Measurement of a year...after 2009 is 2010

It could mean anything to anybody. It all depends on the manner they have been touching the ground on earth. Some are just lost for words when celebrating the new year. Others finding themselves in a no man's time, land, and space just continuing with what they have been doing. They are just a nobody when comes to the measurement of time. So many artificiality surrounding a celebration. So many gaps being created. Do I have to celebrate?

Allah Yang Maha Besar Lagi Menguasai Segala-Galanya. Hanya Kepada Allah Saya Berserah.

Life is jigsaw puzzle...

At first it is only bits and pieces. When pieced together there comes the meaning.

Truth-seeker..

Can we find the truth about this world? It is a wild wild world you know. Each movement and sight creates a different sound and image to someone. Bayangkan, tak hujan, tak panas, tapi berpayung..I have reached a very big playing field, so to speak. No rules, no procedures, no guidelines, nothing, but you just have to toe the official line, meaning don't have to be personal and emotional. Don't look back. And don't follow those who are still behind you. They are playing on a very small field with lots of rules and not of their own. They are no truth-seeker. They are just a follower to what eventually would tie them to the tree. Image and sound. Be a truth-seeker for the perfect sound and a perfect image.

Having a fun day at Tambun..

The monkey says....
I started the joke but the joke was on me..









To the tiger, life is no joke. It is all about survival..



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ALL THE PHOTO-SHOTS ARE FROM MY SON, HADZLI HAMDAN.

Macam mana boleh hilang...?

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If you are in doubt then follow your heart..

Kita tidak sentiasa dibekalkan dengan pengetahuan yang boleh membuat kita betul menuju sasaran. Adakala kita akan jadi tidak tentu arah dan besar kemungkinan kita tidak memiliki kuasa menjangka apa yang akan terjadi. Mungkin kita belum matang atau tidak memiliki pengetahuan yang khusus berkaitan dengan masalah yang sedang dihadapi. Jadi apa patut kita buat? Ini nasihat yang saya terdengar dari TV...iF you are in doubt, then follow your heart.

The All Powerful..Yang Maha Berkuasa..

Tidak ada kuasa yang boleh melebihi Kekuasaan Allah. Fitrah hambanya tidak akan merasai kekuasaan yang diberi walaupun sedikit kerana kekuasaan manusia sepatutnya telah berpindah kembali kepada Allah Yang Maha Besar lagi Mengasihani. Jika ada orang yang mengatakan dia itu berkuasa dan merasa dirinya berkuasa, ini bererti hubungan dia dengan Allah amat rapuh sekali. Manusia mudah lupa dan sentiasa dalam keadaan riak bila mereka melebihi orang lain dengan sesuatu yang bernilai walhal kesemua itu merupakan kepunyaan Allah dan diamanahkan kepada sesiapa yang Dia kehendaki.

Banyak perkara yang berlaku semacam memporakperandakan hubungan manusia dengan kekuasaan Allah ini. Dan dalam keadaan kelam kabut beginilah ada yang telah mengambil kesempatan, baik politik, sosial, budaya, mahupun ekonomi, dengan mengatakan yang betul itu salah. Dan yang salah itu diperdiamkan sahaja. Manusia hidup dengan penuh kepuraan demi menjaga kepentingan kelompok mereka dan diri sendiri sahaja.

Walaupun begitu, ada yang tidak pernah merasai dirinya lebih dari orang lain walaupun hakikatnya tidak begitu. Ini menyebabkan hubungan mereka ini sesama manusia diperlekeh, dan disalah tafsir kehadiran mereka baik perkataan mahupun perbuatan. Mereka lupa orang yang sebegini, wadah tafsiran mereka adalah luas, halus, dan mencakup semua masa dan semua perkara. Juga mencakup soal hidup dan soal mati.

Allah Yang Maha Besar lagi Mengasihani dan Berkuasa ke atas Segala-Galanya.

Just love to say hello to everyone..

Hi, hello. Today is Sunday. It is a raining Sunday. And it gets worse in the evening. I have to cancel my plan of playing golf. Just relax and write this in my blog. Words are easy to come by when I start writing something. And with the widget linkwithin I feel what I write is worth reading. Ok till next time.

Closer and tighter..

Things can be intense and miserably wild if you are being pushed to the brink. When it gets closer, it is supposed to be a loose game. But generally it works the other way round. The closer you are the tighter would be the grip and then hell broke loose. When that happens no one is to be blamed but yourself.

Song of Lost Love...

humble beginning...

climate change

Pertama, segal-galanya baru bermula walaupun sudah menjangkau setengah abad.
Kedua, segala-galanya sudah berakhir walaupun baru menjangkau beberapa tahun. Lantas konflik akan tidak berkesudahan. Anda di kategori yang mana?
Dan ketiga, segala-galanya belum lagi bermula...

Ma'al Hijrah...Meniti perubahan..

Kata orang hidup beradat, mati berkubur. Adat pula sungguh banyak pecahannya dari perkara sekecil-kecilnya di peringkat individu, kepada adat yang sebesar-sebesarnya di peringkat perpaduan negara.

Kita bercakap pasal Ma'al Hijrah dan penghijrahan yang sepatutnya dilkakukan. Tetapi setengah adat bukan senang hendak dihapuskan. Itulah sebabnya saya menggunakan perkataan meniti. Inya menggambarkan ketelitian dan penelitian sebelum sesuatu itu hendak diubah.

Saya sudah banyak berubah. Jika diingat-ingatkan perubahan yang berlaku, semangat perubahan itu bermacam-macam. Ada yang dirancang, ada yang tidak, dan ada yang terpaksa.

Dalam konteks Islam, perubahan yang macam mana yang patut dilakukan? Sudah pasti perkara perkara yang ada kaitan dengan kebaikan diri dan kesejahteraan ummah. Juga kebaikan di dunia dan kebaikan diakhirat.

Sesungguhnya hanya Allah Sahaja Yang Mengetahui Segala Rahsia KejadianNya.

Bersama-samalah kita menghayati Ma'al Hijarah.

Membahagiakan diri...

dengan cara yang tersendiri. Ada ke shopping mall. Ada ke laut yang dalam. Dan ada yang hanya duduk di rumah tak keluar keluar. Saya pulak bagaimana? Bahagia is a very relative word you know. Bergantung kepada perkara perkara yang mana kita sendiri tidak menduga akan berada dalam keadaan perasaan yang sangat membahagiakan atau sebaliknya. Apa ye? Hari ini contohnya, dalam suasana yang agak tegang, saya ke sana kemari, bercakap ini dan bercakap itu seolah saya tidak gembira. Benarkah? Susah hendak ditafsirkan. Luaran nampaknya tidak ada masalah langsung. Tapi kalau anda berkebolehan melihat apa yang ada di dalam, tentu anda terperanjat? Mengapa? You might be seeing things you have never seen before. Happy now?

Thoughts do the walking...

Just a thought this morning..woke up from bed and the word is playing in the drain and then into the brain. When a word starts playing with me, the whole wide world starts brandishing their swords and guns either to go along or a downright rejection of what I shall be saying. Don't really know about it but need to know more despite the lack in understanding. I need an answer.

The manner we feel about movement has long been the subject of research to a lot of people in this world. The topic ranging from nothing to something. Do I feel it too? The answer is above physical and beyond physical, so to speak. Several factors that can link me to that long time question of my movement.

Much of the things that we do are very much energized by the faculty of sensationalizing. If it is all physical, like a small boy, we are surely to complain of the movement we do everyday. It is the thoughts that walks through life and not the physical part of it. Physically we are very much in the same place and in the same spot everyday. It is the thought that do the walking. And our thought can never visit a place twice. It is always a different thought of the same place. If it still does with the same thought, then life can be very boring.

How bored are you? The answer is in the word `thought sensationalizing.' It is either you have it or you don't. The older you are the chances you have more of it is greater. If you don't then it is about time you have to check into yourself and try to identify the probable cause to the stagnant mind. Bacalah.

Terjumpa dengan diriku...

Berdialog dengan diri sendiri merupakan perkara biasa bagi saya. Tanpa disedari selepas bertubi-tubi melemparkan hujah, akhirnya saya terjumpa apa yang selama ini tercari-cari rupa rupanya ada di sisi. All the thoughts that has been troubling me for the past few weeks are actually solved overnight.

