bermula dengan yang satu saat itu...

Kesemua kecelakaan bermula dengan yang satu saat itu. Ianya bermula dengan satu saat yang mana rekahan mula berlaku. Begitu juga dengan rekahan hati yang bermula dengan saat di mana seseorang itu telah membuka pekongnya sikit demi sikit dan hari ini ianya telah menjadi rekahan yang besar. Agak malang walaupun rekahan telah ternyata kelihatan besar tetapi tiada usaha mencegahnya. Sesungguhnya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Ke atas Segala-GalaNya. Ada saat kita hanya mampu berdoa. Ketentuan adalah dari Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

AirAsia pertama yang terhempas di Lautan Java

Banjir rumah bt kemuning

Banjir

we have to be serious..

This is because time is short for everything. Even the floods that strike many Malaysian states would soon become just a memory. But when it happens, we should not take it lightly. Because time not to be serious would be more than it is not. Soon it would be a memory. But what kind of memory would we be carrying? Sesungguhnya pahala dan dosa sangat bergantung kepada apa kebaikan yang telah kita lakukan pada masa dan ketika itu. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

see a difference...

I am not awed at those glamorous image of  persons and personalities from A to Z. It could be just a blink of the eye. And tomorrow they shall be gone. And for some, they are gone with hopes that will only lead to insanity. Not one, not two, but most of them. Not friend, not others, but could be close relatives. I don't spared anybody. I have no other way to say it. But That is the way I see it. In other words, I have many ways in seeing it, in writing it. But when come to seeing it, I have only two eyes. Could I see more? Kepada Allah saya memohon pertolongan juga memohon perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

Dosa dalam fitrah dan fikrah...

Sesungguhnya sesuatu itu telah berlaku. Adakah ianya satu dosa? Lihatlah dari sudut fikrah dan fitrah. Adakah dosa akan melekat kepada apa yang tidak fikrah dan fitrah? Tidak semua yang betul itu betul. Tidak semua yang salah itu salah.Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Lagi Menguasai Ke Atas Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

strategi atau dengki?

Dua tunggak utama yang sentiasa dalam sifat `elusive' dalam apa apa rancangan dan usaha adalah memberi dan menerima. Adakah memberi itu merupakan strategi? Memberi sememangnya satu risiko. Jika ianya dianggap sebagai strategi sudah tentu ianya berisiko? Fitrah memberi dan menerima tidak sunyi dari merisiko sesuatu situasi keadaan yang berkait rapat dengan kesejahteraan kehidupan. Tetapi jika memberi itu sudah dengan jelasnya dianjurkan oleh Islam, mengapa kita masih meraguinya?Wallhualam. Allahuakbar.

time - the elderly and truth...

Time shall speaks the truth. And so are elderly situations of events and occurrences.The element in waiting resides in the hierarchy of wrong doings more than right doings. Don't have to wait anymore. It seems clear in terms of hierarchy that wrong doings have been committed. Wallahualam. Mohon Keampunan dari Allah di atas Kesilapan Yang di sedari dan tidak disedari. Sesungguhnya hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke Atas Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

selepas itu..

Selepas mendapat kesempatan bersolat betul betul didepan Kaabah dan dirasakan jaraknya hanya senafas jauhnya, ternampak kehidupan saya selepas itu tidak lagi memanjangkan apa apa yang dirasakan tidak berfaedah dan mengelakkan diri dari perkara yang mungkin membawa kepada situasi illusi, dan persepsi dan memungkinkan mengsyirikkan Allah. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Now I know...

Now I know..there is no such thing as coincidence. Sesungguhnya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

don't really know how that happen...

Can I call it fate? Yes but not ill-fated. Despite how it is being perceived in the beginning, I still feel it still is. It seems I still can't go over it. But what is great is that I feel great. Because I am not hurting anybody. I am just what I am. I am brought to this to be what I am. Despite being alive, I am very much in a different world. And they don't know that. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

When you are hurt..

When you are hurt you have nobody to turn to except Allah. But for those who hurt you they are always in groups and have the members to turn to. Yes they might be strong but you are much stronger. This is because you have Allah to help you. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Kenapa ye...

Hati ini sentiasa berkata kata. Ian nya berkata tentang apa apa je. Sememangnya aku dijadikan dengan  hati yang tidak kenal erti diam. Itulah aku. Sesungguhnya Allah telah memberi aku satu kelebihan yang meningkatkat lagi ilmu terhadap segala galanya. Wallalhualam. Allahuakbar.

di saat yang kecil ini...

Saya mesti tabah dan menganggap di saat saat yang kecil beginilah merupakan ujian yang amat besar bagi mereka yang berhajat kepada yang besar. Hanya kepada Allah saya berserah dan menyerah. Allahuakbar.

lose out and it is a natural gain...

They are not what they have set out to be. Easily lose out to technology. Thus life can be uncontrollable in terms of exits and entrances. Sesungguhnya hanya Allah Sahaja yang Kekal. Allahuakbar.

Emosi..

Beremosi adalah satu lumrah bagi manusia. Yang takutnya mereka yang beremosi tapi apa yang di emosikan adalah diatas perkara yang sudah basi -melemaskan dan mengerikan..

Masjid Quba..madinah

A mental slur..

Mind and mental slur.. 

A mental slur could be a mental devastation in what can be a deviation in the form of mental trapping and can hook oneself away from mental truth of wrong doings and right doings. Humans are taught to abide to norms and values of rigid kinds lest one's life can be far from fairness in attachment and detachment. They listen and ask for things unbelievably a mental trappings. Thus life is filled with protests and detest and manifest by the adherence to  complexity instead of simplicity. In the final situation, they are caught in chasing a rainbows. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Mecca ..

Under construction..

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Masjidil Haram..

Masjidil Haram..

A journey...

I don't remember of being clear and specifics with what I am writing about. Not this time. This is because I am writing about a journey. Journey to where? Me, wife, and other 6 family members shall be travelling to Mecca performing Umrah. The flight is on Friday. And now I am still at home  giving the last look at what I should be bringing to Mecca. And this morning, I was busy at Celcom inquiring on the International Roaming Service. And hope by now, physically and mentally I am ready for the trip, an 8 hour flight from KLIA. Allah is Great. Allahuakbar.

what it is like..

