MERDEKA...

MERDEKA is synonym with fighting and getting rid of what we don't want. From Portuguese to communist and then the British, we have been successfully in getting rid of them. But what actually is MERDEKA then? Can today and the hour invokes the same sense of patriotism in everybody? Well, MERDEKA is very much synonym with symbolism of a kind which might be different between what we all cherished. But the greates symbol of MERDEKA and unites us all is none other than the JALUR GEMILANG. MERDEKA!

waves and wife..

Why the topic? It just runs parallel with the phenomenal of muslim men taking four wives. Don't you know wife creates waves? It can become one if a muslim has four wives. Literally speaking, life then is a non-stop waves knocking on the innocent beach. Sooner or later the waves lead to the crack in the so-called hardened land.

For whatever reasons...

I have come this far in life. For whatever reasons I did not shine in school. But I make good my studies at two universities in the United States of America. I did play game like soccer even that for whatever reasons, only after finishing my school years I found that I was the best goalkeeper in town. I was a businessman before and I did hold any ambition of wanting to be somebody in my town. But for what ever reasons, it does not last long, till I found myself married to my neighbour next door who did not have the slightest idea what our future would be like. For reasons of survival, I re-sit my failed papers after four years being in the wilderness. For whatever reasons I passed the papers and shortly after that I found myself being an Assistant Lecturer at UiTM Shah Alam with salaries that even could not get me a decent car. For whatever reasons, politics is in my blood. Despite efforts to get a break into the arena, and despite being near someone who has clout with the prime minister, perception of me is not too good with them for I might posed a challenge to them. For whatever reasons, UiTM has been declared by Dr Mahathir a university. And few months later I found myself a title Associate Professor (Profesor Madya). For whatever reasons, I am a happy man now. Just cherished the life I am experiencing. And for whatever reasons....

Paksi kepada kehidupan - Al-Quran

Despite that, both helps each other...

That is what our hands are all about. Despite the right hand is stronger than the left, when comes to heavier load, both would work as one. Except when the load is not that heavy to carry, then the right hand would take the responsibility himself. But when the left hand is injured, the right hand would quickly come to the rescue and help to nurse the pain. The right hand knows fully well, despite the strength given, in most situations, both helps each other and work as one.

one strength and several weaknesses...

That is what we are, full of weaknesses. My right hand is stronger than my left. Dan syukur, dengan satu kekuatan dan kebolehan ianya akan menutup malah menolong segala kelemahan pada diri sesorang. Malah juga dengan kekuatan yang satu, dapat menolong kita mencari dan menambah rezeki di samping berbakti. Tetapi nisbahnya berapa? Adakah kekuatan 1 kelemahan 5? For example, kekuatanKFC is with chicken. Toyota is equally good with cars. Onasis is good with investing. But his son dies of loneliness. We can never be that all perfect in every department. All-Perfection belongs to Allah, the Al-Mighty.

Kekeringan...

Ada ilmu yang mudah mengalami proses kekeringan pada diri seseorang. Hanya ilmu dan maklumat tertentu yang dibawa ke sana kemari dan letaknya pula di satu tempat yang tertutup rapat. `No ventilation'. Tidak berkembang malah layunya merosakkan kehidupan yang lain. Berbanding dengan ilmu yang sentiasa berkembang segar seolah-olahnya tidak ada proses penutupan. Beruntung sekali bagi individu yang dianugerahkan ilmu yang sentiasa dalam kebasahan dan kesegaran. Apa inikah rahsia mengapa `one is so difficult to change'? Kekeringan?

Keinginan tidak terurus...All too blur.

All too blur and indirect. We speak a language in so many tones, shades, and meaning. Ends up in they don't understand anything. We might be perfect when comes to heart and mind. But when it comes to doing and saying it then we are the one who are sinful. We say left but they see right. All not in good time and terms that are so confusing. Results in mixed feeling and mixed emotions. We are not generational in our approach. Instead too often we are so busy with what and who we are. To them we are all alike, blur and indirect.Lantas, dalam kematian bayi itu akan bertanya, apa `mama' dan `papa' dah buat? Jawaban ringkas, `keinginan begini nak, sukar diurus'.

Picture perfect..all the king's men..

It triggers memories...

a stranger to all...

Alone in this world. If we were to set the clock forward or backward, and given this very same age, and just living a life strictly my own self, surely at the thought of it, shudders me. With nobody I know, and being in their midst, I even can't afford to give them a smile. Who am I? And who are they? Nobody. Just a stranger to all...

PLC..bila di puncak...

PLC, ringkasan `Product Life Cycle' dalam inggerisnya, dan melayunya `Kitaran Hayat Barangan'. Sejak berjumpa dengan PLC ini banyak olahan cerita dan pandangan telah di reka cipta mengikut keadaan masa dan selera. Bulan puasa bulan yang baik ini terilham untuk mengupasnya di sudut perangai dan tabiat manusia secara am.