Apa yang sebenarnya berlaku menyebabkan terselesainya masalah tersebut? Adakala kita bagai kan nak gila memikirkan sesuatu untuk menyelesaikan sesuatu perkara yang mana pada zahirnya susah dan sukar. Tetapi kita lupa bahawa dengan tersujudnya di tikar sembahyang menghadapi Allah Yang Maha Besar, segala lorong penyelesaian terbentang luas di hadapan. Terasa hampir dengan Allah dapat membendung segala kekusutan disebabkan terlalu mengharap kepada manusia lain untuk menyelesaikan masalah yang sedang dihadapi. Saya terlupa mereka juga tidak terkecuali dari memiliki ciri kelemahan yang merupakan fitrah dan juga membuat kesilapan. Manusia itu juga lemah dan sedang tercari cari wadah yang betul bagi mendekatkan diri dengan Allah Subahanawataalla.

Hanya kepada Allah Kita Bermohon dan Berdoa. Allah Yang Maha Besar.

Great Life...

Adakala kita tidak perlu terlalu kritis terhadap perkara perkara yang ada kaitan dengan kehidupan keseluruhannya. Kita mungkin kritis di peringkat peringkat atau tahap yang tertentu sahaja. Life in itself is great. No argument about it. And the less understood we are towards it, the greater would be the effort to realise the higher level of great life.

Kehidupan ada tahap hidup hidupnya. Ada tahap hidup yang mana kita perlu fikirkan apa orang lain fikir terhadap kita. Rasanya hendak masuk dalam badan mereka dan menengok kita dari kaca mata mereka. Ada tahap hidup yang mana ianya tidak perlu kerana perkara itu tidak hidup lagi untuk dipertikaikan.

Saya berada di tahap kehidupan yang agak berlainan sekarang. Just live my own life and minimised to the tray apa yang difikirkan atau pandangan orang lain yang masih lagi berperang untuk sampai ke tahap kehidupan rasa yang lebih tinggi.

Walaupun begitu, saya tidaklah angkuh dengan pandangan dan sikap yang menampakkan kejahilan atau ketidak matangan sesorang. Ada golongan yang cuba merendahkan orang yang kedudukan orang itu sudah tinggi dan tidak boleh diturunkan lagi kerana sebab-sebab tertentu. Malah orang yang merendahkannya itu masih berada di tahap rendah buat masa ini. Tetapi oleh kerana kejahilan dan ketidakmatangan, individu ini dengan tidak secara langsung membuka pekong di dadanya sendiri.

For once I feel I am truly independent in writing all these. Is it for myself to digest or for others? Don't really care right? Just live the feel you have been feeling all this while just because you are just experiencing a a feel of great life. Allah Yang Maha Besar dan Maha Mengetahui akan Segala Rahsia Kejadian.

Oooops...

Which side are you? Oooops...I forget I am on the other side. Don't have to take anything personal. Bygone be bygone..has been flushed into the drain. So why should I care? To know and to be informed is okay. But if your heart is at stake, then you must look again which side you are...Ooops. I might be dreaming...!

short memory..

This is what our life is all about. Decisions are being made under a very closed corridor of circumstances. Thus nothing seem to be in line with the big plan of tomorrow's happiness for all. Once I was waved by an old friend who was just being kicked out from his post. I waved back. Question is why now I am being waved at after he has lost his position and everything and not before? Why not he waved at me and talk to me when we first met when he has just being appointed in that chief executive's position? It seems he has a short memory and tend to forget the pain he has caused to others when holding a good post. Belittling others, subtle or blunt has become the trademark of those with ill-gotten money and power. He just forget he is not going anywhere with it and by an unexpected twist of events, soon he would be facing the true music of real life where death keeps watching and is ready to execute the job...

Get connected and shine...

Get connected? There must be a reason for the connection. But it is always a bad connection. You are being given with something and no one has the opportunity to have just what you got. Anger erupts in many forms and some are ugly and devil-like. Should you surrender you are the loser. Nobody wants to be a born-loser. Thrives on something bad like this would make you stronger as ever. Nothing is clean anymore. So get connected with all the ugly aspect of human existence and fight yourself to the finishing line and say to yourself I am the winner..

Being touched with new life...

Life is no accident. Purposely being made that way.Purposely being made that way for a person and for that particular person. In the darkest of night man still can see. So were in the darkest of days man can still eat and have a family. But man are no fool. Purposely being made strong so as to thwart the oncoming of evils in various forms that can turn the world upside down. Man being made strong under all sorts of conditions, weather, mind and mental where ever they are. I am made that way. And so are the others. The difference is in their physical and mental strength living under the conditions they are in. Some died an untimely death and giving way to the much stronger generation to carry on. The weak shall perished with the terrain, wind, and the seas. But some are stronger then the rest and their generation continues despite in the wake of things they are not leaders in the political and social sense of the word. They survived. Life is no accident. Purposely being made that way for a reason. Allah is Great.

Days are running fast...

..and no time to wait. Even no time to ponder and think. Just make a dash through on everything. Just a minute or two and then bulldozed into the days that are full of darkness. Don't think of sincerity. And if ever we are divided it is because honesty is not the best policy. It is a principle you carry in your wallet and when it has to be tossed away by all means spend it.

Days are running fast. Before you have the chance of catching up with everything, they are already dead. So have to run because days are running fast...

Tiap-tiap hari yang penuh debaran..

Hidup tanpa kesunyian kalau itu yang kita pinta maka itulah yang kita dapat. Kalau kita minta `perjuangan' maka hari hari adalah merupakan hari memperjuangkan sesuatu tak kiralah untuk diri sendiri atau untuk orang lain. Dan hari ini berlakulah perkara perkara yang boleh dikategorikan sebagai ganjil juga. Apa dia? Tidak perlu aku ceritakan apa, tapi sudah cukup aku katakan apa yang telah berlaku hari ini adalah perkara yang membuat aku berdebar-debar...dan malamnya aku kembali tenang...

That was yesterday...

avoid walking on the same path as yesterday..no more looking back.

finding a new platform for action and decision..

The old platform seems old and no longer functional. So on the look out for a new platform. It should well be based on the dilution of passion and direction of today's world. The eco-system must be integrated into the making of the platform. People seem restless and they too should be on the look out for a new platform. But traditions die hard. We are open but closed on a lot of conflicting things. The platform is based on the element of personal risk which can make them lose everything. So why bother to change now?

Besarnya gegaran penulisan...

Hari ini dibangkitakan satu kesedaran penulisan yang mana pengertian bercabang-cabang dan cabangnya hanya mengikut cabang selera individu itu sendiri. The basis sepatutnya sunnah dan Al-Quran, tetapi ada keadaan cabang hati dan selera merupakan rujukan utama kepada apa yang dilakukan dan sedikit sekali mengikut ajaran Al-Quran dan Sunnah Nabi Muhammad (S.A.W). Adakah mereka sebenarnya hidup bergelomang dengan darah dari hati yang busuk kerana suka menyakitkan hati manusia lain? Terdapat apa yang ditulis merupakan cetusan hati yang jahat itu. Walaupun begitu ada juga yang terbaca adalah perkara yang ada kaitan dengan hati nurani manusia. Tidak kurang juga yang tercetus adalah perkara perkara yang mengawatkan lagi kehidupan yang sememangnya sudah gawat ini. Tanpa memahami sebenarnya intipati sunnah dan Al-Quran, selagi itu perbuatan mereka adalah didasarkan oleh piagam hati yang mana besar nafsunya dan tidak bertepi pula. Persoalannya, adakah mereka membacanya?

Get used to it...

No rush and no hurry. Just play your game of what is good for today is also good for tomorrow. I am no bandit and no crook. I am a man with principles both legal and personal. Stay cool at all times. A good man can become as notorious as one can imagine and a bad man can become a person that no one can imagine who he was before. So cling to something that can make you closer to Allah and Allah is Great, the Almighty and the Powerful.

creepy, spooky...

Alone with myself and nobody is around. My blog speaks the heart of the lost soul roaming from one word to another.Does not make any sense, just a plain expression of me and the lost me. I am with nobody. Never be around somebody for so long. Ghastly wind blowing and the door is wide open inviting another lonely soul whose home was found burned somewhere in the 18th century. I did once invite a lost soul from the 17th century. All are born losers speaking the brain of a thrashed half-baked mind. And night comes, all silence, heart-gripped, creepy, spooky.