They say it in terms of experience. They say, it is fun if you tried it. It is a one time opportunity in a life.What are they trying to tell? And what actually I am trying to tell? It is life with no more shadows. What? Have my life is no life of no true life because shadows have been in control? What? I have been controlled by shadows? And now I am really me, in flesh, blood, and soul. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Positions and tensions...

No two persons are in the same life positions. Success levels in everyone are not the same and meant different things to two individuals. When something creates tensions and leads to conflicts in thoughts, thinking, and actions, then we should give a second look at our life positions and positioning. Are path taken wrong or right? Wallahualam. Semoga kita sentiasa diberi Taufik dan Hidayah dan dijauhkan dari melakukan perkara yang merugikan. Allahuakbar.

SIA - `stigmatic in action'

For just a moment. For just few seconds. What puzzles me how it emits `stigmatic situation' seems like rushing and racing from an overflow of unknown variables that are in action that can smash a strong spirit. But luckily it is just for a moment. Could be just a picture, right? Why not see it be like a mirror, it bounces upside down. Even for the so-called conflict in thought and thinking, just toss it away because it is not worth dwelling on it for so long because it would soon turn `upside' and `outside and in opposing positions'.Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

the impact...

Impact? Why not as strong as before? Is it because of my age? Is it because of my expanding wisdom on life? Or is it because the greatness is being sensed differently. I used to stop at human and envy their position. But now I see more than their physical existence and to an extent their grasping of knowledge. All cam never be permanent. We are just like old cultures, they come and go. Sesungguhnya Hanya Allah Yang Kekal. Allahuakbar.

might fumble...

When you cared so much you might fumble and get frustrated. But when you just let go something that should be cared then the worst of bad scenarios might happen. So what should we do? Hanya kepada Allah kita memohon Taufik dan Hidayah semoga dalam konteks wassatiah atau kesederhanaan kita beroleh kejayaan. Allahuakbar.

why the concern on money?

It has been like that since time immemorial. But the difference is very much an undertaking that spells the word economy and recovery. The word economy has no self connotation. It makes us powerless and emotionless. It belongs to the whole global society. But what about the self? Wallahualam. Semoga kita diberi banyak petunjuk dan hidayah. Allahuakbar.

`Stigmatic'....

Singly, individually, I can be very `stigmatic'. All alone and all the echoes back to myself in a stigmatic way. And in the eventual situation, no other person would take responsibilities of what said and done. Logistically and logically, it all begins with myself.  Shall that be the answer to my woo? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

cerita belum berakhir..

Chapter terakhir masih belum ternampak. Mengapa cepat membuat konklusi terhadap apa yang terjadi. Jangan berpanjangan beremosi. The end chapter shall be very sweet indeed. Need not be a recluse just because some of the things that happened are not in line with what is anticipated. The plot can be thick. The plot can be thin. The plot can quick and fast. The plot can so delayed that makes the end chapter difficult to expect. Life is a drama. And my drama is worth the wait and thus the reading. Proven time and again that events would make you realised that Allah is Great. Bersyukur, bermohon, dan bedoa. Sesungguhnya tidak dijadikan sesuatu dengan tidak bersebab. Allahuakbar.

Adakah tidak luar biasa jawapannya...?

Kekuatan yang tidak luar biasa adanya pada diri. Kelemahan yang hanya pura pura alasanya. Adakah kita benar benar jujur kepada segala keputusan dan tindakan? Adakah cabaran sebenarnya menangani tindak tanduk yang tidak selari dan tidak sejajar dengan fitrah kejadian yang sudah tersedia terserap dalam diri.? Wallahualam. KepadaNYA di pohon Kekuatan dan Perlindungan Yang Sebenarnya. Maha Suci Allah dari di syirikkan. Allahuakbar.

Freedom and strength...

Monday and a turf of freedom and strength..
Could be a nightmare tour in tyranny of `physical and mental torture'. Being subdued to an unnecessary and hollowed submission? Jadikan kesedaran dalam kesederhanaan itu sebagai tititk tolak kepada kebebasan dan kekuatan yang sebenar-nya. Maha Suci Allah dari Di Sekutukan. Sesungguhnya Allah akan memberi segala kekuatan yang perlu bagi tujuan perlindungan yang hakiki. Berdoa dan memohon. Allahuakbar.

it is simple...and it is not a fallacy...

Dalam krangka pensyarikatan fikir, kata, dan perbuatan yang terhad, seorang ibu telah melahirkan dan terbesar seorang anak yang mana krangka pensyarikatn  segala gala tidak terbatas bagi menampung kehidupan yang fana ini. Allah telah memperlengkapkan yang kurang dan menjadikan anak itu seorang yang sempurna dalam melayari hidup dengan seorang isteri yang juga krangka kata, fikir, dan perbuatan yang terbatas dan terhad. Di sinilah tercampaknya persoalan riak dan sombong kerana Allah Yang Maha Pengasih, Allah Yang Maha Penyayang adalah Pencipta Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

don't really have a feel for it..?

A feel..how subjective can you be? Very, somewhat, or just don't know? Well, we must be somewhere. But the problem is where? I am still in the hunt. Where? Sesungguhnya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke Atas Segala Gala, termasuk masa dan tempat dan situasi kita berada. Allahuakbar.

ignorance of the day..

In whatever things we do, if it is in the category of ignorance, can we being excused? Ignorance has its limitation. In the final situation, a `tsunami' might strikes and can wipe out all the `heroes' into ground zeroes. As for the lesson, life is supposedly to be just a natural shift and a natural change for the betterment of self, communities, and world at large. But did it happened? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui, Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segala-Galanya. Semoga kita sentiasa dapat Perlindungan dariNYA. Allahuakbar.

paksi kehidupan...

Just make a small move of something unfamiliar, physical and mental. Despite the initial fear but with Allah's blessing it can be a big push to something new that can enhance one's life. Sesungguhnya perubahan yang dituntut adalah penyeri kehidupan bagi kemanusiaan yang merentasi zaman. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

Monday..am I a fool..?