Asalnya PLC ini adalah untuk mengenal perjalanan barangan dan perkhidmatan yang didapati di pasaran. Tidak salah kalau dipadankan dengan perjalanan hayat seseorang manusia itu.Bermula dengan zaman budak budak dan baru mengenal dunia, seterusmya menempuh alam remaja, alam dewasa dan berkeluarga, melalui liku-liku hidup pahit derita dan gembira, dan akhirnya masuk ke alam penurunan upaya dengan meningkatnya usia dan seterusnya berakhirnya kehidupan di muka bumi ini menuju alam barzah alam yang kekal.

Persoalannya apakah yang kita lakukan bila berada di puncak kehidupan? Tak kiralah miskin atau kaya, berstatus tinggi atau rendah. Pokoknya kalau niat itu betul maka betullah perjalanan tersebut. Malangnya dengan bertebarannya manusia di seluruh muka bumi, bererti juga bertebaran niat yang beranika rupa dan ragam. Justeru terjadilah seribu seratus macam kehidupan manusia di muka bumi ini. Tak kiralah sama ada ianya negara atau seseorang individu tidak terkecuali dari dugaan kitaran hayat ini. Justeru itu dengan masa yang terhad, apa sebenarnya yang telah dilakukan oleh seseorang itu bila berada di puncak...?

For what...?

Things seem to be running very fast. Don't have the energy to follow the events that seem only meant for the young. Don't really know whether they can wait for a moment till things get settled. They can? The beauty and the music seem to confirm that I am not that much behind. Or is it only a dream that can create a youthful feeling in the mind of the old? No. It can never be that way. But that music. Listen. That music does not belong to today's generation. It has already passed the time. And I am still here. For what?

runs parallel?

The story runs parallel with what I have been thinking all this while. The word `parallel' has made clearer things which are so muddy and complex known to me and others. It is so little but so much to others. So elaborate and deliberate but just can cut short with just one sentence or one word for some matter. Man has been trying to decipher a lot of things before. Some have been successfully reduced to a very simple formula. Theory of gravity has been so complex in the beginning but Albert Einstein was able to reduce it to a much understood formula. As for me I am not of Albert Einstein standing, but in my own way I too have created formula defining in a much simple way the social and marketing relations of human beings. Does it sounds `runs parallel'? Am I kidding me?

The All-Powerful...

Allah Maha Besar Mengetahui Segala-galanya. Muka bumi yang dijadikan sudah cukup membuat manusia tidak berkuasa penuh terhadap apa yang mereka miliki. Sembahyang subuh merupakan sembahayang pembukaan selepas terbangun dari tidur. Kita menyembah Allah Yang Maha Berkuasa dan dengan sujud ke bumi sudah cukup menandakan kekuatan dan kekuasaan bumi yang dijadikan oleh Allah Subhanawata`alla. Tidak seorang dapat terlepas dari Kekuasaan Allah walau apa jua pun peringkat umur dan kedudukan yang dimiliki mereka. ONLY ALLAH THE ALL-POWERFUL.

One loud voice...

If only i know it earlier, i would be more than what i am now. But now i can feel the true echo in my voice that transcends all the elements and a tree can be uprooted because of that. Can something be uprooted with one loud voice? Definitely not! But if that loud voice echoing the concern of those who can contribute to that one mission, then the vision can be realised in the quickest and fastest time and way possible.

one and one thousand...

As one goes up in whatever capacity, position, age, or anything, he or she is bound to be blessed (though not always) with one feeling, thought, emotion, or whatever close feeling with another. As opposed to those who has just new to something the figure could be thousand or more. As with me, I am no exception.Despite the realization came late in my lifetime, I am very much one with others, be it in words, actions, and perceptions. Some would look at me with odd feeling thinking I am just like them, a thousand reason not to link with others. As a lecturer, realizing that, it has become my responsibility to eliminate those thousand till the ONE and ONLY ONE is very much in the forefront of their creations, actions, and decisions. So now it is one versus thousand. Can you won them over? And that could be the reason as to why the response is not forthcoming. Surprisingly so when I think it is supposed to be so. They are still in the process of eliminating the thousand towards the one and ONE.

merangkak keluar cerita semalam..

Ternampak gambar lama dan gambar itu adalah gambar ketika belajar di Wisconsin Amerika Syarikat. Aneh. Gambar di musim sejuk itu berkata seribu keadaan mental dan fizikal. Keghairahan dalam banyak perkara terasa dan terbayang kembali. Cinta dan kasih terhadap ilmu tercetus menyebabkan masa berlalu begitu pantas. Teringat kawan kawan, teringat akan hidup yang lurus dan ada yang membelit, sendirian jauh dari keluarga. Semua itu lintasan datang kembali tapi menghiburkan. Itu juga hanya kenangan yang tidak boleh berpatah balik. So are those with whom I have encountered when I was there. I played my role and so are they. Where are they now?

pagi yang berkata kata...