Much better now..

Much better than before. Anybody out there who thinks life has been unfair to them? Just watch my word, you are much much better than before. Want to bet?

Jangan takut...

Hanya mengingatkan diri sendiri supaya tidak mudah tunduk kepada kepalsuan pemikiran pemikiran di luar sana yang belum tentu lagi mengandungi setitikpun kebenarannya. Allah sentiasa menguji manusia dengan peristiwa peristiwa supaya terpisahnya kebenaran dan kepalsuan. Kita akan menjadi lebih tenang apabila ternyata di rasakan kebenarannya sesuatu itu. Tak semestinya yang terlihat dan terdengar itu merupakan faktor mutlak yang akan menentukan kebenaran dan kesahihan sesuatu itu. Tidak didengar dan tidak dilihatpun mungkin merupakan faktor kebenaran lebih dari yang nampak dan didengar. Mungkin apa yang dirasa merupakan penentu mutlak kepada ujian kepada kebenaran tadi.

Nah, nasi, lauk, pauk sudah terhidang kemas di atas meja. Di dengar dan sememangnya terlihat sedap. Tetapi belum dirasa. Dalam keadaan begini jangan melatah dan terus memuji akan masakan tersebut. Kehidupan penuh dengan faktor hanya lihat dan dengar sahaja. Terdengar kisah orang kaya. Terlihat orang miskin. Ternampak rumah besar. Terdengar cerita hebatnya seseorang itu. Dan banyak lagi ungkapan contoh lihat dan dengar ini. Mungkin ada benarnya dan mungkin tidak. Masih ada lagi keterlibatan diri secara langsung yang akan dapat menyimpulkan kebenaran sesuatu itu. Allah jua yang Maha Mengetahui akan Segala-galanya.

Supporting system..

Just watch. Just watch anything and anybody. It is easy to watch if something is not moving. But it is much easier to deal with something if it has no system that supports it. Know what I mean? A rich man talks with confidence and he or she fumbles if he or she is poor. Again the word poor and rich is relative to something. No matter how much money you have but with no wisdom in doing something, he might feel being left out on some occasions. Have you see someone driving a big car and presumably he is all powerful when he is on the road. The moment he is out of the car, the all powerful feeling dissipates with the natural environment. In the city area we might feel strong but what about when you find yourself in the jungle? A lot of things I want to say on this supporting system. It breeds ides and thoughts and give me new horizons of thinking. Later.

Sensing the past...

Know what I mean? Just walking through where we have been in the past, feel it, smell it. Many would say that the past is hard to remember. If you were to use the word remember then the past is difficult to recall in vivid terms as the way it has happened. It put stress to the brain if we were to remember something. These few days I am experimenting with the term sensing the past and surprisingly I could recall the five senses that was attached to the event that I have gone through in the past like it just happen yesterday.

The meaning..

Everything and everybody has meaning to their existence. Just have to think about it. The house that they live in, the car that they drive, the friends they befriend with, all spell meaning to their very life. If you are a movie maniac, the personal meaning behind the story gives you the most satisfaction. And I am sure my writing contribute to some kind of a meaning to somebody out there who has been searching for the answers to their problems. A scientist might come out with an idea by just watching the sun sets, and so are writers, a cat can trigger ideas to a box-office horror movie. So beware of what you read. You might find yourself somewhere, a place with direction that says no meaning and no return....

Setinggi ingatan sedalam perasaan..

Setinggi ingatan, sedalam perasaan, the depth of knowledge is yours to feel. Jangan takut dengan apa yang kedengaran dan dengan apa yang terlihat. Berani dan tabah dengan apa yang dirasa. Tidak ada orang dijadikan sama. Malah hari mati tidak ditentukan sama ada dia lebih muda atau lebih tua. Noktah hidup tidak akan berada di titik yang sama. Semua orang memerlukan kekuatan. Persoalannya adakah kamu telah berada di tahap ingatan yang tinggi, memiliki perasaan yang mendalam, didasari pengetahuan yang memahami? Walauapapun bersyukurlah kepada Allah yang Maha Besar lagi Mengetahui.

a perfect stranger..

that is the title of the movie at ASTRO...Thinking about it, am I a perfect stranger to myself? Searching, looking, and pondering at myself for so long, and yet I am still a perfect stranger to myself what more to others.. It is no more a physical world, all at the tips of the mind now. And mind knows not what is young and what is old or rather who is old and who is young. Everybody can be anybody and everywhere. Just keep on searching...and it is a world of mind and all the illusions of one kind or another. They speak love and they make love but are they really in love? Haha. A perfect world and a perfect stranger. It is all in everybody. Each and everyone of us has something to contribute...it is our world and everybody owns a perfect piece of something and not everything. Thus we are no friends in any way. We are just a perfect stranger to one another. And I am a perfect me, a perfect stranger in my own perfect ways...

Another day..

another evening, another night, another episode of existence and living. I am about to write something and what fear me most is what I am going to write about. It is just another day and I am not dreaming. Another day moving towards tomorrow. Tomorrow is another day with another life episode. A cry can be a smile. A smile can be a cry. A dollar can be a million. Anything can happen. You name it. What would be tomorrow like? For you and for me? Or is just a day like any other day? Strange things do happen but the occurrences are rare and not that many. As of now, I am sucked into a galaxy of a million stars. And wish tomorrow is not like any other day. It is going to be a day with one million smiles and one million ringgit...haha

Bangun dari mimpi...

Keseorangan. Tiada siapa di sekeliling. Mereka hanya menyembah diri mereka sendiri. Segala-galanya berkisar di sekeliling diri sendiri sahaja. Adakah itu lojik alam yang mana kita akan terus hidup walaupun tanpa bantuan dari orang lain? Who listens to you? They only listen with the intention of hearing them more. If ever they come to you they come with the intention of helping them more. If ever they need something they just buy. Adakah mereka ambil kisah siapa yang menjual kepada mereka? Mereka hanya kisah kalau sekiranya barang yang mereka beli itu tidak menepati gaya hidup mereka. Hidup mesti bergaya. Umumnya manusia jarang sekali berkorban untuk orang lain. Nampaknya kesedaran berkorban hanya dikejutkan oleh Hari Raya Korban sahaja. Ianya tidak merupakan amalan fikir dan amalan buat. Berkorban adalah soal kekuatan. Ramai yang bergerak hanya di sekitar alam kelemahan. Kuat tetapi takut hendak berkuat. Lantas tidak pernah kenal pun erti kekuatan. Justeru ramai yang sedang dan masih lagi tidur. Sudah sampai masanya mereka mesti bangun. Bangun dari mimpi.

mimpi..

Setiap orang bermimpi. Kita tidak mudah ingat apa yang kita mimpikan. kalau hendak ingat apa yang kita mimpikan pagi pagi lagi kena catat apa yang terjadi di dalam mimpi tersebut. Dan bercakap benarlah dengan apa yang diingati berserta dengan perasaannya sekali.

Semalam aku bermimpi berjumpa dengan pelajar pelajar perempuan yang menanyakan megapa menelipon mereka. Saya kata saya tidak menelipon mereka.Mungkin nombor mereka tergeser dan menyebabkan panggilan tersebut. Dan dari pancaran air muka, mereka nampaknya gembira dengan kesilapan tersebut dan mengharapkan aku benar benar membuat panggilan kepada mereka. Ada jugak aku berjumpa dengan seorang pelajar perempuan di bilik kuliah. Tetapi susana pertemuan tidak di IPTA tapi lebih menggambarkan suasana di sekolah menengah aku dahulu. Di saat aku menulis ini aku tidak tahu mengapa dia mesti aku jumpai dan di sekolah lama pulak.

Juga ternampak ratusan kereta berbagai jenama yang mana keadaan parkingnya sungguh teratur, padat, dan menghalang. Tidak mungkin satu satu kereta yang mana parkingnya di sebelah dalam dapat keluar. Mereka perlu berkerjasama pagi pagi lagi supaya semua kereta tersebut dapat dikeluarkan dari parking yang padat, teratur tapi menghalang itu.