When comes to the word fool, I can never be serious about it. Does that explains my character? I think yes. On many occasions I am a victim of being fooled by those who wants to make a fool of me. But I don't think so. This is because, despite all those `fooling' occasions, I always comes out clean. The joke is always on them. Sesungguhnya Hanya Allah Yang Berkuasa Memberi Perlindungan kepada siapa yang Dia Kehendaki. Allahuakbar.

Sunday's signal of truth..

Eyes could be perfect, so are hearing and the rest of the senses. But are we picking the right signals in truth? What interferes can be anybody's guess. It is an open book. it is an open knowledge. Sesungguhnya hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segalanya.. Allahuakbar.

Stood by myself?

For once I feel I stood by myself in experiencing change. It changes and the whole has never been the same when the parts are added. Life creates.  Life is part of a big and infinite cycle so to say. Then in terms of physical and non physical, I can never be in the same place and in the realm of same time and similar people. Allahuakbar.

getting better and better...

Better in what? Haha. Got you. Am I joking? Does it sound like one? Actually what I write is something that comes from my inner depth feeling. No one is invincible. Everybody is vulnerable. And so am I? But lately I feel invincible. Lately I feel strong. Lately I feel I am bigger than life. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi menguasai Ke atas Segala-GalaNYA. Allahuakbar.

anybody home..?

It sounds so frightening. It sounds so joyful. It sounds strange. It sounds mysterious. It sounds lonely. At any one time of your life and my life, often times we are being given a wake up call of who we really are. Today we are with our brothers and sisters. Today we are with our mother and father. Today we really feel the sensation of ever-lasting `home sweet home'. But things might be different as we sail into an old age.Anybody home? It sounds so different. But that is life. Allahuakbar.

short thrills...

Life is full of it. And many got caught and entangled with it. Do they find their way home? Yes they did `find' their way home only after draining and losing all his energy that save little for the remaining years. Wallahualam. Semoga hidup ini diberkati. Allahuakbar.

rahsia hati..

Tiada siapa yang tahu. Mungkin ada cerita yang sudah tercerita mengikut masa dan tempat. Tetapi tidak ada satu individu pun yang telah mendengar keseluruhan rasa hati saya. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahukbar.

kepelikan..

Unsur kepelikan pada manusia adalah perkara biasa. Saya boleh berkelakuan pelik jika saya mahu. Tetapi ada yang sememangnya pelik. Pelik lahirnya. Pelik hidupnya. Pelik matinya. Sesungguhnya Maha Suci Allah dari Disyirikkan.Semoga dipermudahkan dalam segala-galaNYA. Allahuakbar.

Lupa dan ingat...

 Melupai adalah satu penyakit. Mengingat adalah ibadah dan satu cabaran. Banyak benda yang tidak baik akan berlaku jika kita lupa dan melupai. Begitu juga dengan mengingat. Banyak kebaikan jika kita ingat dan mengingat. Allahuakbar.

a reality..?

Men, despite their old age, they are always young in seeing and feeling. Compared to women, despite their young age and beautiful, they see more of themselves than others and fear of old age and beauty more than anything else. Is it a reality? Or just words of fantasizing? I don't know. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

the ingredients...

What are the ingredients of a reality as compared to a fantasy? Not just what you see and feel. In fact it is better not to go behind the curtain. You won't like what you see. Watch out too for the right ingredients in its outer form not forgetting the `not so clear' inner form.  Life would then no longer be a trick. But remember, it could be very tricky. Everything then would be alright. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

what creates the vibration...

Often times I felt something vibrate in me. It is just nothing, I guess. But the farther away I am from the conscience of faith, the more it vibrates. It is a question of how far I am from being right. Is Is it? If it is more wrong, then it creates a greater vibration sending a message that I must be on the right track. But do I know where is the right track? Right track? Conscience of faith to Allah is the RIGHT TRACK to heaven. If I deviate, then it creates a vibration. Allahuakbar.

Good intentions overrides misinterpretation....

Despite the initial misinterpretation and misunderstanding, any act of anger would fail to materialize if the starting point is the spirit of harmony and good intention. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mendengar Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar. 

Kesempurnaan..

Bertaut...

Buat seketika dirasai hati bertaut rapat. Kelonggaran dan keterbukaan tidak menjadi resam lagi. Selama ini segala kata tidak membina kota. Apa yang terjadi burung tempua tetap bersarang rendah. Kepada Mu Ya Allah saya memohon Keampunan , Kekuatan, dan Kebenaran. Allahuakbar.

Nothing wrong in asking...

I ask everyday. I ask on all sorts of things. I ask about something when I was small. I ask on something when I am old. I ask. I ask about why I am what I am. I ask this. I ask that. Sesungguh the answers are in the Greatness of Allah the Al-mighty. Why? Because as of now, this minute I am still asking. Allahuakbar.

Border and order....

I long to see myself in the context of no border and no order. Just wanting to be myself where I am not responsible for the norms and values inculcated in other people. I am just myself. I am just myself with order and border of my own. Allahuakbar.

Healthy thought...

An unhealthy thinking could be healed by healthy thought. With rigorous thinking and depth analysis, positive thought and positive actions would emerged. InsyaAllah. Semoga dengan Taufik dan HidayahNYA, kita sentiasa dalam Perlindungan dan PertolonganNYA Allahuakbar

position..?

Have ever we being positioned? Since small, even in the mother's womb, we are being disciplined in positioning. We might not be aware of it but it does have a great impact to life in general and to oneself in particular. And the thought could be a medicine to sickness. It heals unhealthy thoughts, so to speak. While making a calculation on my budget preparing my journey to Gold Coast, Australia, a thought has been trying to help me in making a decision. And that thought is none other than the word `death' and `positioning'. Does `death' has a positioning in someone? Very much so. With that formula of words, I am healed making me confident and happier. Penuh Kesyukuran kepada Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa ke atas Segala Ketentuan Positioning Kelahiran dan Kematian tidak kira siapa, Di Mana dan Bila Allahuakbar.