Di pagi hari banyak benda yang berkata kata. Tatkala itulah saya dapat mendengar bisikan dan gambaran sesuatu di samping memberi terjemahan kepada apa yang nampak dan dibisikan. Aneh tapi benar. Kebanyakan bisikan dan gambaran memberi terjemahan kepada sesuatu dan sesuatu itu menjadi kenyataan. Tak kiralah soal apa, kawan, kasih sayang terhadap seseorang, ilham terhadap sesuatu, selang seberapa ketika jelmaan sebenarnya terjadi. Ada orang kata itu hasilan dari fikiran positif. Ia ke? Tulisan ini merupakan satu lagi lapisan yang terselak dan perkara yang selama ini tidak terkupas dalam bentuk ayat yang betul. Tapi syukurlah setelah sekian lama, pagi ini tertulislah kata kata yang mengkisahkan pagi yang sememangnya berkata kata..

WHY?

Couldn't help asking why. Just cannot figure out events that have so much similarities and a significant degree of personal impact. Feel like it was yesterday. And it is today. And it is still happening. For me? If it is not for me then it is for whom? So young yet have the semblance of somebody I have encountered long time ago. But why this time? And why now? I can't help asking. WHY?

counting own numbers...

Be it good, bad, and evil, everybody is counting their numbers. Some called it planning. Others called it fate. I called it love at first sight. Others called it love at first smile. What about the first touch? All are in the counting and the calculation. The intelligent one does the calculation. And majority only do the counting. I do both plus an analysis of what has happened and what ought to happen. Counting + calculation + analysis. It adds up to what? Don't know. I might start doing the counting my own numbers again. It must lead to somewhere and something. Hope in good time, it is some kind of a true love...

I am my own happinesss..

It is not being shared. The secrets are in the numbers. Too many yet too few. Too near yet so far. Many is a death distance away. I have my own calculation. I have my own expectation. I have my own interpretation. So are them. But they are more of their own worldly manipulation. Not a minute. Not a second. Not a number indicating I am a part. I have never been shared. In their existence, in their silence, I am just a minus and never been a plus. Am I only a death apart away? Anyway, it is only a painful part of a learning process. In death one has to be on his or her own leaving everything behind. Question is, are they blessed with the sensation of oneness? Life + death? Everybody is in their own numbers. So are mine. I am my own feel and I am own doing. I am my own own life. I am my own death. And naturally I am my own happiness.

Ayat yang suci...

Al-Quran dan ayat suci..Sudah kebiasaan kita mendengar ayat suci dan dikaitkan dengan Al-Quran. Islam mengajar kita dengan mengamalkan ayat ayat suci sebagaimana terkandung dalam Al-Quran. Bukan sekadar dibaca tetapi di amalkan untuk mengeratkan pertalian sesama manusia. Semoga bulan Ramadan membawa lebih pengertian kepada kita tujuan tujuan ayat ayat suci tersebut. Semalam saya banyak melontarkan ayat ayat suci kepada pelajar yang membawa erti kasih dan sayang. Adakah ini permulaan kepada kefahaman dan amalan kepada ayat ayat suci sebagaimana terkandung dalam Al Quran? Saya memohon keampunan dari Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui dan telah memulakan dengan bacaan Surah Fatihah yang menggambarkan senerio kasih sayang, mengharapkan satu perjalanan hidup yang diberkati.

Salam Ramadan dan Selamat Mengerjakan Ibadah Puasa.

the fourth wave..

What is the fourth wave? It is a place where the heart does not go to sleep. The highway is without speed limit, and the lust on everything is just faceless, boneless, and shadowless. Can be a killer. Comes quietly. Leaving the scene with no shadow of a doubt. Lurks everywhere and at any time it can jump on someone. Heartless? But who cares. It has been like that for a long time but awaits for that moment. Nobody cares. Everybody loves the kingdom where a magician is the ruler but stop short in being a king. He rules by the rule where no decree has ever been proclaimed. Why? The king is in everybody and in everything. Heart rules.

a loose belief...

It has been created for a reason or reasons. And what are those reasons? Till then it is going to be a loose belief in that something. For reasons only the marketer is aware of, the customers `unite' in the brand or brands they cherished, the supermarket they go to, the promotion they can be personally identified with, and the price that stood for their life style. Yes, in terms of personal needs and wants they are very much united. But what about values that can unite them both on earth and heaven? Is it still a loose belief?

gangguan...