Itulah mimpi malam tadi yang dapat aku ingat. Mesejnya apa? Boleh dirumuskan dari perasaan dan benda yang tercetus dari mimpi tersebut. Apa dia? Adakah mimpi itu merupakan satu `body language' yang mencerminkan siapa aku sebenarnya? Adakah aku seorang yang disukai? Adakah aku seorang yang berdisiplin? Adakah aku sombong? Adakah aku seorang yang tidak suka kepada suasana kerumitan? Whatever it is all a dream.

Fikrah dan Fitrah

Fikrah itu fikir, fikir untuk semua orang. Fitrah itu menyerah, menyerah kepada nafsu sendiri. Kedua dua perkara itu dah menjadi berlawanan pula. Tidak. Kita bermula dengan fitrah. Tapi proses perbuatan, keputusan dan dimensi kehidupan yang lain adalah didasarkan kepada usaha fikrah. Kalau tidak manusia tidak dapat hidup beramai dengan amannya. Tanpa fikir dan belajar dua insan akan melakukan persetubuhan maka keluarlah anak ke dunia ini. Melakukan persetubuhan adalah fitrah. Kita tidak dapat lari dan terpaksa menyerah kepada nafsu. Tapi perkahwinan merupakan dimensi fikrah. Membesarkan anak tersebut dengan pendidikan yang baik dan menjadi dia seorang manusia yang boleh menolong orang lain pula adalah persoalan fikrah. Justeru kalau kita asyik dengan fitrah semata mata tak jadi jugak. Kita kena belajar supaya pendidikan yang akan diberi kepada anak merupakan pengetahuan yang telah terbukti jayanya.

Dalam pemasaran pula, fitrah itu adalah `needs' dan fikrah itu adalah `wants.' Dengan mengenal sistem ecologi sesuatu tempat, maka terkeluarlah barang-barang dan perkhidmatan yang bersesuaian dengan penduduk setempat. Jadi betullah kata orang orang tua, ikut hati mati, ikut rasa binasa, dan ikut nafsu lesu. Fitrah dengan dibendung oleh fikrah maka terselamat umat dari malapetaka yang menimpa.

Nabi Ibrahim berkorban kerana Allah yang Maha Besar lagi Mengetahui. Fitrah manusia tidak akan menyembelih anak tetapi dengan fikrah maka Nabi Ibrahim menurut Perintah Allah Subahanawataala. Kerana apa? Kerana nilai berkorban untuk orang lain adalah nilai yang dapat membahagiakan ummah keseluruhannya. Fkirah memerlukan disiplin yang amat tinggi. Dan hasilnya membahagiakan semua.

Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya AidilAdha.

How serious are you...

Serious as in doing something...should we or should we not be that serious lest the fun is gone. Or must there be no fun at all or it is all fun? Tangible versus intangible. We cannot see the degree of seriousness on what we are doing. We sometimes make a blunder of the things that we do and the unfortunate happens. People get sick just by being so serious in their job. Politicians, they talk so much and in the end they are the one who suffers. To others, they are so serious in the relationship and when one of them dies, the partner just cannot being perfect anymore and life after that is hell. So how serious are you with what you say or don't say? Should we just let mistakes go by without really thinking of correcting it? I don't know. If I am not serious about it then why should I care? Do you?

We still have distance..Kita masih lagi berjauhan..

Adakah itu fitrah jika kita mengingini sesuatu itu tidak berjauhan? Atau kita mesti mempunyai sesuatu fikrah untuk berdekatan? Fitrah dalaman sentiasa menanya dan fikrahnya kita sentiasa beroleh jawapan. Lantas hanya dengan fikrah satu hari nanti kita akan dapat melenyapkan halangan halangan dan tersatulah seluruh kelompok manusia diseluruh dunia. Selagi fikrah kita tidak di baja subur, masih dibiarkan merangkak di bawah, dunia akan terus menyaksikan kepentingan fitrah diri menguasai kehidupan. Antaranya fitrah manusia suka melayani emosi bunuh membunuh lantas undang undang rimba dikekalkan. Mereka ada PBB, hakikatnya PBB juga menghalalkan bunuh membunuh antara satu sama lain. Fitrah berhibur kehingga pagi telah menjadi amalan dan dibudayakan. Fikrah menganggapnya sebagai satu kebodohan dan kesombongan manusia kerana ianya merosakkan. Fikrah manusia sepatutnya mengharamkan perang, tetapi fitrah diri pula menghalalkan bukan sahaja perang tetapi perkara perkara yang tidak diterima oleh akal tetapi diterima juga kerana fitrah nafsu dan keinginan rasa yang mengharamkan sebarang bentuk kawalan. Dan ada yang memberi alasan kerana ia mengalakkan aktiviti ekonomi. Lantas saya akan menanya, adakah penulisan saya ini hasilan dari fikrah atau fitrah?

Of age and wisdom..

Some stupid things we did but don't realised it sooner can make life miserable. Those at a younger age seems not to be holistic in their opinions and viewpoints. What's worst their decisions and actions would make our beloved country lag behind in everything. Being holistic meaning looking after things from insensitivity to creativity to infinity. But to those at the younger age bracket, their ego are a sad phenomenal for the sufferings caused are sure to be felt by the whole community and society.By chance or happen to be there are a common social approach and remark when doing things. As a result what they have been doing and producing won't last for long because `the products they produce have no taker except among those with only of their youthful imagination.' Their planning has no thrust and not forceful enough that can touch millions of imagination regardless of the age, wisdom, maturity, and insensitivity. But that is the reality. Or does it only exists in my fantasy? By the way, how old are you?

Unezee..

Just would like to say nothing. Staring at the cloudy sky. It rains everyday and everywhere. Feel uneasy. Does not feel like doing anything today. So many things that just do not goes well with me anymore. I have to be brave in facing things to come. It is not the individuals or people that I am against. I just don't know. Individuals come and go. But not the organisation. It must remain forever strong and heartless and cruel if that is the way it should be. Survival of the fittest, so to speak my free mind. As for me, the stance should be cruel and at par with the spirit of the organization you work with. If all the indications, actions, and reactions, are void of good heart and love, so must be you, as cruel as you can be and be combatant in order to safeguard your well being physical and mental. Feel unezee? Not anymore.

Opportunities abundance....

The man-made system has never been kind to us. Opportunities abundance. But the poor is getting poorer. And the richer is getting richer. Opportunities are abundance and are enough for everybody. Why the inequitable distribution? We are the victim of our own economic theories. So to speak my free mind. We are not created to bow to economic theories. It is the theories in everybody and our existence that can made the theories in economics irrelevance. But we succumb to the idea that we can do nothing if the economic situation does not permit. What nonsense. In us are the strength of 10 elephants in terms of physical. In us too are the strength that can penetrate the whole universe in terms of brain and mental strength. But perception has been accepted for a fact and lots more of things in this world that seem to be in the hands of the few. And they are the ones who make things difficult. In the name of politics and lots more label being given just stopping us from being nearer to opportunities which are abundance. Then, what is stopping you?

Elusive word of happiness

Happiness is a word that can be regarded as very hollow, elusive, and in certain situation, mystical. Look at this statement on happiness: in anticipation of love, happiness, and death. To the pharaohs, happiness might take the form of a pyramid. Can we conclude that the shape of pyramid is happiness? The pyramid is the symbol of happiness to the population of Egypt at that time, and it contributes to their happiness despite the hardship they have to face in constructing it. In the same breadth, have you ever wonder what does happiness mean to our Dr Mahathir Mohammad? Is it in the buildings or the people?

Today it is all work and reward. The more money you have, the happier you would become. Well, not so. Theories after theories has been developed and written on why people go to work. Hertzberg, McClleland, and Maslow were obsessed with the theories and their work has become references in all management courses. Money is a basic requirement and everyone can have it by just doing something for somebody.