Friday - a communication error..

It is not in the innocence of words that have been said and written, but very much in the cruelty of meaning that has been understood. Sesungguhnya, hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Sembahyang Tahajud...

There will be a time when  everything seems not to concur but giving a little thought, it does seem to folllow a path that has been planned before. I have said it, let not anything in life be an unnecessary obsession. Just a little bit of everything and that includes what is happening to my life now. Money? Don't give so much worries on whether it is little or much. Opportunities? The same applies. Age? Do I have any control? Sesungguhnya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas Segala-GalaNYA. Allahuakbar.

finite..just being infinite..being in the infinity..

An infinite consciousness?
Change slides from finite to infinity. In terms of economy, by right, it slides from finite one ringgit to an infinity of figures that benefit many. In terms of social, from one person to many and move on till we loose count on the actual numbers. Kita manusia hanya sekadar merancang yang berupa finite, di atas yang tersedar yang teringat. Ketentuan sebenarnya tidak dapat ditentukan oleh manusia. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

pelengkap kehidupan....?

It has been that long. It has been years. It has been decades. But that awaited moment seem not to be a pleasant one. What we expect a story of change, gratefulness, and all smiles, tend to be the opposite as though death would not come to them. Am I asking so much? Sesungguhnya Allah sahaja sebaik baik Pembimbing ke arah jalan yang lurus. Allahuakbar.

too much...?

An advice to myself: Don't mess up daily agenda with what you listen, hear, and read. It makes things more messy and it aggravates matters by unnecessary sensitivity taking to heart in listening, hearing, and reading. At this time of my life, it can be construed as weaknesses. By now your agenda is simple, straightforward, and can be managed. Just take things one at a time. Semoga Allah memberi Pertolongan dan Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

change of heart..?

The heart has never change. Instead the heart has been the central to all changes in one's life. Thus heart has its own unique characteristic in being the same throughout ups and downs of a life. Change is a continuum sliding till it reaches the end tip. Then what? And fortunately heart knows where it is heading but with much restraint in telling the truth. If something goes wrong, it is not the work of the heart but very much the work of `syaitan'. The satan would lend a hand to a successful person only to mislead them along the way. With consistencies in seeking help from Allah, Satan's hijack of those who are in the path of righteousness shall doom to be a failure. Allahuakbar.

kekuatan pemisah...adakah ianya baik..?

Friends from Oregon and Frankfurt

A strong divisiveness in two things could lead to mind sickness, so to speak. A word echoed can be a mile apart with goodness but could be very near to evil. And so it be, an evil man he or she is. Wallahualam. Sesungguhnya Allah Yang Maha Pengasih, Maha Penyayang, memberi Perlindungan kepada CiptaanNya. Allahuakbar.

Sentimentality me...

Some sentimentality is playing on me today. Somewhat confused and amused. At this age still running around doing this and doing that. Am I what? Am I just good to be true? Penuh kesyukuran. Alhamdullilah. Allahuakbar.

they are still at it...

And I am going to play a game they have never seen before. It is a death game. They are not thinking of death. But I am. They are are thinking of respects and honor. But I am thinking straight in terms of my words, my promise, and my action. In life, as for all animals, the death instinct makes them bigger and stronger. Human does not know that. This is because human thinks in terms of life, honor, dignity, respect, and being alive tomorrow. They have no death instinct. As such they are much weaker than animals physically. Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNYA. Semoga diberi kekuatan dalam soal Hidup dan Mati. Allahuakbar.

waking up to wickedness...

It is the beginning of a struggle. Wickedness are everywhere and worse still is in the body of human and not in tress and forest. Everyday we are subject to all sorts and all forms of wickedness. And of late the outbreak in Ebola and is turned into a worst epidemic in history. And the militancy of ISIS worse than Al-Qaeda. Where would all this lead to? Semoga kita sentiasa dalam PerlindunganNYA. Allahuakbar.

feel great...act great...happier life..

A man of my age should stand great and don't let anything `small' comes in you way. What do I mean by that? Sometimes, despite all the `great journeys' you have undergone and experienced, you still think and act `small'. It is not your fault. You have been just like that though no harm is inflicted. Being what you are now, act great, think great, and you will be great. And life is much positive and happier. Wallahualam. Sesungguhnya hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-Galanya. Allahuakbar.

Jika...

Tidak ada setenang hati jika kita melarikan diri dari fantasi dan berani menghadapi dan menerima realiti. Jika ianya membawa perbalahan dan menambahkan lagi keaiban dan realitinya, walaupun tidak mudah, berundur adalah tindakan yang berani kepada yang berani. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

ketaksuban..

Isi hati yang tidak menggambarkan keluasan hati dan perasaan. Tidak juga menggambarkan keluasan fikir dan pemikiran. Lantas akan membawa kepada ketaksuban yang boleh memudaratkan. Mengapa ianya terjadi? Sesungguhnya sedikit sekali manusia memperolehi ilmu di atas semua perkara, yang tepat, padat, dan singkat. Tetapi dalam sedikit itu ianya telah menyerupai bayang bayang yang memperjelaskan kesemua aspek hidup dan kehidupan sekarang dan masa akan datang. Akhirnya terjelma alam nyata yang membuang segala ketaksuban yang tidak diperlukan. Dengan tiada ketaksuban yang melampau, ianya akan membawa kesejahteraan ummah sejagat.Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

360 degrees...

This world can be a happy place to stay if we are able to turn 360 degrees on any problems facing us. But not that many can do this. What more many are destined to turn only 10 degrees and less. I am somewhat amazed by my 360 degrees turn on something seem complicated in the beginning but Allah is Great..Are all greatness comes simple? Ya Allah, ampunikanlah dosa hamba mu ini jika keterlaluan fikir dan keterlaluan rasa. Hanya Kamu Sahaja, Ya Allah, Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNYA. Allahuakbar,

Mengingati ukuf 2010, 1431H.

what are they meant for..?

Merasakan diri dengan Allah. They have been against you all along. Just because  I am good in their eyes, that does not mean I can easily being pushed around. One day, the big burst occurs. It tightens me further into the embrace of Allah. Allahuakbar.

kalau ianya benar...

