Thought and behavioural infinity...23 puasa

Bottomless pit...terapung tiada sempadan, tiada kesudahan tetapi in control. Apa dia? Macam padang pasir, atau lubok berhantu, or a place called lubok pasu, caught swirling in a place called no man's land without ownership without title, without direction, like being thrown into a state or sphere of infinity, a beautiful one.. Hendak katakan jatuh, memang ada rasanya terjatuh. Bukan proses jatuh tetapi sensasi impaknya yang ditunggu tunggu. Sakit sangat ke? Atau terlalu indah sehingga tiada perkataan dapat menggambarkanya!! Ramai yang berteriak, `rumah terbakar`, `dia berlanggar', atau `dia jumpa kawan'..kesemua ungkapan tersebut membawa sensasi `thought and behavioural infinity.' Agaknya itulah pemikiran, perasaan , dan penulisan. Dengar teriakan `you next!' sudah cukup boleh mengaktifkan perasaan infinity yang disebut tadi. Not the behavioural side of it but the infinity of thoughts that seem to have no definite destination...it keeps on going or swirling round and round, upside down, inside up.. but I keep on breathing, faintly calling for help, take my hand and pull me out from that pit of infinity...