Happiness is a relative word to the wage earner. Why not? Knowing his skills and qualification , $500 can trigger happiness of a kind compare to another individual with an expensive taste of everything. Stare at a friend's face and you would find all the three elements in love, happiness, and death. Everybody and everyday, they are always in anticipation of love, happiness, and death. As for me happiness should be seen as being contented with what you have worked for and at the same time hoping and working for the betterment of tomorrow. Again it is elusive, hollow, mystical, and religious. And as for the benchmark I have set, I am nowhere near it. What about you?

here comes the new superpower - the internet

Little did we know about power in the true sense of the word. But we do know about the power of writing. Newspaper is the traditional medium to wield power of leaders among followers of certain parties. John F. Kennedy makes another medium more powerful than radio and newspapers. It is the TV. Then comes another man who makes another medium a powerful tool to disseminate information and at the same time persuading. He is none other than Barrack Obama, the first black President of USA. He uses the cyberspace and the internet to influence. And now our prime minister, Najib is following his footsteps with his Facebook. And today I am asking myself about myself. I am a non partisan type of person and I hate hatred that can cause unnecessary divisions in the society especially those who are closed to your very existence. What should I do in order to disseminate information that can cause a lasting peace in everything? The internet - the new superpower that is super, fast, quick, and timeless.

Mengugurkan tulang-tulang krangka lepas..

Tidak bisa lagi dibelenggu dengan peraturan setempat yang membelit diri. Kena membiasakan baik mental mahupun fizikal supaya diri bebas dari segala bentuk kebelengguan yang penuh dengan kepuraan. Tidak ada lagi ikatan kepada sesiapa yang mana tujuannya tiada lain melainkan mengikat kemas kepada masa, semalam, silam, lampau, dan yang lepas. Tidak perlu lagi menyambut senyuman yang merupakan ikatan kepada kerja yang hanya tujuannya mengampu dan melegakan diri orang lain sahaja. Perlu mencari krangka kehidupan mental yang baru bebas dari kebelengguan kehidupan yang meminta dan penuh berharap. Satu persatu tulang krangka lama akan diganti dengan yang baru. Dan sudah pasti arahnya merupakan jalan yang baru dan lebih membahagiakan.

A taste of intelligence...

Have I ever tasted it? And what are the characteristics of intelligence? It cannot be defined. It is indefinite. It is hollow. It is neither been very bright and it has never been very dull. It makes no sound but it moves. It is there and the moment you are in need of it, it is gone. Therefore everything constitutes an intelligence.It includes people, individuals, and things. But with an exception. It is all love and no hate. It is all smile and no cry. Only a shed of tears. And it is all happiness. Immortality. It is stateless. It is heavenly.

Color Blind..

The colour within..is reflected by the choice of colours almost of everything from minute one in the morning to the last minute before going to bed. Haha. Colours can be extremely melancholy in some cases and can become very innocently strange in certain choices. Can be very brave and can be very timid. As one gets older the choice tends either to be wild or timid.. The two does not mix. Are there secrets in the choice of colours? Psychologist say yes. And a designer of anything says colour can make you go blind. Does that mean colour blind?

Landskap dan terrain kehidupan...

Tengok segala-galanya dalam konteks landskap. Jutaan atau ribuan landskap sesorang itu terpaksa lalui dan terbinalah dia sebagai seorang insan yang mendiami dunia ini hari ini di saat ini. Sangat bersendiran apabila di jengok dalam konteks landskap pemikiran sehinggalah dia berjaya memikirkan sesuatu yang mana orang lain tidak berupaya memikirkanya. Bila difikirkan kesemuanya itu terfikir juga akan diri aku yang mana tiada seorang pun yang tahu apa yang telah aku lalui. Nobody knows me and I am all alone in this world. Menakutkan tapi selepas mengenali landskap dan terrain kehidupan yang telah dan akan dilalui, datang satu macam keberanian yang belum pernah dirasai sebelum ini. Apa saya sudah sampaikah di puncak? Atau terkapai kapai menunggu sesuatu yang akan membawa saya ke terrain kehidupan yang masih sedang dicari cari? Sememangnya masih ada benda dan perkara yang masih dan belum difahami. Aku masih lagi berada di terrain landskap yang memerlukan ketabahan dan kesabaran bagi mendapatkan jawapan. Persoalannya bilakah rentasan ini akan berakhir di mana boleh aku ungkapkan kata kata yang berupa kejayaan yang abadi?

Faces of life..

It is different from day to day. I am different. So are everybody. Considering the different landscape and terrain of life we live, each and everyone of us can never be the same person everyday. But they are persons who expect us to be the same person 24 hours a day. Can we? I have my landscape and terrain to overcome lest I would fall into an infinity of regrets, sobs, and sorrow. It is not your sobs, it is not your regret, and it is not your sorrow. It is all mine. So I have to write because it is part of my mental terrain that I have yet to know the secrets. That is life. That is one facet of life. There are other facets on the other side of the terrain. I want to be there. Would I? InsyaAllah.

tactical and strategy..

Vision and mission...all are in a mess.But tactical and strategy do makes sense. Vision and mission are too good to be true. It is a small world control by the big corporations. As for the small men and small companies, live not by the mission and vision but by tactics and strategies. It is meant for the small world and small companies. We cannot fight the cruel world control by the super companies and super countries and all along with their super visions, super missions, super divisions, and super products, and the so called super taste. Go to hell with their super gates of visions, missions and segmentation that makes poorer countries poorer by the day. They are making tons of money and profit. And as for the distribution, is it equitable? We too can make money and profit and at the same time we are on our way to heaven. How? With tactics and strategies. It is the small roads and the path mark that shall be the focus. What matters is the final destination which is the now wish. The essence of the plan and programme is to downgrade when but upgrade how and what, and why. When? It is always now or never..!

Continuity...

What is in store in the days ahead? The night and day continues and so are existence and the planet earth. But when comes to oneself, the word continues would continue to haunt all living things. At one moment of their life, they have to stop and ponder on things that can discontinue the work they have been doing. In other words they would stop living. But aside death, what about in the interruption of what seem to have a beautiful continuity from day to another day? Continuity and form, continuity and life quality, and today I found that everybody makes everybody as a source of indefinite continuity if they can. The call from my former student gives me a tremendous boost to continuity of things that seem to be forgotten. Life is blessed with the continuity in spirit and not so much in a physical form. Continuity in thoughts...And so the stories continue...

Human rights..

Human rights? Never have been asked on anything on human rights. Not by anybody thus far. Why? Is it so big a topic and meant for lawyers and law to discuss it? We are all human. But are we being made to understand our rights? Cultural suppression is common among most societies not to question their rights. I know I have all the rights. But who like to listen to what I am going to say? I am not a member of the parliament. So what do you know about rights? Human rights are synonym with the UN. In their eyes we are just nothing in terms of human rights. So don't talk about rights if the term itself is confusing.

Opinions and viewpoints..

So many of it. Everybody wants to say something. Everybody is not tied to say something. Are we sure of anything? Nothing is certain about life. Uncertainty regarding a step taken. So many books written. We talk and walk everyday. We gather here today to give ideas on what is good and what is bad. Or I am good and you are bad. Or I am right and you are wrong. Questions asked but no answers. Bad guys good guys. Who cares? Everybody is unsure of direction to take. North? South? East? West? USA? Canada? Australia? European countries? Or China? Why not Indonesia and Malaysia? Many are on the move in search of their dreamland. Opinions and viewpoints. Some are with no basis of the things said. The danger is from those with no knowledge connection. The basis and the connection is the conflict within and being overpowered by only destructive emotions. It is a world of total darkness. Not that they do not read, but the emotions are stronger and tend to make them calculative of steps taken. Money is a rare thing to them. They might kill to their last breadth and in the defense of their lust for something they have never got before. Opinions and viewpoints. Yes they listen. They listen well, they smile and friendly in posture, but all in the name of self interest. Bad politics? Stab in the back. Who cares? So care to continue with my viewpoints? Any opinions?

A process...

Tak dapat lari dari pemprosesan kehidupan. Jahat jadi baik. Jauh jadi dekat. Tak boleh jadi boleh. Benci jadi sayang. Rupa lain dan wajah pun dah tidak sama. Ini adalah hasilan dari pergerakan dalam segala-galanya. Perubahan dalam makanan. Perubahan pada darah. Perubahan di luar dan di dalam. Jangan disebut sekitaran. Semuanya bergerak dan berlaku perubahan. Juga berlaku perubahan persepsi. Dan akhirnya perubahan kepada pemikiran. Wajahnya sekarang berseri seri. Apakah proses kehidupan yang dia lalui menyebabkan terjadinya demikian? Aku nampak kematangan di depan ku. Tidak datang secara mendadak. Tidak datang secara tiba-tiba. Kesemuanya adalah merupakan hukum kejadian sangat tertakluk kepada campuran dan pemperosesan. Aku dan dia. Akrab. Erat. Rapat. Menyenangkan. Satu keajaiban? Tidak. Pemperosesan. A process.