Kalau ianya benar, agak malang sekali bagi budaya yang terjelma. Banyak persoalan di Malaysia tidak merupakan persoalan yang genuine. Kebanyakkan nya adalah fake bagi pengisian hati, perasaan, dan pemikiran yang tersasar dan yang tercalar. Dari menyanmbut hari jadi kepada soal persekolahan, perkahwinan, dan cinta terhadap bangsa dan negara telah tidak ternampak tertanam jiwa kental dalam erti kata perbandingan dengan garisan line yang sebenarnya dan sepatutnya. Wallahualam. Semoga kita sentiasa dalam PerlindunganNYA. Allahuakbar.

Have you noticed?

In a small way, just a passing thought, and after a short while, you have been laid out, in true shape and form but with a little bit and small margin of difference. But in all its basics, concept, and substance it is there. So what can you say about that? Penuh Kesyukuran kepada Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNya. Allahuakbar.

Effective..?

Kepada Mu Ya Allah saya memohon pertolongan...

I cant help thinking of me running away from them. I must be strong when in trying times testing me to the bones, flesh, and blood. I have been telling myself i am borrowed to this world. I am borrowed to the family. Am i being needed anymore? I don't know. Kepada Allah saya memohon kesedaran tinggi yang membolehkan saya nampak sesuatu. Allah yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-galaNya. Allahuakbar.

keep it to my self for now..

No matter what, everybody is a fighter in oneself. If one is to feel big and strong, just get oneself free from being bullied by `rights' unnecessarily imposed by actions of tyranny and dictatorship of one kind or another. Others are trying to do just that. And with the help from Allah, the goodness shall triumph over ill intentions and evils. Allahuakbar.

how come I feel bigger..? Am I seeing things from a bigger and enlightened brain?

This is because you have made known to the world that you mean what you say. If ever they are trying to deprive of what my rights are, then they should be punished psychologically. That sense of psychology makes me bigger and much freer than before. In actual fact I feel that I am surrounded by opportunities. Sesungguhnya Allah sahaja Yang Maha Berkuasa ke atas Segala-GalaNYA. Allahuakbar.

I have never missed in anything..

Then you are absolutely wrong. Only Allah has never missed in anything. Since Allah has never missed in anything, then there shall no secrets in life here and the world hereafter. Allahuakbar.

are they leaders? Adakah mereka memimpin..?

Dalam kalangan mereka, berapa orang sangat yang mengambil berat akan kesulitan orang lain dalam konteks menghadapi kehidupan yang penuh dengan rahsia rahsia yang masih kita sama sama sedang mencarinya. Di sinilah kita memerlukan kepimpinan yang memahami dan mempercepatkan proses kefahaman dan kemengertian dalam segala tindak tanduk yang bakal dihadapi oleh semua orang. Semoga Allah mempermudahkan urusan kita sesama kita apa lagi sesama saudara Islam. Allahuakbar.

ada yang tidak terjumpa lagi...

Dirasakan mereka ada lagi. Atau mereka telah meninggalkan dunia buat selama-lamanya. Aku sendiri sudah menjangakau umur yang ada kala mencelarukan fikiran dan perasaan. Bersyukur kerana jejari aku akan menulis segala-gala yang terasa. Adakah aku spesial orangnya? Kalau spesial dimana letaknya `kespesialan' aku? Atau adakah aku juga antara yang tidak terjumpa lagi? Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

challenge..?

They say so. I say so. Everybody says so. Is life a challenge? Yes if only you have set a measurable goal to achieve within certain period of time. Have you set yours? I don't think so. Then life is what you have undergone full of pain and miseries. But eventually you have made and come out good. Penuh kesyukuran. Allahuakbar.

saya tidak berubah..

tapi kalau hendak berlakon sebagai orang tiga suku, senang je...itu tiga suku je berbanding dengan orang yang telah jadi gila kerana harta benda...

so many variables tend to interfere..

Too many variables interfering in achieving a clear thinking. One way to eliminate all the variables is to exclude all the variables except death. Whatever, whoever, death is the full stop clearing all the clumsiest and fuzzy thinking. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

the one fear that spells a geniune fear...

Not having the slightest thinking that one day I shall woke up to the fact that I shall fight back. I was not what I am now. But it seems I am the one they fear most. It is the fear that spells fear. It is like throwing a spear right straight into their hearts. Am I striking back? Ya Allah. Hanya kepada Mu Ya Allah saya menyerah. Allahuakbar.

Mengamuk kecil...ledakan besar..ledakan kecil..

Walaupun saya dikeliling oleh suara suara sumbang, dikelilingi oleh amuk besar dan merampas hak orang lain, syukur kepada Allah Subhanawataala, itu hanya merupakan amuk kecil dan dan ianya kekal, ianya tidak berubah semenjak saya kecil lagi. Ia seolah-olah menyerupai letupan dan ledakan dan letupan yang besar berlaku di sekeliling, tetapi saya hanya menyedarinya sebagai ledakan kecil, amukan kecil. Apabila melihat diri sendiri di cermin, yang lama masih terasa kekalnya. Allahuakbar.

should I succumb to anger..?

Why I am holding too hard to my inner strength? On my own? Definitely not! Allah is always there to assist me in the thought that seem not to recognize that Allah is always there. And now can I feel it? All along my measurement, my judgment is wrong. The measurement should never been in monetary terms. So many nations, so many buildings have fallen to becoming bushes, clog drains and jungles because of obsession in monetary measurement and devoid of love and concern. And, the advice is not to repeat it. Give love, concern, and care where it is due. It should be the priority in building up a relationship. Make it an iconic to justification despite finding it well favored and well respected but too worldly. Think heaven. Never ever let yourself fall prey to money. Allah is Great. Allahuakbar.

that `burst'...

