trying to put a real effort in realizing the moment. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segalanya. Allahuakbar.