What a day for the entrepreneural..!

Two categories of individuals. One, who would say why wait? He believes in them are the solutions to the problems at hand.The other is the one who is hoping for the day when the problems would eventually be solved or someone would solve for them. They have been waiting for so long and hope for the day when the problems would be solved by it self and with little effort. Which type of person do you belong to? I have been a lecturer for quite some time now. And it is a rare sight to see individuals of the first category meaning not that many are a strong believer in himself. Many wait for the solutions to fall from the sky. Culturally two nations can be world apart in inventions and in resourcefulness. I have been to USA and I found that the people there are being categorised as hard working and high achiever. So are the Japanese. Success is generally seen as self-starts and self-generated. Unfortunately there are cultures which sees success as the work of rituals and still trust in witchcraft and magic. Haha. Don't believe I am writing all these. What a day..! And for the entrepreneurial , wishing you all the best..!

I have been thinking..

of something. Seems to think only on few things. Not that many things in my mind. Just a run through of the thoughts. Hell of a mess with some of the thoughts. For fun or just a busybody? Or just running away from the terrain of the ordinary? Extraordinary piece la. Lain daripada yang lain. Haha. Just give few things to concentrate on. Look around. Are that many things to ponder? No nothing. Not now. Just looking for something, love to write and experimenting with some of the expressions. I have been thinking. Thinking? Thinking of what?

Boleh je...

Gitulah..!Mesti positif. Jangan kata tak boleh. Ada orang yang suka kata`aku je..' Jangan dik, jangan begitu. Hidup ni tak boleh malas. Kalau ada peluang nak tolong orang, jangan tunggu tunggu, tolong je..Kalau ada yang nak pinjam duit..beri je..Haha. Pasal duit kena fikir banyak kali. Kalau sebut pasal duit, ada je nak datang meminjam. Ada je alasan yang diberi. Inilah. Itulah. Jadi apa yang patut kita buat dalam menghadapi semua ini. Nak tunggu je? Atau buat tak tahu je..? Haha. Jangan. Sebut `boleh je..'

effective and efficient..

Tak tahu nak cakap. Kita ini efficient ke atau effective sekali. Di jengok dari sudut dunia keseluruhannya, kesan dari perbuatan manusia sangat mendukacitakan sekali. Sungai tidak mengalir, udara penuh dengan debu dan asap yang mengandungi racun, longkang penuh dengan sampah sarap, dan banyak lagi perkara perkara yang mendebarkan dada para aktivist `efficient dan effective.' Kita ada `green peace' dalam usaha supaya kita lebih berhati hati menggunakan sumber alam. Dan banyak lagi aktivist aktivist yang mempunyai tujuan yang sama. Berjayakah mereka? Sebenarnya dunia kita sangat senang dihinggap penyakit. Penyakit ini pula boleh dikategorikan kepada dua. Penyakit hati dan penyakit badan. Kalau penyakit badan bolehlah kita ke hospital untuk menerima rawatan. Kalau hati sudah berpenyakit kesannya sangat menyedihkan sekali. Tengok gambar yang dipaparkan di posting ini. Ini adalah merupakan penyakit yang boleh buat orang lain sengsara. Kalau hendak ditambah pasal penyakit bolehlah dilabel sebagai penyakit penyakit berikut: penyakit orang banyak duit; penyakit orang banyak kuasa; penyakit orang terlalu glamor; penyakit orang banyak saham. Itu yang berada. Tidak terkecuali juga penyakit orang yang tidak berada seperti: penyakit orang miskin; penyakit orang kurang duit; penyakit orang tidak ada kuasa dan banyak lagi jenis jenis penyakit. Lantas apabila kita dihinggap penyakit persoalannya adakah kita akan bertindak `efficient dan effective?'

It is a matter of principle...

But what constitute a principle? Anything ranging from culture, religion to something social and personal. The principle can be a `birth-right', 'family-right' and on a large scale `societal-right.' Organization does not have principles, they have policies and procedure. If it runs parallel with our principles, then we would work with the organization a little bit longer, committed and harder. That is the reason why principle varies from one person to another. It is just like perception. We acquired it through time. In fact I can categorically say that perception of someone has to do with principles of his or her. If I were to favour someone, love someone, or committed to something or somebody for no obvious reason (no consideration), is it a matter of perception or it is a matter of principle?

Ada yang sangat berstrategi...

Mereka ini suka mengena orang lain atau kata lurusnya suka menipu orang lain dan menyebabkan mereka akan ketawa selepas berjaya melakukannya. Saya serious dengan pandangan saya ini. Kalau dalam hal pemasaran berstrategi ini adalah perkara baik. Itu pun setelah mengambil kira akan kepelbagaian dalam sekitaran. Ini kerana kita kena membuat pemilihan yang paling baik untuk diri kita dan dalam proses itu kelompok lain akan dapat menafaatnya. Tak apalah.Tentu kena berstrategikan? Tetapi ada strategi yang menyakitkan hati orang lain, dan mereka ketawa besar kerana berjaya membuat orang lain sakit dan menderita. Manusia apa ini? Walaubagaimanapun mereka tetap merupakan sebahagian dari kehidupan. Mereka dah begitu. Nak buat apat? Bolehkah mereka diubah?

Mengapa saya tidak begitu...

Saya sebenarnya takut akan kenyataan yang sedemikian rupa. Ianya membuat saya berperasaan sebagai sebatang kara di kehidupan ini. Mengapa? Kerana saya tidak ada kawan yang boleh berbicara. Tidak ada manusia lain seperti saya. Agaknya kita sememangnya dijadikan begitu. Tidak ada sesiapa yang menyerupai kita dalam banyak hal. Contohnya, saya sangat memiliki hati yang lembut dalam melihat alam luaran dan mencetuskan ayat demi ayat dalam menceritakan apa yang dilihat itu. Saya tidak akan berhenti menulis melainkan saya akan memberhentikannya. Adakah anda begitu? Tentu tidak. Semua orang dijadikan berbeza. Ada yang memandang keras terhadap apa yang dilihatnya. Ada yang keras diluar dan keras di dalam. Ada yang senang hati berkata kata tetapi mulut payah berbicara. Mengapa saya tidak begitu? Tulisan saya seterusnya akan menyingkap dan akan cuba menjangkau jauh ke alam (luar dan dalam) yang penuh dengan misteri ini.. Boleh tak? Mengapa tidak. Ini kerana semua orang tidak begitu. Kan seronok kalau kita menulis akan perkara yang mana kita tahu tetapi orang lain tidak. Dengan harapan dalam mengupas hal luar dan dalam ini saya akan dapat jawapan kepada soalan, mengapa saya tidak begitu...

Tense and tension...

Why put oneself in a a tense situation? Allah is Great. How Great is Allah? Allah is Great. Allah gives and Allah takes. Thanks to Allah if you can feel the Greatness of Allah in what you see, in what you touch, in what you eat, in what you hear and in the scientific inventions that can ease the tensions in the use of the five senses. But to some they have to go further and beyond the five senses and what generally being considered are not so easy to digest and understood. The realm of one's thought are the domain of one's own private life and personality. There are thoughts which are meant for the good of many. The conflict arises when one's own private thought in the sixth and the seventh (?) sense are extended to the public and indirectly force upon others to see them as the chosen one. Life is full of mystery. So many things in life are not easy to comprehend in the way we want it personally to be understood. Let the mystery remains. Allah is Great and the mystery would not remain a mystery for long until the tense and the tension are being understood in the manner that spells and speaks of Allah is Great, the Almighty and the Knows All.

Choose to be strong..

We are the chosen one. We must choose to be strong. Is there a choice? Definitely not. Security is not in the fence and the sophisticated security system. Not in the missiles and not in the nuclear weapon. The more we have those weapons and gadgets to defend us, the more insecure and tense we would become. We choose to be strong. The strength is in us, mentally and physically. We choose to be together in terms of spirit and being in harmony with others and nature. The strength is in the economy system. It is not found in the political and defense system. It only assists the strengthening of the economic system. And the strength of the economic system comes from us working together in harmony without fighting with one another for no apparent and acceptable reasons. So in togetherness we choose to be strong. And we have no other choices.