.standard 5..me ?top far right looking at the camera.
far left Krishnan, Arimuthu, and Sankaran

It is divine. It is Allah the All Great, the All Mighty. Have you not realize it? Your `ability' is worth more than $1.75 million, more than $1.8 million. In actual fact they are talking cheap. They are talking rubbish. They are talking nonsense. The blood that flows, the sweat that oozes out, the tears that drop, all are indications of Allah's Greatness in bestowing an `ability' into HIS creation. Theron, life shall be a smooth flow of invisibility, divisibility and creativity. Thats is what I am. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

unchartered territory...

unchartered territory...it has been so long since i want to have that fighting spirit again. And it seems I am being pervaded by that spirit. In Islam it is being called as Jihad. In my situation, can it be equated as fighting for my right? In the individual sense would it still be described as Jihad? Well I have my right. Right? Whatever in Allah I submit myself. Allahuakbar.

ilmu dari segenap penjuru...

Adakah terlihat siapa diri dari sudut dalam, yang terasa, yang tertafsir, dan yang tersedar? Siapa pula diri saya dari kaca mata orang luar. Adakah terlihat diri dari sudut saya sebagai bapa? Adakah terlihat diri dari sudut saya sebagai suami? Di mana saya dan siapa saya dari sudut satu satu peristiwa dan kedudukan? Sesungguhnya Allah sahaja yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

Tidak berada di permukaan yang sama dan serupa....lantas tidak ada jawapan...

Diamnya seseorang, malunya sesuatu pertemuan, ada kaitan dengan pemikiran, tabiat, yang ada kaitan dengan dekat atau jauhnya dengan permukaan. Pertemuan dan usaha ke arah penemuan dipermukaan. Permukaan yang berbeza...menyakitkan..tetapi dengan menyedari permukaan fitrah kehidupan dan kematian, kita akan kembali tenang...Berada dipermukaan dimensi hidup yang asing..sememang nya menakutakan...sebuah mimpi selalu membawa kita ke permukaan bumi yang mengkagumkan dan menakutkan...sedang mengikuti Selamat Pagi Malaysia..mereka lancar berbicara kerana permukaan dipijak adalah sama...Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke Atas Segala Permukaan yang tidak ada kesudahan. Allahuakbar.

Pemikiran dan pelapisnya...

Mungkin kita akan terperangkap dengan pemikiran yang satu hala dalam segala-galanya. Mengapa tidak kita tukar hala sahaja pemikiran tersebut. Tidak senang kan? Ianya amat senang jika kita tahu bagaimana. How? Gantikan dengan pemikiran yang merupakan pelapis kepada pemikiran yang sudah hilang hala tujunya itu. Agak berat hendak menerimanya. Tapi itulah hakikat hidup. Lawannya mati. Penyerahan perlu berlaku semasa kita hidup lagi. Apa itu sangat susah dilakukan ke? Well. Why not give it a try. The answer is in `giving' and less in `taking'. Sesungguhnya Allah Yang Maha Pemberi. Allahuakbar.

why..? What..?

Hate that word `why'. A question that calls for no answer. It is being laid out the way it is. All shall be leaving the scene when the time comes. Myself? No exception. And I have been pushed to a dimensional world of what happen has been the way long before I am born to this world. Thus it is not `why' instead it should be `what'. As is in death, everybody is going to face it. So `what' is in tomorrow and let `why' answers itself. The day and `what' could just be as sure and `mystified' as death. Allahuakbar.

single it out one by one...

Dari sekecil-kecil benda, kepada sebesar-besar perkara dan peristiwa kesemuanya kalau tidak dihalusi merupakan perangkap yang akan merebahkan diri ke lurah durjana. Lihat sahaja bangunan peninggalan ayah, dengan keperluan dan kehendak berbeza-beza, ada yang sanggup melihat saudara sendiri dalam keadaan terkapai-kapai. Di buatnya saya seperti peminta sedekah. Ya Allah hanya Kepada Mu saya Memohon Pertolongan dan Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

filling up my energy..

The spirit is in fighting in what you believe in. I have to fight for rights that belong to me. Someone has been parking his car on my land for almost three weeks now. And he is nowhere to be seen. He parks there without even asking my permission. Worse, I am blocked from accessing to the door step of my own house. Should I stay quiet despite of the fact that he parks there because my younger brother allows him to do so?  That person happens to be his friend. The irony is that my brother even failed to inform me of the parking. What should I do? Speak up or else they would always take you for granted and your presence are not being noticed. Do you want that? Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNYA. Semoga segala tindak tanduk saya tidak menyalahi Ketentuan MU, Ya Allah. Allahuakbar.

mentadbir diri.....

Tanah Perkuburan Islam di Ampang Kuala Lumpur

Mengapa ianya selalu disalah ertikan? Faktor luaran dari pakai memakai, kereta, rumah, dan gaya hidup telah membuat pentadbiran diri dikaitkan dengan persepsi yang sepatutnya tidak wujud sama sekali. Yang dekat disangka jauh. Yang senang dan yang berkuasa, ternampak lebih dipercayai dan dihurmati.Yang kaya ternampak terpisah dari rakyat jelata. Mengelakkan dari kejatuhan kuasa, yang miskin diputarbelit supaya lebih cepat dipapa kedanakan.Yang dulunya kawan sekarang menjadi musuh yang perlu dihapuskan. Itulah hakikatnya kehidupan dan sejarah yang telah terlakar dan sedang terlakar. Justeru dapat juga ianya dikaitkan dengan mentadbir sebuah negara. Adakah ianya tidak pernah dijadikan satu iktibar dan satu panduan? Sentiasa memohon Pertolongan dan Perlindungan Allah. Allahuakbar.

Terhakis..?

Kemanisan berinteraksi yang menjanjikan kesinambungan tamaddun yang hebat dan kuat dirasakan terhakis. Adakah realiti hidup hanya sebuah mimpi ngeri di mana rasa kecintaan hanya seketika? Wallahualam. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui akan Segala Rahsia CiptaanNYA. Kesinambungan yang benar hanya dalam Ketentuan Allah. KepadaNYA kita berserah memohon Pertolongan dan Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

old journals - written when I was a student at the University of Wisconsin-Whitewater..

death is real...