Mereka yang terganggu dan diganggu. Dan mereka mengucapkan syukur kepada Allah kerana melimpahkan kurniaan kepadanya rezeki dalam pelbagai bentuk, rupa, dan juga perasaan akal dan fikiran. Tetapi masih lagi ada yang merasakan diri mereka terganggu walaupun diberi limpahan rezeki walaupun sudah seberapa berbanding dengan orang lain. Lantas mereka tidak bersatu dalam perkara basic atau dalam perkara asas dalam kehidupan. Nilai kejiranan dan ziarah diketepikan. Nilai bertegur sapa sesama ahli keluarga, kawan lama juga dipandang tidak penting. Malah terdapat bekas pelajar yang sudah mendabik dada kesombongan kerana kejayaan harta dunia yang tidak seberapa dan telah melupai tempat dan siapa mengajar mereka.

Dan yang paling menyayat ada yang telah melupai ibu bapa mereka. Mereka ini semua `bersatu'. Tetapi bersatu di atas perkara yang selama ini dirasakan merupakan gangguan yang tidak bertempat. Ada yang `bersatu teguh' kerana kemewahan harta dunia. Ada `keteguhan' kerana aspek aspek sosial, juga politik, dan tidak kurang juga kerana `budaya songsang' sesuatu dan ianya pula merupakan raja segala pengaruh dalam tindak tanduknya. Sedikit sebanyak saya juga tidak terkecuali dari gangguan gangguan tersebut. Kepada Allah saya memohon keampunan dan perjalanan yang penuh dengan kerberkatan.

Tetutup sudah...

Atau tertutup satu dengan sengaja dan tidak, maka yang satu lagi yang tidak dijangka akan terbuka. Apa itukah prinsip ilmu baik kepada kehidupan atau prinsip kepada semua benda dan perjalanan? Open to one and closes to another. And when the time comes, it closes for ever...it closes to everything..And are you prepared for that day or night?

keluarga..

Saya mengajar `marketing.' Adakala saya terasakan masyarakat di Malaysia tidak berlaku adil terhadap unsur kekeluargaan dalam hal banyak benda. Kita banyak bercakap pasal hal hal kekeluargaan. Tapi di peringkat bidang ilmu dan profesion, kita tidak memaparkannya sebagaimana sepatutnya. Gambar yang di paparkan lebih merupakan kejayaan individu dan tidak menampakkan peranan keluarga dalam menentukan kejayaan seseorang itu. Begitu juga dalam percakapan dan perbuatan.


Pemasaran merupakan bidang yang merangkum soal keluarga sehingga ke peringkat bawah dan apa jua. Itu adalah persepsi kebanyakan masyarakat barat. Kehidupan seseorang tidak sempurna jika kita membelakangkan ahli ahli dalam keluarga. Soal jual beli banyak menggambarkan kekeluargaan jika barang atau perkhidmatan itu hendak dilihat mesra dalam erti kata yang sebenarnya. Iklan dan promosi banyak berteraskan kekeluargaan. Adakah itu satu gimik?Tetapi apa yang sering tercetus di sini adalah hanya soal kemiskinan lazimnya dikaitkan dengan keluarga. Mengapa tidak dikaitkan dengan kekayaan sesorang? Ada, tapi lazimnya hanya individu tersebut yang ditonjolkan.


Baru baru ini kita dikejutkan dengan kisah pembunuhan di dalam kereta yang dikategorikan sebagai kes bunuh dan bunuh diri. Yang seorang ialah lelaki berumur 64 tahun dan seorang lagi seorang perempuan berusia 43 tahun. Terkilan juga rasanya kerana hanya selepas peristiwa begini sesorang itu dilihat dari sudut keluarga. Adakah kita berlaku adil?

Stop short...

One's life crosses another. A happy life process is then a dream. Things can fall apart even in the beginning the care is with the father and the mother. The baby is at their mercy before the individual is `thrown out' to the society to be taken care of. Make, break, or for sale? Life can be getting worse or it can become a dream comes true. Lots of power and lots of money does the good job and a process can have its completion. As with the rest, it is a stop short and cut short stories that can lead to a turmoil of untold pain and sufferings. Questions asked but the solutions can be a social, political, and economic burden. It leads to another process cycle, a short one and can be disastrous to many. And a question pops up, what does she or he wants from me? I can figure out the answer. But out of deep respect, it stops short of...

thought direction..signing out..

I have been trying to understand my thought direction for quite sometime. And I am also trying to understand others. And I am also trying to understand the `introvervism' in others and the `extroverism' in me. I am somewhat fast and quick in the interaction between in and out of my thought. But my thought direction is at best because it strikes at the source that is outside and the transference is perfect because the inside is all perfect and clear. Is that the reason as to why I have no boundary in me seeing things? It is because I have been living outside. My thoughts are outside. What about inside your mind? If it is perfect then I don't feel a thing because i can see everything. What a thought direction? Feel much happier. Signing out..