Why do we smile..?

Want to know why? Similing is an act of adaptation. Animals don't smile because they have no problem with adaptation. We smile because we have a serious problem with adaptation. We smile a lot when we are with friends. Money can makes us smile. But not for long. Smile is an heart felt act of human being to another. When we are far away from home we smile less. The discomfort of a place indicates that we are not that adaptive. It is not the place but the people. Fear is a serious act of wanting to run away from an `enemy.' Instead,we cry. Some says of fear as if we are very emotional with something or with somebody. But why the smile? This is because life has been solitary and without a friend and a smile we are just lost in our own small world. So smile my friend to another and make today his or her day! And you know what? Yesterday I dreamt of someone and she makes me smile. Hoho haha.

The earlier feel is the hardest to erase...

Anything and anything at all, apparently the earlier feel has a control on the perception. It is hard to assess the depth, the width and the breadth of the effect, but it is just there. On the basis of earlier feel,the whole wide world is just a small world. My own small world of personal values, culture, and social. There is no such thing as border destruct that can allow us to have a free hand on everything. We are just motionless and in some situation helpless and at the mercy of the earlier impression created by experiences during birth and childhood. And at this point of my life I am still arguing about the way I see and feel things. Despite that, whoever I am, is it just a continuity or an extension of that earlier feel of mine?

Influence..

I was awake when the word influence bothers me to the bones. That day I was confronted with a situation where I was told to do something. So subtle and I don't give a damn to what has been said till I was all alone by myself that night. I begin to question the spirit of the `advice.' Is he sincere in the things said? At no other moment he cares but why now? In respect to this, the influence has to be scrutinized because it lacks details what more a direction. It is being given with no clear direction being laid out. The advice is very much one-sided, one way, and lacks of mutual understanding of one another. He does not understand me. He only understand himself. It is an influence but an influence that justified nothing. Should I care and follow his advice? All things has an element of influence. But which one can be construed as to be near to truth and nothing but only the truth? Know what I mean? Listen to the radio, watch TV, and read the newspapers. All are considered as medium to influence. The factor of influence are well planned in order to make you a believer of what has been said. Know what I mean? haha. Am I here to influence?

closes to one's heart...where is the smile?

Closest to one's heart. What is it? Don't really know what. Love to see the world moves in tandem with one's heart. Right now I am just delighted with what has happened. How come? Don't have the answer to that. I am what I am. Haha. The world tends to share the feeling of yours at this very minute. Just love to write something nonsense and the world is seen as nonsense too. Even the presidents and the prime ministers are seen as having fun with their round of daily activities despite the no nonsense attitude of certain people. In no certain terms, it is quite hard to predict what is going to happen tomorrow. Things can turn sour without any warning. But I am always positive with things to come. Why? This is because I do things that are only close to my heart. And heart sees and says the truth. Is that what everybody wants? Haha.

How to become a millionaire..

It has a positive impact. It is a turn on. Everybody wants to know about it. Easy said and its easy to be a millionaire! I have never said it. Why? It is none other not believing in myself. No! This is because I am not selling anything. If you want to become a millionaire you must have something to sell. That has been the negative part of me all along. I write but why not at the same time I sell something. So as of today think of something you can sell. Anybody out there who can help me with something that I can sell?

THE ENTREPRENEUR

The Reconciliation..

The quick, the fast, and the slow. The ups and the downs. The thick and the thin. Being cheated and being trapped. The planning and the impulse. The convenience and the unsought. The money and the charity. The giver and the taker. The beauty and the queen. The queen and the king. Friends are found to be a foe. An organization that sees nothing but power and selfishness. The frail and the country of the blind. The fakir and the wealthy. The royal and the people. The president and the third world countries. The prisoner and the junta. A step forward is a step backward. At odd with something and somebody. The women and the lover. The husband and the wife. The father sees all and the mother loves all. And the brothers creates havoc of 5.6 Richter scale. Love life and love death. Knows not and hears not. But has to be there somehow. Need to reconcile at some point. Have to do some thinking. Have to stay back and do the reconciliation.

Away from the pharoahs...

Dimensional life is possible these days. With knowledge we can travel far and wide into any land we wish to be. Just a thought away and why not a stop by at a dwelling whose curse was none other than that of the pharoah. Just imagine a tide of thought going back to the dark ages of the mind of yesterday. So big, gigantic, and powerful the phraoh is, being revered by the people without really questioning the possibilities of seeing the day break of tomorrow. Life was just seen as death and it is just any second away. The land belongs to the phroah and when you are summoned to build a pyramid it means you are being given the honour to be part of the royal death of the phroah and their wealth, any time and any day. This day, today, at this dwelling, a mother is witnessing the curse of the phroah entering the body of her very sick son just because he chosed to be away from the pharoah. To the people the curse is real. An honour awarded and it must be taken. It is an award from the palace. No one can refuse and no one can find himself or herself away from the pharoah. For if it does, it spells nothing but sorrow and death. Haha. Luckily we were born in the 20th century and have seen the day break of the 21st century! Can we be away from anything?

Lost In the wilderness..

Lost as in lost? Yes. I am asking you that question. Are you lost? Well, I have been walking for quite sometime now and I am not really sure whether I have reached my destination or not. Day and night, it changes everyday, and I have seen a lot of things in the days and in the nights. Good things, bad things, and the devils. I have been to somewhere and everywhere. But what actually do I see? Today, and today I look around and find that everybody seems to be just like me. They too are walking to somewhere. Is it somewhere or anywhere? Some stop upon seeing each other and exchange occurs in the form of just talking or just concentrating on the so-called games they played with each other. Back home I do some kind of a watching at others on what they called as TV screen. It depicts life that seem to be so dramatic in their seeking of what they called happiness. Am I experiencing the same kind of drama in seeking happiness? Happiness is a continuity in things we experience everyday. What makes happiness continues to the next day, next year and thus the next chapter is the principles we hold tenanciuously and would not have it traded for anything. Not for a million bucks, so to speak. But in the process of walking, we are so easily tired and thus we can easily be cheated with a scenario of promised land of happiness. Principles are principles. It is a bridge to the next episode of happy life. But unfortunately many do not realized that a short term pleasure is an act of burning the bridge to the next shore of happiness. Losing the next shore meaning putting oneself in the wilderness of time and place that promised nothing but torture and torment. I am asking you. Are you tired? Me tired? Not me. What about you?

The feel, the smile, and the secret in faces..

The first instance I look at someone it tells me a thousand stories. It tells me the story of that particular person from start to finish. A peculiar smile that says he or she is as strong as the great wall of China. But there is a smile that make me wonder of what he or she is up to. Neither innocent nor cynical, but sheer staring at something that is not there. A face that keeps a thousand secrets and if you dare that kind of person can easily be conquered and persuaded. Haha. Enough of faces, secrets, and feel. Time to move on and stop this nonsense. Nonsense? Well you can make a fortune if you can tell someone by just looking at the face and the smiles. But what about if the face is all smile and no face? Meaning muka tak malu lah.Hehe.

Life has always been a mystery..

No matter where you turned to for help, answers are not easy to come by. Life is as serious as death. But till the end of his life he is still behaving as though life is without the final chapter. I have an experience with a man who in his life time never really like me. Avoidance is the right word when I see him coming my way. Now he is already dead. One month or two months before he died, I still see him as a man whom harbours a kind of an old and ill feeling towards me. The funny thing is that I am still carrying that perception even to the day he died. Am I the one who does not change or he is? Someone who is going to die in two months surely would discard his bad habits and thoughts on others. Did he? Don't really know the answer. Life is a combination of many things and many people. We have no other place to go except the mother earth. But why the weird things that have come in our way? There are instances our actions and views are inappropriately imposed on us and others for no clear reasons. Well, life has and always been a mystery.

My own doing, making, and marking?