Then the sensing in the existence of that path is also real. Never I have felt the sensing is so real. Everybody is with their paths. They might know it. They might be unaware of it. They might `plan' for it. Some paths are just fantasies. And that path, in reality, and in the Greatness of Allah, has long been laid out for them and it is just a matter of picking up and rolling through. That makes each moves can be somewhat interesting despite a little surprise but it should not be a shock. Sesungguhnya kita adalah Ciptaan dalam KetentuanNYA menuju ke arah kematian. Allahuakbar.

What theory is this..?

We are moving towards mass and matter. Tomorrow is just a vacuum. We don't move forward then? Thus no more anger and hatred. Adakah meredai sesuatu yang berlaku merupakan fitrah pergerakan? Sebab itu kita senang menyebut apa yang telah disebut. Sebab itu kita tidak senang dengan idea baru. If you find what I write does not fit in, so am I. Unless you see yourself moving into the future that is the past. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

sentiasa bergerak mencari...

Buat apa? Jika mereka dengan kelakuan mereka yang tidak ingin berganjak, saya akan balik semula ke dunia di mana saya mula mengenali apa ertinya kurang ajar dan kurang sopan santun. Dunia yang sebegitu penuh dengan kesengsaraan dan ketandusan adab, tapi itulah hakikatnya. Diinginkan keadaan baik di mana terdapat kasih sayang, tetapi mereka sengaja melupakan yang baik. Bila bertanya, mereka menyangka kita tidak siuman dalam erti kata berada di alam yang satu lagi itu. Sebenarnya saya tersangat bebas dari sebarang ikatan. Tetapi adakah mereka cuba mendaki gunung untuk mengetahuinya? Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

alam kebatinan vs alam kefizikalan..

For hours I could stay there and sit there without the slightest of  feeling bored. Time is just running. And I am also running. Is that what I am, seeing things in a world of different dimensions. Just don't feel the hatred but only kindness. Don't feel the pain but only joy of working in the day and resting in the night. With couples of nightmares and bad dreams, I could still laugh and smiles. Untuk berterusan dan kesinambungan, mohon Taufik dan Hidayah dari Allah. Penuh kesyukuran. Allahuakbar.

are my actions and decsions too good to be true...?

I am questioning all the decisions and all the actions. Meredainya. I am looking into the `mechanism' of my mind and brains that leads to it all. Sometimes I can sense the unseen Power that pushes me into something. Not once, not twice, but so many times. In the beginning it seems to be wrong or so wrong, so to speak. Allah is Great. Allah Knows All. Allahuakbar.

lahirnya kisah sebuah cinta

Al-Fatihah kepada Arwah bapa saya

how come it seems like yesterday...

How come it seems like yesterday when I have to walk home in a very cold, dark, and shadowy winter at Whitewater Wisconsin. Day is short and before I know it is already dark. Upon reaching home on the Prairie Road, just thinking about nothing but sleep. But one thing I have never stopped in doing is doing a bit of writing like what I am doing right now. It seems life awaits us to express something to give it a meaning, so to speak. And tonight the meaning seems to be crystal clear. Despite the passes of time, nothing has been far apart, yesterday and today, nothing, anything and something. But is it meaningful? Wallahualam. Penuh kesyukuran. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNYA. Allahuakbar.

Mimpi....dan yang Diimpikan...

Mengapa mimpi selalunya lain dari apa yang pinta? Perpindahan hati dan perasaan yang begitu drastik berlaku apabila kita bermimpi. Mengapa ianya tidak dengan cepat menjadi kenyataan? Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke atas SegalaNYA. Allahuakbar.

A picture to remember....when life seems bleak..

I have lost contact with each and everyone of them....me, sitting, middle.

Being a little bossy but less busy boss at Twin-Island Motel...long time ago...a young man with just little knowledge on life...despite that I keep on progressing...Allahuakbar..

how do you feel..

What do you see? How do you feel? Guts are hard to come by. Day in day out, despite the relentless effort in writing different things and topics, the inner gap is almost and strangely consistent. That consistencies make you a you. I am Hamdan bin Hassan whose sheer desire is to be just me. And the obvious difference is in the difference in yesterday compared to today. Nothing magical. Just as usual. Could there still be differences? Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai terhadap apa terjadi dan di jadi. Allahuakbar.

Those understand seconds would understand minutes. Those who understand minutes would understand hours. Those who understand hours would understand days. Those who understand days would understand weeks. Those who understand weeks would understand months. Those who understand months would understand years. Those who understand years would understand life in its true form. When forms are being discovered, then begins the effort in trying to understand the Creator. Allah the Al-Mighty. Allahuakbar.

shadow..At first it is only a shadow. But now shadows are everywhere. When small, I was so afraid of shadows. But now, when it is more than one and countless, all shadows seem to be friends. But only for a while and for bad cause. We must stop being a shadow. We are very much real to the bones and the blood. We have mind, spirit, and soul. And we have Allah the Al-Mighty. Allahuakbar.

FLOW PERFECT......i

FLOW PERFECT......it has been a life of flow perfect. All the details , in years, in days, in ages, in the people surrounding all events, all along it has been flow perfect. Hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui. Allahuakbar.

I guess we could only give sympathy to ordeals experienced by others. What we cannot give and share with them is empathy. Sympathy, yes. Empathy, not quite. That is life in the genuine sense of the word. And when comes the Intervention from Allah the Al-Mighty, nobody knows and nobody has the might and strength to prevent it. Allah Knows ALL. Allahuakbar.

Plane lands in KLIA with remains of 20 Malaysian MH17 victims. A Malaysia Airlines plane carrying the remains of 20 Malaysian victims of the flight MH17 disaster has landed at the Kuala Lumpur International Airport at 10.00am today. It is a day of national mourning across the country with flags hoisted at half-mast.

A Malaysia Airlines plane carrying the remains of 20 Malaysian victims of the flight MH17 disaster has landed at the Kuala Lumpur International Airport at 10.00am today. It is a day of national mourning across the country with flags hoisted at half-mast. - See more at: http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/malaysia/article/nation-mourns-as-mh17-victims-return-home#sthash.LAEnthob.dpuf

Plane lands in KLIA with remains of 20 Malaysian MH17 victims - See more at: http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/malaysia/article/nation-mourns-as-mh17-victims-return-home#sthash.hf0i9KN2.dpuf

endangering...

We keep on saying about the world we live in. In the name of `goodness' are we endangering everybody's life? Look at Israel and Hammas who endangers who? Who starts it all? Obama airstrikes on Iraq, how many more would be killed and perished from this earth? Why can't they open a new chapter in life by doing something that does not endanger other people? We dressed great in the outside. What about inside? Wallahualam. Semoga kita sentiasa dalam Pertolongan dan PerlindunganNYA. Allahuakbar.

creepy...

creepy adjustment, creepy arrangement, creepy distances, creepy tv stories, creepy anger, creepy laughs and laughter, creepy shops and jobs, creepy desk-top, creepy comments, creepy days, creepy times, creepy discipline..Wallahualam. Kepada Allah saya Menyerah. Kepada Allah saya Memohon Pertolongan dan Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

science , art, and myths..

And it can be real. Or it can't. But not forever. There are times when life is just a step away from fantasies. When fantasies become realities, human being has lost their sense of belonging. Literally they are dead doing what ordinarily should be done by living and normal people. But they have lost their sense of pain. Are they worth living? Sesungguhnya hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui  Yang Benar dan Yang Tidak. Allahuakbar.

what it actually meant when seen from afar....why it has to be dismissed..

It is just nothing. It is just the same. Nobody wants anybody to have a good life. They sympathize. But they are merely reacting but far from being proactive. Beware of reactionary actions of persons that you might know or might not know. The reacting could just an act of culture's wish of any social human interaction. An act of proactive underlies the knowledge of humans actions and decisions that truly signify the caring and the concerned. Wallahualam. Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui, Berkuasa ke atas Segala-GalaNYA. Allahuakar.

Relief and belief...INCLUSIVE...

Feel some kind of a relieve and a strong belief in life and in death where everybody shall have their parting of ways. Sukar dirasai perasaan ini dalam keadaan lain. Tetapi entah disebabkan fakta apa, terasa terlepas dari kekangan perasaan yang sentiasa berusaha mencari jalan keluar. Hanya kepada Allah di pohon Perlindungan, Pertolongan, Taufik, dan Hidayah. Allahuakbar.

Stupidity and intelligence..

Stupidity reflects in a much longer time compared to intelligence when all is well and good in the beginning. Sesungguhnya Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa Ke Atas Segala-GalaNya. Lots of nations fell in disgrace despite it was boasted intelligence ceremonially in the beginning. Hanya Kepada Allah kita mohon Taufik dan Hidayah. Allahuakbar.

the plus and the minus...

Moving forward is always seen as making money and making a name of oneself. In terms of  humans progress it can be seen as  plus and minus. Much and many does not mean plus. Little and nothing does not mean minus. A nation is being seen as rich and wealthy but lacks in working as one is regarded as minus. The same applies to a nation working towards being rich and wealthy but keeping intact the oneness in the society and community can be regarded a plus in spirit both physical and mental. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

it is to you....

It has been yours all along. You have that kind of mathematical ability in terms of life and direction. Yes it is not that difficult to fathom. The question here is just to believe it. But sometimes it seems unbelievable not because of you but it is just when others say other wise. Ignore them? That is where your weakness are. That fluid of interference cause havoc to your judgment and logical thinking. It is time to trust and believe. Semoga Allah memberi Pertolongn dan Perlindungan, Taufik dan Hidayah. Allahuakbar.

Allahuakbar...

Unconsciously, they never allow me to discover myself. Am I to be blamed? Life is trying an error. And along the way is your self lying seeking for help. And today I found that help. Allahuakbar.

Apa yang berlaku di Selangor, Malaysia..

telah membogelkan manusia dengan kerakusan mereka. They have been taught with novel principles in schools. But when they grow up come a stage where schools and teachers have been forgotten. Sesungguhnya hidup ini mesti berguru. Wallahualam. Allahuakbar.

power within...

Sesungguhnya `power within' seseorang tidaklah sebesar dan sekuat mana berbanding dengan Kekuasaan Allah Subhanawataala. Allahuakbar.

Where the power is...

The power is in Allah. I don't know what's got into me today. But after that I am not what I was. Am I what I was? Am I a changed person? Allahuakbar.

Dissociated

Dissociated - in the beginning it is just a flash. But it is quite lasting and that is a beautiful feeling and it is creepy. And I am going to go against angels and goodness? And leaving technology behind? What? What I am talking about? Kepada Allah saya memohon Pertolongan dan Perlindungan. Allahuakbar.

are my thoughts more powerful..?

I am beginning to see who I am, mentally, emotionally, and professorially. Should not be afraid anymore. That serve as lifter to what is supposed to be a reality versus a fantasies. And am I alone? That was initially the feeling but behind that feeling is my specialty. Has it been like that all along? Wallahualam. Allahualam.

manusia tidak serupa..

Dalam tidak serupalah, maka setiap orang dinugerahkan kekuatan dan kebolehan. Tidak terkecuali saya. Bukan sahaja saya berkebolehan dan berkeupayaan dalam sesuatu hal, juga mampu mengesan akan kebolehan yang mana orang lain tidak memilikinya. Saya merasakan kebahagiaan. Saya merasakan keseronokan. Saya merasakan penyelesaian. Apa kesemua itu merupakan bakat disemulajadikan atau dinugerah oleh Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Menguasai Segala-GalaNya. Maka itu di kehendaki oleh Allah, maka berlakulah ia. Allahuakbar.

The absence of personal touch..

Despite the very much personal nature of birth and death,  life seems too `official' in its stride and in its interactions. We don't interact the way it should be, personal and human in all its humility. Dari tanah kita dijadikan, kepada tanah kita akn dikebumikan dan kepada Allah kita semua kan dikembalikan. Allahuakbar.

Nostalgic...

Year?

When you can have everything? My past has never tried to create a path towards 2014. But as in everything and everybody, nobody owns anything what more trying to have everything. When a person died, what would be the counting like? There must be something that he or she fails to own. All in all we might be nostalgic at events in the past when it is so near yet so far. What can I say. Allahuakbar.