Very little of things created are of man's own doing, making, and marking. Much of it are caused by group's own doing,making, and marking. As an individual, they are definitely not the sole maker of what he thinks he makes. You as an individual can disown things but not the group. But sometimes you can sense the selfishness in a person in wanting to leave his or her mark of doing, making, and thus the marking. Despite their selfish effort, again much of the marking, and making are group generated effort. Thus we cannot fight the wave of change that can creates ripples and havoc, and tsunami everywhere on earth and beyond earth into the galaxies of stars and other planets. Thus the doing, the making, and the marks everywhere, who creates it and who owns it?

Sense of neutrality...

Writing and experience are world apart. The word experience has a lot of connotation ranging from physical to mental experience. Whatever. It denotes something that is not static but always on the move or on the run. And all this time I am writing as a fugitive. Not now and not anymore. Do I write with somebody or something in mind? Do I? But what and who? In reality it is for no one except me. So no need on my part to be so concerned who would be my readers. That sense of neutrality must be felt from within when writing something. I am just on my own running errand to my own thought. Sense of neutrality is the catalyst to what I am thinking about. Associate with no one and I am as free as the wind. While writing my thoughts, the association could be as innocent as the cat that is meowing for food. Or just pondering on nothing but something. Am I losing my mind? Certainly not! I am just experimenting with something that is strictly yourself. I am just that man with that sense of neutrality. Something foolish but it is great and very satisfying.

Terlepas pandang atau buat apa pandang...

Dalam semangat baik dan muhibbah kita katakan terlepas pandang. Tapi dalam nada kesal dan menyampah mereka kata buat apa pandang. Orang kaya menggangap orang miskin itu tidak berguna maka terlepaslah kata kata seperti buat apa pandang, tak mendatangkan faedah. Itu sebelum pilihanraya mungkin. Tapi bila pilihanraya tiba, maka terdengar kata kata `kami tidak lagi terlepas pandang akan perkara perkara bersabit kemiskinan rakyat.' Hendak menyedapkan lagi cerita, orang filem pulak berkata `jangan pandang belakang.' Inilah dunia yang dipenuhi dengan wabak wabak lakonan yang tidak telus dan tidak lurus. Hidup tetap hidup. Perjuangan tetap perjuangan. Kita kena pandang masa depan. haha.

Jet peribadi selebriti..

Lakonan mereka memenuhi keperluan penonton seluruh dunia. Ini bererti setiap kita menyumbang kepada kekayaan mereka. Dengan infrastruktur ekonomi dan lain-lain yang sudah terbina dengan rapinya di Amerika, industri hiburan dan perfileman mereka juga telah berjaya menguasai pasaran seluruh dunia. Lantas termiliklah jet peribadi seperti paparan gambar John Travolta dan artis artis lain yang mana cerita mereka dimuatkan dalam surat khabar perdana kita Utusan Malaysia. Mungkin tidak adil jika kita membandingkan kekayaan mereka dengan selebriti kita di Malaysia. Infrastruktur pemasaran dan ekonomi kita masih lagi daif dan tambahan pula lakonan artis kita tidak berjaya menembusi pasaran walaupun di tenggara asia. Malang sekali atau sememangnya dah begitu lakaran hidup yang terdapat di Asia Tenggara ini termasuk di Malaysia. Indonesia memiliki penduduk seramai 237 juta sama ramainya dengan Amerika Syarikat (308 juta) tetapi juga mundur dan terkebelakang. Kerana apa? Kerana kita masih lagi tidak bersatu dalam banyak hal. Kita suka berkelahi atas perkara remeh dan kecil. Sedikit sekali terdapat aura antarabangsa pada pemimpin dan kepemimpinan di kalangan kita. Dalam banyak hal kemegahan yang dirasa hanya untuk hari ini dan untuk kelompok kecil dan diri kita sendiri sahaja. Lantas kita hanya berlegar dan berlumba dalam wadah yang kecil itu (fizikal dan mental). Boleh berjaya ke kita? Saya yakin dan percaya, jika aura antarabangsa dapat melekat kepada pemikiran kita, dalam masa yang terdekat Malaysia juga akan bebas dari kekepungan rendah diri ini dan dapat melangkah keluar menembusi pasaran dunia yang sangat berpotensi dan terbuka luas itu. InsyaAllah.

Khairy's `siege mentality'...

Ketua Pemuda UMNO, Khairy, sangat cenderung menggunakan istilah-istilah yang `extreme' sifatnya. Dalam ucapannya diperwakilan UMNO, beliau menggunakan perkataan`siege' yang membawa pengertian bahawa kita berada dalam keadaan kekepungan. Dan beliau juga telah membuka `bilik perang' dalam menghadapi pilihanraya yang ke-13. Perang? Siapa sebenarnya `under siege' di sini? Setiap orang di dunia ini sedikit sebanyak dalam pengaruh sesuatu dan ini termasuk saya. Tetapi kita mesti ingat kita dijadikan untuk berfikir. Dan peranan fikir adalah membebaskan kita dari fikiran jumud atau yang beku. Lumrah manusia dalam keadaan `siege' adalah perkembangan biasa. UMNO dahulunya adalah keadaan terkepung dengan mentaliti yang tidak menentu termasuklah dilabel sebagai sebuah parti elit dan berbangsawan. Betul ke? Dato' Seri Najib sedar akan hal ini. Maka berlakunya pemindaan perlembagaan UMNO yang dianggap drastik ini dengan harapan mempercepatkan kita bebas dari `siege mentality' yang akan membantut perkembangan otak kita. Antaranya amalan bodek, kipas, dan sikap bermuka muka. Diharapkan lepas ini, kita hanya memikirkan peningkatan ekonomi negara dan dengan tersendirinya kita sebagai individu akan turut maju. Biarlah hal politik ditentukan oleh mereka yang benar benar ada ketokohan di situ. InsyaAllah.

UMNO selepas keterbukaan...

Saya merasakan selepas ini UMNO akan menjadi parti yang kuat dan menjadi ikutan pula kepada parti komponen BN dan juga parti pakatan dalam usaha menentukan kepemimpinan mereka. Selama ini pengurusan parti politik di Malaysia sangat tertutup, sombong, dan kegersangan. Tak kiralah parti mana DAP, MIC, MCA, UMNO, PKR, PPP, dan juga PAS kesemuanya takut membuka cara mereka memilih pemimpin. Tapi hari ini UMNO telah melakukan sesuatu yang dianggap drastik dan boleh menjadi ikutan pula. Kata orang putih `it heals a lot of pain among party members and party leaders. But at the same time the rotten ones would soon be kicked out from their positions way down to the division and branch levels. 146,000 members are being given the right to vote their leaders. Law of large numbers never lie and manipulation become impossible.' Hari ini dalam menjalankan tugas harian, saya sendiri merasakan keterbukaan kepada semua perkara. Itulah kesan awalnya. Dan tidak lama lagi kita akan dapat menyaksikan perubahan bukan sahaja kepada soal politik tetapi juga kepada soal budaya, sosial dan pentadbiran negara. There is a saying which says, good thought would lead to good life and good feeling.

Bagan Pinang and answers to BN losing streak..

Simple. BN tries to hide the identity of their candidate till to the last minute. So is Pas and other political parties. This is because from the start they don't develop leaders but only followers. And political leaders are not that many around. Bagan Pinang has Isa Samad for a long time and waiting for the right moment in fielding him. He cannot be substituted because of his grassroot followers. He is the natural leader to them. Edward Kennedy has been the senator till his death at age 77.He has his bad moment of scandals and what not. But his leadership skill has no substitution. Age does not matter so long you are a team player. Politics is different from business organization. We must remember politics is a team game and no one man can be a leader for ever. But political leaders are different from business leaders. They are not the same. So make a search now, identify them and develop them.

He touches their heart...

A sick man does not really care of the background of the doctor treating him. Meaning the sick man is only interested in the future and that he can be healthy again. The doctor might have a very bad personal record but does the sick man cares? What matters the doctor is good in treating his patient. He can prescribe the best of medicines that can make him walk again. Thank you.

The by-election at Bagan Pinang, saw the doctor in Isa Samad. Their heart has already being touched by Isa Samad long before the election. When the opportunity arises for them to show their gratefulness, on the election day, they voted Isa Samad in as their representative.
As for them, he knows no other man except Isa because he has always there for them.
For that I have to congratulate Tan Sri Isa Samad. Keep up the good work. Congratulation..!